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Weight: 345.4 lbs ( 156.7 kg) BMI: 44.3 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Egg Stuff ? Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Hamburger Patties with Cheesy Garlic Bread Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Week 4 (Day 29) YMCA: X Finally got around to cooking that recipe video that I'm planning to upload next week. I wasn't able to do the taste test part of it because Roommate woke up while I was still cooking. But it did smell quite nice. And I took the opportunity to take inventory of the freezer to set up the meal plan for the week. The recipe that I cooked would have made a better lunch than a breakfast. The recipe called for sausage, but the sausage that I had was only good until today. But I wasn't confident that I would be able to cook it today so I picked up another pack of sausage last night on the way home from work. But as I was able to cook that recipe I ended up having an extra thing of sausage that was ...

Weight: 346.2 lbs ( 157 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Red Bull, Monster Zero Ultra, Arizona Dt Lemonade Tea, Cayman Jack Margarita Sober Week 4 (Day 28) YMCA: X Woot, new record on days sober. Roommate did offer me a Cayman Jack Margarita, and I did accept. But I wont consider it breaking the streak. Because it's not like I'm drunk after one small can. Now if I were to go buy a case tomorrow and drink that, and then the next day, and then the next day. Yeah that's when I'm back in trouble. He tried to give me some advice on drinking, insisting that if I just moderate the drinking it won't be a problem. But he doesn't seem to understand I CAN NOT moderate. If I buy a case of beer I WILL BE drinking the entire thing. He said that if I just stopped when I felt the buzz it'll be fine. But that's the problem, I wont stop when I...

Weight: 345.8 lbs ( 156.8 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Divan Dinner: Pork Steak, Garden Salad with Ranch Dressing Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Week 3 (Day 26) YMCA: X I was wired for sound all night last night. I could NOT fall asleep. Sitting at my computer I couldn't even keep my head up. But going to bed I felt like I was hyper charged or something. I tried doing meditation and breathing exercises. But I was distracted by the feeling of my pulse pounding through my hands. Sleep tracker says that I fell asleep around 1:25 but I'm pretty sure it was closer to 2am. It does show that I got considerably more “Deep Sleep” than I normally do so maybe once I passed out I passed all of the way out. FINALLY progress at last. A week and a half into the year and finally under the starting weight of the year. I can't help but think that there might be a connection to how closely I...

Weight: 347.4 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Wasn't Hungry Drinks: Salted coffee with cream and lemon juice, Kroger Energy Shot Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 25) YMCA: X Fell asleep pretty quickly last night and the phone reflects that. I don't think that I'll be playing anything on my phone when I fall asleep anymore. I mean I sleep alright, but I don't want my phone lecturing me that I stayed up too late “watching YouTube” Got another pretty good down today. I'm still up for the year. But only 0.7 lbs (317 g) Who knows, perhaps I'll actually be making progress tomorrow. Got a bit of a hair brained idea this morning. I've been hearing a lot about Scurvy. Dr Berry and a lot of other influences I follow say that isn't a thing on carnivore because Beef actually has a enough Vitamin C, but I've been eating a l...

W eight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup with sour cream Dinner: Slow Cooked Chuck Roast with mushroom Gravy, Green Beans, Salad Drinks: Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 24) YMCA: X The Sleep record this morning showed something interesting. I did get to bed on time, more or less, and it didn't take me long to fall asleep. But the sleep record said I didn't fall asleep until almost 2 in the morning. I have a guess as to what might make the phone think that I was awake for so long. I'm thinking that it might be because I had set the phone to play some space documentaries to listen to while I drifted off. And I think that the phone saw that I was "watching YouTube videos" instead of being asleep. Clearly the phone was playing videos, and if the phone is playing a video I have to be watching it, right? There's no way I could be asleep while "watchi...

  Weight: 347.8 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Doritos Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 23) YMCA: X I tried to do a bit of reading last night when I went to bed. But the book I was trying to read was “ The Children of Húrin” by JRR Tolkien. Professor Tolkien is an amazing writer. He is great at building his world through his characters. The problem is I have a hard time remembering people by their names. So he'll spend three pages saying who this person is, where they lived, who is in their family, and then Oh, they died. Then he just says somebody elses name, and the story just expects you to know who they are.  It was odd this morning I woke up with Amazing Grace playing in my head. Going over the lyrics it is strange that Amazing Grace is thought of such a mournful song. It is singing about the blessings God has given ...

Weight: 352.6 lbs ( 159.9 kg) BMI: 45.3 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Cheesy Spinach Sausage Bake Lunch: Bacon and Eggs Dinner: Baked Flounder Fillets with Mac and Cheese Drinks: Coffee with Cream, Kroger Seltzer, 2L Fresca Sober Week 3 (Day 22) YMCA: X I got one of the recipes recorded before Roommate woke up. It is an AI inspired recipe Called Cheesy Spinach Sausage Bake. It was an easy thing to cook and it came out pretty well. Cutting up the onions did make my eyes burn for a while though. It took all day to edit the video. I just kept falling asleep here at the desk. I hope that isn't a indication on how people are going to react to the video. Took the dog out for a drive this afternoon while Roommate was with his nurse. It was unnerving that my tires gave a “Low Pressure” warning. I was getting that warning for the last couple of days. This is kind of upsetting because I just got a new set of tires back in the end of 2023 as a Christmas gift. In conversa...

Weight: 351.6 lbs ( 159.5 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: Corn Chips Lunch: Bar-S Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Week 2 (Day 21) YMCA: X Off to a roaring start this year. 3 weeks sober, but haven't been very Ketogenic yet so far. I made a Weekly Weigh In video yesterday. Editing went long so I had to finish it after work. And it felt weird to make a Vlog, and then a Blog. Because of the weather I was stuck at the store for lunch. I shouldn't complain about the weight gain the next day if I'm going to have Doritos and Fried Chicken for lunch. Spent all evening burping after lunch. I'm thinking that the Fried Chicken makes me burp a lot. Roommate made a pot of chili last night and that's why I had corn chips earlier today. I took an inventory of the freezer today to set up the meal plan for the week. And I went to the store to get the ingredients for a couple of recipe vi...

Weight: 346.8 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Grilled Pork Steaks Drinks: Salted Coffee, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Seltzer,Sugar Free Red Bull, Rockstar Focus Sober Week 2 (Day 15) YMCA: X Two full weeks sober, hadn't done that since July. And broke that streak on Independence Day at Day 19? I think. Day 19 was the last day I started a blog, I don't know if I had started that blog post in the morning and in the evening just decided to buy beer for the Forth of July. But I do have to say that I haven't been mentally or physically craving beer. Doritos hell yeah, but not really beer or alcohol. The real fight has been against habit. When I get off of work, or do the grocery shopping there's the beer sitting right there. Or the days off, like yesterday, I'll sit around thinking that I hadn't bought the beer yet. Spent a lot of time updating the spreadsheets for 2025. It is real...

Weight: 349.6 lbs ( 158.6 kg) BMI: 45.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Savage Slim Jim Lunch: Bag of Spicy Dill Pickle Chips Dinner: Bar-s Hot Dogs Snack: Bologna and sliced cheese Drinks: 5 Hour Energy, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Sober Week 1 (Day 14) YMCA: X Probably a bit of TMI in this one So didn't get around to making a post yesterday as the toilet was backing up into the bathtub. This has happened before, but rarely. I was praying that it was just the main sewer line like it was previously. IF that was the case they would just send someone out to clear the line. I called the landlord and he came out while I was at work. But when landlord came out he and Roommate checked the kitchen sink and that wasn't backing up. Meaning it was a clog in the upstairs sewer system. Meaning that the plumber had to go go upstairs. So I spent the free time panic scrubbing the bathroom. That bathroom hasn't been this clean in years. I woke up surprisingly ea...

Weight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages, Pringles Cheddar Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Power Aid Zero Orange Sober Week 1 (Day 12) YMCA: X There was leftover pizza this morning but chose to do the bacon and eggs instead. And again I woke up tired. I had sat a pan on the oven and turned it on and sat at my computer and only started cooking breakfast when I was reminded when I started to smell the pan warming up. Today was a really quiet day at work. Most people seem to be pretty chill. I did get into a couple of arguments with people. The Christmas items are naturally discounted 70% off. And a lot of people don't seem to understand that the discount is only on Christmas stuff, and can't comprehend that they can't get 70% off of Valentines Day and Spring merchandise before New Years. Apparently it's false a...

Weight: 348 lbs ( 157.9 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bologna Sandwich, Cheddar Sour Cream Chips Dinner: Gambinos Pizza Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sooter's Red Bull Insert(?) Sober Week 1 (Day 11) YMCA: X Another night when I had a hard time falling asleep. Not feeling stressed or anxious or anything. Just brain wasn't tired. The rest of me was dragging. But brain was doing back flips and jumping jacks Maybe why I had a weird dream. I don't usually have dreams, but when I do they're weird AF. I never have nightmares. I never wake up scared, I just wake up confused. In the dream I was stuck at a bar on the other side of town before dawn without a ride. In the bar there was one of those old soda machines where you put in money and open the door to get your coke. I got my coke, but the guy after me smashed the machine open and complained that he hurt his hand and was going to sue. I was wanting to leave ...

Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.7 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange, Sober Week 1 (Day 10) YMCA: X I got an idea this morning. Roommate's doctor is saying that he's going to be home until March for his leg infection, and Roommate is talking about getting a local job so he can get off of the road and be home every night. I'm wanting to be a YouTuber, but I really don't like making videos when he's home. Partially because I feel that it's not really fair to him to have him effect his time because I want to do my hobby. Also because if he's going to be in the background of my videos he has a quite a foul mouth when he's playing his games. And the things he shouts out would be something that would definitely get me canceled. However he is a dedicated night owl. And I have been wanting to get to bed e...

Weight: 348.4 lbs ( 158.0 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheeseburger Patties, Mac and Cheese Dinner: Mississippi Roast Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Snack: Last of The European Cookies Sober Week 1 (Day 9) YMCA: X Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Didn't feel bad or sick or anything. It's just that sleep just didn't happen. I wonder if it had anything to do with the couple glasses of soda that I had at Grandma's Christmas party. I'm not usually affected (effected?) by caffeine, but lately I've been avoiding any caffeinated drinks in the evenings. But although I had a hard time getting to sleep, I was able to get out of bed fairly easily this morning. I had a bit of a Christmas Miracle this morning. I usually get paid on Thursday and normally when payday lands on a holiday we get paid a day early. I was assuming that we'd get paid on Thursday like normal. I wasn't sure if the pay ...

Weight: 348.6 lbs ( 158.1 kg) BMI: 44.8 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bar-S Hot Dogs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Dinner: Christmas at Grandma Chili Dogs various snacks Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Week 1 (Day 8) YMCA: X Heh, down 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the month, up 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the year.  It'd be fun if I could lose that much in a week, but nah, it's not going to happen. I had to drive my Roommate to a doctor's appointment before I had to go to work so I didn't have time for a proper breakfast. So I just grabbed a pack of hot dogs before work. Roommate says that the doctor told him that he is now officially on the Keto Diet. Kind of sucks, I had some dry lips the other day. I grabbed some lip balm that helped a bit on the lips, but didn't seem to catch a bit. As it feels like I have a paper cut on my upper lip. But at least it doesn't feel li...

  Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.8 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Macaroni Salad Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster Guava Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 7 YMCA: X First time since July that I've gone a full week without beer. It's kind of encouraging that I've went a week without beer without much struggle. But also kind of disappointing that it's been nearly half a year that I've gone a full week without beer. I'd go three or four days, and then back to it. Today, understandably, was insanely busy at work. Thankfully most people understood why it was busy. But of course we had the, “Wow, it's really busy today!” or “Why is it so busy today?” Not sure if people were smart asses or dumb ones. Even the coworkers who are normally the ones I have to constantly chase after were able to keep rushing on their own. Which I...

Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Rockstar, Sugar Free Red Bull, Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 6 YMCA: X      Strange last night I had to wake up several times to pee. This is strange for me. Maybe because of how many carbs I ate lately? All of the Seltzer Water?      The up in the weight this morning is within normal daily fluctuations, so I'm trying to not beat myself up too much about the carbs in the last couple of days. Especially considering that some of those carbs were from a Christmas party.       The European Cookies are REALLY good dipped in coffee. The European Cookies are kind of like a box of chocolates, (except you know what you're going to get.) it is a verity box of different cookies. I don't want to eat them...

Weight: 347.6 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mac and Cheese with Hot Dogs Dinner: Christmas Gathering With Family Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Raspberry Iced Tea Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 5 YMCA: X I wore the other pair of pants that I bought yesterday. These do have accessory pockets but oddly they have zippers on them. I don't see myself zipping these up too often. These pants have a oddly tight fit around my calves. I'm sure that they'll wear in as well. Another odd thing about them are the front pockets are oddly deep and go straight down. It's nearly up to my elbow deep. And the back pockets are strangely wide. So it's kind of hard to get my wallet out while I'm sitting down. They also seem to smell quite good to dogs, as the roommate's dog has been randomly shoving it's cold nose up against my legs all day long. Very not very good with the diet today...