Weight: 329.0 lbs ( 149.2 kg)
BMI: 42.2
Waist: 54.5 in
(138.4 cm)
WtHr: 73.6%
Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs
Lunch:
Bologna Sandwiches, Pringles Pizza Chips
Dinner: Hormel Pork Loin
Lemon Garlic
Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free
Monster,
Sober Month 9 (Day 288)
Woke up in a mood today. It's just that I'm waking up surviving,
going back to bed, and then waking up the next day. Again, I'm not
tired of surviving, it's just wearying that that's all I'm doing. I
can't think of anything that I've made progress on this year. Well, I
have lost 17.7 lbs (8 kg) over the year. But I just haven't done much
this year. The problem with that thought it is kind of self
replicating (not the right term, but I can't think of the right one)
I get frustrated because I haven't done anything, and when I try to
think of something to do I just think that I haven't done anything. I
did try to come up with an idea of a video to work on, and a kid at
work did ask me about my YouTube channel. But I just couldn't get my
brain out of the funk this morning.
Looking at the spending comparison this morning was kind of making
me nervous. Today is the day last year that the rent check had came
through. And just like last year I was budgeting that the check would
come through on payday. But that was two days before payday. And
today is the day before payday. I do have enough checks to do the
“check cheat” but I would really not have to do fraud to pay the
rent. Thankfully it didn't come through today. It does make it look
nice that today's net balance is $481.57 higher than it was at this
time last year. If the rent did go through today's balance will be
$31.57 over last year. Now that doesn't mean that I had an extra $480
or an extra $30 to use, it just means that I had that much more than
last year. And the way it looks it looks like the rest of the year is
going to be positive compared to last year. I was really relieved to
see that the rent check didn't land today. If it wants to come in
tomorrow or any later it will be fine by me. I was just scared that
it would land today before I got paid tomorrow.
I had a strange shift today. They had scheduled me to work 11-7
instead of the regular 11-8 to avoid any overtime. But they had
scheduled me to work five hours and then 2 hours. It was nice to have
a longer first half than second half, but it's strange to work a 5/2
split. The first half went by really smoothly, but a big swarm of
people came in right at 3:30. I mentioned to a lady right when the
swarm came up that it got really busy really quickly. She did NOT
like the observation. I told her that it suddenly got busy, the
school just must have let out. And she started SLAMMING things onto
the register belt and yelled, “I'M NOT THROWING THINGS I'M JUST
PUTTING THINGS ON THE BELT!” I tried to calm her down and said that
it was alright, it was just really busy all of the sudden it must be
the after school rush. She shouted out, “I DON'T CARE, I'M USING MY
FOOD STAMPS!! THIS IS FOOD, I'M GOING TO BUY IT WITH MY FOOD STAMPS!
IS THAT OKAY WITH YOU?!” I didn't say anything about her using food
stamps. I have my own opinions about what should and shouldn't be
covered on food stamps. I'm one of those evil, horrible, nasty people
that think that you should only be able to buy food on food
stamps. And a good chunk of her “food” was junk, but I would
never confront a customer about what they should/shouldn't pay for
with their benefits. I can pretend that if I was on SNAP I'd only buy
clean healthy food, but I know myself enough to know I'd be loading
up on snacks the same as anybody else. But it was clear that I wasn't
involved in the conversation so I just rang her stuff up.
I did have a serving of the Keto Goulash left, but I was more in the mood for the sandwiches and chips.
The second half of work went by rather quickly as I was just a cashier for two hours.
When I got home I threw some Hormel Pork Loins in the oven.
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