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Weight: 336.4 lbs ( 152.6 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-s Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 8 (Day 253) Keto Week 1 (Day 8) The page count on the writing program says that this is the 600th page that I wrote for this blog. I keep it to one page before I post it on here. I haven't made 600 posts on this blog. I'm not sure where to look to see how many posts I've made. It hasn't always been a Sobriety or even Keto Blog, I will be proud to get up to 600 on either of those counts though.  Wow, up 8 lbs in two days. It would be unwise to blame all of that gain on one thing, but I don't think I'll have any of those Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs anymore. Feet, ankles, and left hip were really grumpy this morning. And my gut felt like it was overfilled. Like uncomfortably stuffed, even though I hadn't eaten in almost 12 ho...

Weight: 332.2 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Dinner: Ham Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Powerade Zero Orange Sober Month 8 (Day 252) Keto Day 7 Pretty big jump in the weight this morning. I'm hoping that'll just make September look better. Fairly certain that a good chunk of the weight gain this morning is due to seasonal allergies head is quite full of snot this morning. Not really a remarkable day. Yeah, it was Labor Day. And I did have some people point out the “irony” that I was working on labor day. But not as much as I was expecting. Kind of low mental energy all day today. I grabbed a scrap of paper to take notes of the day, but didn't write anything down. My left foot and left hip were really getting sore by the end of the evening at work Really tired today. Not sure if I'm just recovering from vacation, getting eff...

Weight: 328.4 lbs ( 149 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 8 (Day 251) Keto Day 6 It is fascinating that I usually finish a vacation week considerably higher in weight than I start it. But looks like it's down for the week, AND for the month.   Started off the day in a pretty sour mood. I really didn't want to go back to work. The mood did start lifting as I was going in to work as I do complain A LOT on here about the job, but for the vast majority of the time the job isn't a bad job to have. I just wish people weren't just so God damned dumb. And then I got to work. This person called in, but the manager said no so she's still “expected” to show up, one person no showed, another person had tried to switch hours with another person but the Customer Service Manager denied the swap. Thankf...

  Weight: 335.6 lbs ( 152.2 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 55 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: 2x Kroger Meat sticks, Small Bag Chips Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Salisbury Steaks Mac and Cheese Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 6 (Day 209) Keto Day 0 Brain is flat lining again today. I keep catching myself just sitting here at the computer. I blink and it seems to be an hour and a half later. It was quite busy today at work. But the day went smoothly. There was a moment of frustration a kid that was supposed to work yesterday who had a doctors note about not being able to work for the next week or so. The manager didn't bother telling anybody until about an hour before he was supposed to come in to tell anybody that he wasn't going to be able to come in. Thankfully they were able to convince one person to stay late and another to come in on her day off. The frustration there was the guy...

Weight: 332.8 lbs ( 150.9 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 55 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: 2x Kroger Meat Sticks Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Ham Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 6 (Day 208) Keto Day 2 Kind of struggling with a bit of a low mood lately. Not really “sad” per say. Just not feeling anything. Just really emotionally numb. Not sure what's going on there. It's kind of like the “Seasonal Effective Disorder” that I usually struggle with during the winter but it's the middle of summer. I just have a heavy case of “Don't wanna to” I have to go to work, but I don't wanna to, I could play video games, but I don't wanna to. I've been going to bed around 10:30 or 11pm, but it's still almost 2am before I fall asleep. I'm kind of frustrated with finances. Last week I payed the water bill, this week I payed the Rent and Phone bill, next week I'll b...

Weight: 349 lbs ( 158.3 kg) BMI: 44.8 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Cheese Mustard Snack: Savage Slim Jim Dinner: Bacon Cheeseburger Soup Drinks: Salted Coffee,Powerade Zero Orange, Gatorade Zero Orange, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 5 Sober Month 1 (Day 44) Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I posted at 11pm and then went to strait to bed. I was going to read for a while, but laid right down. The sleep tracker says that I didn't sleep until 2:15am, and I believe it. I'm not sure why it was so hard to fall asleep. I didn't have very many energy drinks yesterday. I tried to avoid energy drinks today to see if I would sleep better tonight. I did have a monster at lunch, but that's not as many as I'd normally have. And I thought I'd try the Gatorade, Powerade is cheaper so I had one of those later in the day. And I did have an energy shot later in the afternoon. But not becaus...

Weight: 345.6 lbs ( 156.8 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Strip Steak and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Garlic Mustard Dinner: Bratwursts Garlic Mustard Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Celsius Energy Mango Lemonade, Powerade Zero Orange, Keto Day 4 Sober Month 1 (Day 43) Roommate had a doctors appointment this morning. He asked me if the Seltzer water had a lot of sodium in it because the doctor told him that he was retaining a lot of water. The seltzer cans say “Low Sodium” Roommate said that he's going to quit drinking my seltzer water. Which works for me because I was buying those to quit drinking beer. Looking at the Keto Day count and the Sober Day counts kind of makes me go on a bender to reset both numbers and sync them up. I know that this is an unwise idea. But ever since I got the idea I can't shake it. “Oh, come on. One day wouldn't hurt” “It's not like you'll go back to buying cases of beer a day” But I do know ...

Weight: 347.8 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 45 Waist: 58.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Strip Steak Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 1 (Day 39) YMCA: X Had a lot of energy yesterday. So much energy it lasted into the night. I went to bed right after posting last night. But I didn't fall asleep until well after 2am. I was doing the rotisserie chicken until then. I even ran back downstairs to make sure that I put the bacon away. Yesterday I only had two strips of bacon so I wasn't able to have breakfast at home. I did remember to buy more bacon as I left work, but I wasn't sure that I had put it in the fridge. And it would have really irritated me if I had just left the $15 slab of bacon sitting on the counter top all night long. And yeah, I did put it away, I was just jumping out of bed because my brain was running wild. Ro...

Weight: 327.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Pot of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot, Couple cups of water Sober Day 6 It's kind of creepy to weigh the exact same as the day before. Was able to take inventory before work and got a meal plan together. The “Dinner” list looks kind of funny because it's just Rib-eyes over and over. But I didn't have room in my freezer for all of them. Didn't have time to defrost the freezer and wow there was a lot of ice built up. I'll try to defrost it after work. Noticed that I was out of Chili. I don't usually run out of chili, I usually have some variety of chili. Sometimes multiple varieties. I'm going to have to fix that but then again I might want to wait until the freezer is a little less full. I was almost late for work...

Weight: 327.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Ribeye Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Couple cups of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot, Couple of the large cups of water that the store provides Sober Day 5 Strange feeling waking up today. Physically well rested, but mind is tired. Hard to explain. Roommate went out back to the road today. I usually tease him about the rent money but I had to get to work. I'm just glad that I got through downtown before they closed Main Street. Apparently they're going to have a “Smallville Festival” downtown over the next couple of days. Roommate was very vocal about how much he hates everything to do with that. But then again listing things that he DOESN'T hate would be a considerably shorter list. I was kind of naughty for lunch. And bought some Jumbo Jumbo hot dogs. I'm sure that I ...

Weight: 330.0 lbs (149.7 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54.5 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar-s Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Chuck Shoulder Roast with Mushroom Gravy Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, “” Mango, Pot of Coffee with Cream, Celsius Mango Passion Fruit Sober Day 6 Couldn't get to sleep last night. Was physically tired, but brain was doing cartwheels all night long. I've made an observation. It's nice to stand up in the morning and not feel like I've stood up onto knives. Looking up the parts of the foot, the part known as the lateral arch is usually rather cranky when I wake up in the morning. But the last couple of days it hasn't been so bad. A lot of times when I stand up for the first time I'm sitting right back down with a yell of pain. But last couple of days, I'm not exactly dancing around, but at least I'm not having to convince myself that I have to power though it to get to the bathroom. The other day when Roommate ...

Weight: 329.4 lbs (149.4 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Instant Pot Chili Shredded Mexican Cheese Lunch: Goulash Dinner: Fathead Lasagna Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Water Strawberry Lemonade, “”Cranberry Lime Sober Day 4 UP FOUR TENTHS OF A POUND! UP FOUR TENTHS OF A POUND! My God what is the meaning of this!!!!!! Just kidding, I'm still down 3 lbs for the month and 9.2 lbs for the year. I'm not going to be too broken up about 4 ounces.  Roommate came in this morning. When he got in he asked to run by the store to get snack food for the week. I took the chance to fill up on Bratwursts, Chicken, and Seltzer Water. I also got the ingredients for some “Fathead” Lasagna. It was a rather expensive trip for just buying one recipe along with Bratwursts and Chicken. But then again, the freezer is getting rather full. It would be nice to have a large chest freezer, but I just don't have the room for it. Or at least I had assumed. But sa...

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: X Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Top Sirloin Steak Drinks: Diet Dr Pepper, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Blackberry Citrus Seltzer Water Sober Day 1 Having a hard time just...giving a damn. It's not even a thought of, “I'll do it tomorrow” It's more of a just sitting here zombie scrolling through social media. I seriously need to get my life under control. Those first sentences were written four days ago. Lately I feel like I'm just tumbling trough space. I grew up wanting to be an astronaut, but this isn't that. I was going to get this restarted back on Tuesday when I was really surprised by  1. I woke up at half-past noon. It seems like a flex, but I really hate sleeping past noon. And when I did get downstairs I was surprised by the second surprise.  2. My Mom was banging on my door doing a welfare check. My Stepdad had called her to check on me because I had let ...

Weight: 332.2 lbs (150.7 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Strip Steak and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar S Jumbo Jumbo Quarter Pound Beef Hot Dogs Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: 2x cups of Coffee Black, 500ml Bottled Water x3, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x4, 900ml water, Sober Week 1 (Day 10) Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I was able to get to bed around midnight like I want to. I had listened to the meditation lessons that my phone plays each night. And I felt really calm, but sleep just didn't happen. The health app says that I fell asleep at about 1:25am but I'm pretty sure that I remember seeing the alarm clock show 2:30. I woke up at about 7:30 and I felt alright. “Keto Insomnia” is a known thing when transitioning to the Keto diet. And this can last up to four weeks. So add that to the reasons and challenges to staying clean and sober. Because although I do feel more or less alright th...