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Weight: 332 lbs (150.6 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chile Relleno Soup Snack: Bacon and Eggs Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Black Coffee, Several Cans of sugar free Big K Dr K and Cherry Cola  Sober Day 5 YMCA: No I didn't get around to posting last night. I didn't have any beer, but I did have some fried chicken for lunch and frozen pizza for dinner. This is supposed to be a Keto/Sobriety blog. I guess I could have just made a “Sobriety” post. But this started off as a Keto Blog and it kind of felt strange to write: “Welcome to my usually Keto Blog...” Another challenge that I couldn't overcome was yesterday was the last day of work before I went on vacation this week so when I got home all of ME just kind of shut down. I'm pretty sure I heard the windows shutdown sound when I sat at my computer. Although I did eat a lot of carbs yesterday I woke up feeling pretty good today. Ever since I got home fr

Weight: 331 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Several Cans of Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime and Mandarin Orange Sober Day 3 YMCA: Weights I got the hours and days mixed up in yesterday's post so I was able to get to the YMCA this morning. And I'm wanting to do swimming next week so I spent a few minutes in the weight room I had to struggle with the thought that I was doing everything wrong and I was just wasting time. I tried to use the counter thought of “Doing something is always better than doing nothing” but I really couldn't bring myself to do much in the weight room. I did feel a lot more confident and sure of myself when I was using the treadmill. But then again that's just walking. If I can't figure out how to walk by now I'm going to have a lot of questions with mys

Weight: 328.8 lbs (149.1 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Nathans Hot Dogs and Cottage Cheese Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango x7 Sober Week 2 (Day 15) Had a laugh that might have messed up the measurement of last nights meditative session. I wasn't paying attention to what the voice was saying because they started the session by saying, “Sit up straight in your chair, your head straight up, and let the stress of your day flow down. Let the stress of the day flow down into the part of the chair where your chair is touching your body” And I couldn't help but interpret that as, “Let the stress of the day flow down, let the stress of the day flow down, and out of your ass” The rest of the meditative session was lost to me because I couldn't help but to bust out laughing about the idea of forcing the daily stress out the ass. I think i

W eight: 334.2 lbs (151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mexican Ground Beef and Zucchini with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: 2x cups of Coffee Black, 500ml Bottled Water x4, Kroger Energy Shot x2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x5 Sober Week 1 (Day 9) Having a hard time the last couple of days getting up and going. Soreness in my lower right back. But it's more mentally struggling. I just couldn't get enough “Go” to go yesterday, but I did feel a considerable difference in the Mental and Physical energy yesterday. People were dumb AF but I'm starting to feel more “UP” on the days that I'm able to work out in the morning. Had Bacon and Eggs for breakfast after I got home from the YMCA. This is a very satisfying habit to get into. But I had used up the last of my bacon this morning and I forgot to pick up more bacon after work this evening. But I do have a Strip Steak in the fridge that I can have breakf

Weight: 334.8 lbs (151.9 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna mixed with Cheesy Ground Beef Casserole Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime 2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime 2, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sugar Free 3, Rockstar Silver ICE, 500ml Bottled water x6 Sober Day 3 Last night when I went to bed the daily meditation was titled “Hakuna Matata” and I couldn't help but think, “What a wonderful phrase.” But the voice over spent half of the lesson talking about The Lion King. And it kind of ruined the clever feeling of catching the reference. It's also kind of hard to fall asleep when you're listening to the meditative version of “Hakuna Matata”, it is a bit distracting Was a bit slow at falling asleep last night. Even with the meditation lessons. I wasn't as angry as I was the previous night. And I was quite relaxed, I just couldn't pass out. I am glad that I got to bed by m

Weight: 337.4 lbs (150.6 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cuban Picadillo with a handful of shredded cheese Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x3, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, 500ml Bottled water x8 Sober Day 2 Vitamins: B12 1000mg (New) Vitamin C 1000mg (New) 2x Vitamin D3 5000IU K2+D3 (D3 5000I K2 100mcg) Fish Oil 1200mg (lol when I first wrote that I wrote “Fish Soil” I don't know what Fish Soil is but I don't think I want any) Magnesium 250 mg Potassium Gluconate Got a bit of inspiration to get serious about my health and other things that I want to be doing. I don't want to go into a whole lot of detail because anything I write on here would just be third level hearsay about someone else's medical issues. But the short of it is that one of my cousins is in the hospital because she wont manage her diabet

Weight: 335.8 lbs (152.3 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Stroganoff Casserole Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: 2000ml water, 2x Kroger Energy Shots, Gatorade Zero Sugar Glacier Cherry, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Sober Week 1 (Day 8) Was finally able to get to the YMCA. I do have to say using those weight machines were very satisfying. It was also nice to hang out with Mom in an activity that she enjoys so much. It is somewhat of an entertaining thought that my mother is becoming a gym rat. I'm going to have to do some research on how lifting weights effect someone mentally. As I was leaving the gym I was feeling like I was drunk. But by the time I got to work I felt normal PHYSICALLY . But there was something going on with my mind and spirit. Because, WOW people were extra irritating today.  I'm going to make a really long, “Mark Whines About Work Blog” But these are just a few examples of what I had to deal with. These are kind

Weight: 337 lbs (152.9 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili with two slices of cheddar cheese mixed in Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: 2x Pepsi Zero, 2x Pepsi Cherry Zero, 2x Dr Pepper Zero, 2x Diet Mt Dew, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy, 1000ml water Sober Day 7 Really slow start this morning. I was really surprised to see it was 9:30 when I woke up the first time this morning. I did manage to get bacon and eggs cooked before I had to get to work. Would have been nice to get some coffee though. The weight was up compared to yesterday, but I'm trying to not beat myself up too much over eight tenths of a pound. For lunch I had some chili. I went to lunch at the same time the coworker that I had “converted” to the Keto diet. When I got back someone asked her what she had for lunch and she complained that all she was “allowed” to have was a piece of “lame” chicken. She asked what I had I told her that I h

Weight: 342.4 lbs (155.3 kg) BMI: 43.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno and Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Silver Ice Sober Day 4 I have been slipping on this. And the days have been kind of mushing together again. My left foot really has not been happy. I know that I haven't been very good on my diet, but the shoes that I have now I have had for several months now and I think I'm due for a new pair.  Everyday when I wake up I tell myself, “Today, TODAY is the day that I'm going to get back onto the diet and plans” and then I start the day, and then, “well maybe tomorrow will be the day that I get back to it.” And then yesterday Mom shared a message saying that one of my cousins is in the hospital with Diabetic Ketoacidosis. This kinda tells me that I really need to get back into the diet. Cousin has had diabetes for a while no

Weight: 338.6 lbs (153.6 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 5x slices Papa Johns Meat Pizza, Garlic Bites Dinner: 4x Burger Patties with sliced Cheddar and Pepper Jack Cheese Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, 16.9 oz bottle of Cherry Coke zero Sugar, 5400ml water Sober Day 5 Usually when I'm not posting constantly it means that I've fallen off the wagon. But this week I just can not find the time or energy to get literally anything done. I kind of feel like my arms and legs are tied up, every time I try to do something I have other things to do. Today was nice because it was the first day since November when I was able to sit down and I don't have anything coming up anytime soon. Of course I could have been more productive, but sitting down and playing some Minecraft was nice. Sunday I was able to get the Weekly Weigh In video recorded before work, but only a minute or two before I had to leave for work. And when I got home I h

Weight: 342.8 lbs (155.5 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sober Day 1 Two weeks almost to the day that I've last posted on my “Daily” Blog. The last post on here was the day before Christmas Eve. I told myself that I wasn't considering Christmas as a “Cheat Day” but the problem came when after Christmas I told myself, “Heck it's the end of the year anyway, why not?” and then, “Meh it's still early in the year.” And this last week I've been really struggling with a very heavy flare up of apathy. I just can't seem to give a damn about anything lately. I've been sitting at my computer until I have to go to work, stand around waiting for the day to end, and then going back home and sitting at the computer. The last several weeks have been kind of a gray blur, I've b

Weight: 335.2 lbs (152 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Steak Drinks: Couple Cups of Coffee Black,Several cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Silver Weeks Sober 3 (Day 27) Stepdad looked at the car and it was the water pump that had went out. I do admit that he scared the hell out of me when he said that he was going to “Call a wrecker” after he determined that the problem was the water pump. He said that he put some antifreeze in and it just poured right out so he called a wrecker. I'm pretty sure that if I was linked up to an EKG it would have been writing in cursive. But he reassured me that the tow truck was just going to take it to my Granduncle's place for him to work on because it would be bad to drive it any more than absolutely necessary. Sounds like it's going to be an easy fix and it'll be done by the time I get

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Beef Hot Dogs Dinner: Rib eye steak with garlic butter Drinks: Cup of Coffee Black with 1/4 tsp salt, a couple cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, 1500ml water Weeks Sober 3 (Day 26)      When I got up this morning my feet didn't hurt as much as they've had previously. I'm not sure if that is a sign of progress or not, but it is nice to stand up and not feel like the bottom of my feet are being Tased while being on fire. Legs were still a bit stiff and I had a pain in the back of my head but those went away as I got up and moving around.      I put a quarter teaspoon of salt into the coffee this morning because the entire teaspoon of salt that I had put in that cup was a bit too much.      I had decided to download the app that the doctor suggested to install to tack the eating habits. The frustrating thing is that I am planning on doing my version of “Me

Weight: 336.8 lbs ( 152.8 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Deconstructed Pizza Casserole Dinner: Slow Cooked Chuck Roast with Mushroom Gravy Drinks: Quite a few cans of Seltzer water of various flavors Weeks Sober 3 (Day 24) I didn't do much before the Doctor's appointment. I was kind of afraid of eating too much or drinking any coffee because of the effect that the food would have on the scale, or the caffeine in the coffee on the blood pressure. These factors are why I'd prefer to have appointments and meetings in the morning if I could. Not that I have had a whole lot of doctors appointments, but even when I work later in the afternoon, I spend the entire day counting down how much time I have until I have to go into work or that meeting. The bacon I had for breakfast was the bacon that Stepdad was kind enough to donate to me the other day. When he gave it to me he said that it wasn't very good quality, I thought he

Weight: 335.8 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Tootn' Chili Turkey Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Cranberry Lime Weeks Sober 2 (Day 20) I did a bit of re-tweaking to the 2023 and 2024 weight loss tracking spreadsheets before work. For the 2023 spreadsheet I had the wrong number for the BMI goal. It was only off by 2.3 so not a big change and for the 2024 Spreadsheet I was going to change the Waist to Height Ratio tracking to Waist to Hip Ratio, but I've been doing Waist to Height Ratio for so long I think changing what WtHR means would just cause confusion. It's kind of unfortunate that both Height and Hip both start with the letter “H” otherwise it wouldn't be a big deal. Oh well, that just changes a thing that I was going to change back to the thing that I was already doing. And I'm very grateful for the “Find/Replace” tool on Open Office it

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Stroganoff Casserole Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: Couple cups of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Cranberry Lime Weeks Sober 2 (Day 19) Last night the meditation was kind of strange. I was able to meditate without falling asleep just fine, and I did feel calm after the breathing session, but the “Stress” tracker on my watch said that the level of stress that I was experiencing had gone up instead of down like in previous sessions. I did fall asleep quite easily last night. Strangely the app said that I didn't get to sleep until 2:30 this morning, even though I went to bed closer to midnight. That first doctors appointment when the doctor asked me how well I usually sleep I asked him how much he trusted smartwatches to track sleep, and he seemed to think that they are pretty accurate. Bit of a hard time getting going this morning.

Weight: 338.8 lbs (153.7 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Salad Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Couple cups of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, Rockstar Pure Zero Silver Ice, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango Weeks Sober 2 (Day 18) I guess that Queso Soup is bad for weight loss lol, I shouldn't worry about a daily fluctuation, but being up by four pounds in a single day is unfortunate. But considering that the waist hasn't gone up I'm just assuming that I'm just sitting on the food I ate yesterday (Tuesday). I got an email that showed the data of Yesterday's DXA scan. I got to say I DO NOT like the green blob of me laying there. I do have to say that I was surprised of the amount of fat that is in my legs. I knew that I had a serious gut that I had to work on, but I has always assumed that my legs were all muscle as I walk around all day almost every day. And my thighs have always been

Weight: 334.6 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Queso Soup Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Pot of Coffee black, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango Weeks Sober 2 (Day 17) Didn't sleep very well last night. Stayed up later than I should have to listen to the streamer that I like to watch on Monday nights. But when I did finally get to bed I had one of those nights when I jumped out of bed every time I laid down. I could just not lay still. I even tried to do the meditation, the notification disappeared from my phone before I got to bed. But every time I laid down my heart would race and my breathing started racing. It felt like a panic attack every time I tried to get to sleep. This has happened before, but it is a very rare occurrence. I'm not sure what causes this, but it doesn't happen enough to try to figure out. I was able to wake up early enough to eat the regular breakfast of bacon and e