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Weight: 333.8 lbs ( 151.4 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: 2x Chocolate Glazed Donuts Lunch: Paleo Keto Gumbo Snack: Glazed Donut Dinner: Bratwurst Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Powerade Zero Orange Sober Month 6 (Day 201) Keto Day 0 Good drop in weight today. We'll see if that continues Trying to think of anything to say. But when I got home my brain just shut down. Today went really smoothly. The store has a promotion for $5 dozen donuts and someone had bought several dozen for the break room. I know that I shouldn't have, but I had a couple of them during my 15 minute break as I had worked a 5:3 split today. Having donuts resets the Keto Kount. I thought about not saying anything, because nobody would know if I didn't tell anybody. But a lie of omission is still a lie, and I'd just be lying to myself. I did grab some sour cream for the Gumbo, and that did tur...

Weight: 337.2 lbs ( 153 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Paleo Keto Gumbo  Dinner: Baked Boneless Rib Eye Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 6 (Day 200) Keto Day 1 I closed the desk last night so I was late getting home so by the time I got done recovering from work it was time to go to bed. I had a Paranoid Schizophrenic come through the desk last night so that was interesting. Lady came up to the desk asking to check the balance of a gift card. It was a gift card for the store so that's one I can check the balance of. She asked if the name on the back of the card was an “Islamisist Name” It just said, “From a Friend” but it was in cursive. She insisted that Islamisists” were forcing her into homelessness and into forced prostitution. They had hacked her Social Security and was stealing her Housing Vouchers to force her into slavery. I wasn't really sure on how to h...

Weight: 331.6 lbs ( 150.4 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Casserole   Dinner: Bubba Nachos Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 6 (Day 199) Keto Day 0 Got distracted by Minecraft last night to do a blog post. What I was trying to do was to fill out the entire local map. The problem was that as I walked around the sun would go down and monsters would come out at night. I carried a bed with me to “Sleep through the night” but a lot of times when I placed the bed down the monsters would spawn too closely to my bed and I would try fighting them off to sleep, but a lot of times when I was fighting one monster another one would come up behind me and blow me up. If you can get back to the point where your character was killed quickly enough you can pick up the stuff that you had, but the thing is that a lot of time the point where I died would be on the other side of the play area ...

Weight: 334.6 lbs ( 151.7 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Casserole   Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 6 (Day 197) Keto Day 2 Playing Minecraft last night was really strange they had updated the lighting effects and it was really strange to have shadows in Minecraft. It was kind of neat how the torches let out a soft orange glow. But a lot of the “day” in the game had really bright haze over everything to simulate bright sunlight. So it really only looked right in the morning and during the evening when the sun was low in the game. I worked later in the afternoon than I usually do. (1-9 instead of 11-8 or 12-9) but I really wasn't very productive this morning. I really just spent the time before work starring at the financial program that I use to track and plan my spending. I was going back and forth on wither or not or how to budget...

Weight: 333.4 lbs ( 151.2 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Casserole Dinner: Chuck Roast with mushroom gravy, American Blend Salad, Green Beans Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 6 (Day 197) Keto Day 1 The last three days really just smashed together. It was just a giant swarm of people with explosions in between. I love my country. America is awesome. But it was a real dick move of the Founding Fathers to put Independence Day right at the beginning of the month like that. I had an awkward conversation with the trans person today. S/he asked what the policy on refusing service to people was. I was really hesitant to give a definite answer on that. Particularly right after getting a write up for being “rude” to people. Apparently they were upset because someone came through with a swastika tattoo and s/he was wanting to know if we could refuse service to them....

Weight: 335.8 lbs ( 152.3 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Kroger Cheddar Bratwursts Dinner: Taco Mac and Cheese Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Unsweetened Tea, Milk Sober Month 6 (Day 192) Keto Day 0 Had a hard time getting going today. Woke up with what felt like a hangover. Just couldn't get up and moving. It was 2 in the afternoon by the time I started doing anything. I had a stifling headache all day. I made some Taco Casseroles for the weekly lunch plan. The recipe says that it makes Six Servings. But I think that those are six servings with a salad and a veggie side. I went ahead and made two batches with two servings per dish that I put into the fridge so it would last me all week. It took me a bit longer than I thought it would to cook the two batches of the casserole which is strange because it was just a matter of browning the ground beef, mixing it all together, and then ba...

Weight: 335.2 lbs ( 152.0 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fathead Lasagna Dinner: Hormel Garlic Pork Loin Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Strawberry Dreams Sober Month 6 (Day 191 Keto Day 2 Struggling with writers block this morning on the blog. Considerably more mental and physical energy this morning than previous mornings. But seem to have a log jam of ideas of what to say. It like one of those pictures where you're supposed to see a secret image in them, but if you focus wrong you can't see the image. If that makes sense I finished the Fathead Lasagna for lunch. It was a bit of an early lunch, but Dr Berry always says, “Eat when you're hungry” It's been a couple of weeks since I've played Oblivion so I decided to open that up again. I finished the Dark Brotherhood and Mages Guild story lines. It is so strange to finish those quests. If you do about 10 or so missions you go from br...

Weight: 338.8 lbs ( 153.7 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fathead Lasagna   Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Peachy Keen Sober Month 6 (Day 190 Keto Day 2 Had a hard time waking up this morning. I just kind of sat here at the computer counting down the time until I had to go to work. I worked Noon to Nine closing the Customer Service Desk instead of the normal 11a-8pm Supervisor shift that I usually do. I drank an entire pot of coffee, but I'm just sitting here zoned out. I had thought a couple of times that I need to get a plan together for what I'm going to cook on Tuesday for the weekly lunch. But then I zone back out. First half of the day went really smoothly. Not sure if I should write this down. This is being logged at lunch. I worked a 3:5 split so I went to lunch at 3pm and will have to work 4 to 9. The challenge of the first half of today was that I wasn't superviso...

Weight: 341.2 lbs ( 154.7 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fathead Lasagna   Dinner: Baked T-bone Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free monster, Michelob Ultra Zero, Sober Month 6 (Day 189) I know that “Happiness is not a number on a scale” but being up almost 12 pounds (~5 kg) over the month kinda hurts the morale. I've been feeling really bleah over the month. I'm not sure if that's because I've been off of the diet for too long. There is a fascinating link between Body/Mind/Spirit (emotion) health. Heck maybe looking at the weight tracking up everyday is hurting the mood. I haven't been making the daily blog, but I have been keeping track of the weight. But I often remind myself that each day is just a data point on the graph. I spent most of the week staying at Mom's house while she went to Yellowstone National Park. When she got home on Thursday I cooked up a batch o...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Pizza Soup  Classic Potato Chips Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Sugar Free Red Bull, Michelob Ultra Zero,  Sober Month 5 (Day 172) Sorry that I haven't been posting like I've been wanting to lately. On Sunday Mom threw a party for Grandma as it was Grandma's 80th birthday. And after the party I was in a strange mood. I sat down and I just didn't wanta. I didn't wana anything. I'm not sure what that mood came from. I don't know if it was because of all of the family members that I was supposed to know, but didn't know. All of the stuff people were talking about progressing their lives and I'm just still sitting here just trying to get my bills paid. I know this blog is about me. But it didn't feel right to make a post saying, “Yay, I went to Grandma's Birthday, and now I'm sad” I feel guilty for tha...

Weight: 334.6 lbs ( 151.7 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Baked T-Bone Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Monster Sober Month 5 (Day 169) Had a chuckle when I woke up this morning. I saw a headline that apparently the shareholders of the parent company of my store think that the staff is underpaid and they are supposedly asking the company to pay us a “Living Wage” of at least $19 to $20. Yeah, that's not going to happen. I had just gotten a 25 cent raise. Raising it to $20, would be a nearly 25 PERCENT raise. Which would be a fun idea, it's just not going to happen. There was a digital coupon for the name brand coffee last week so I had took advantage of that to buy “Black Silk” flavored coffee, and I can't say that I like that flavor, it just tastes burnt. I usually drink the Breakfast Blend of the store brand. Every once an...

Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Keto Clam Chowder Snack: Savage Slim Jim Dinner: Velveeta Hamburger Skillet Dinner Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 5 (Day 164) It's June now and I'm still fighting against writing "April" in the title in each post.  Used up the last of the bacon this morning at breakfast. I'm glad that I have bacon on the shopping list for the week. I was excited last week when I did the inventory and it looked like I had enough Lunch and Dinner components to not have to do grocery shopping this next week. But I'll have to buy more Bacon, Eggs, and Seltzer. And there is a Digital Coupon on Bratwursts (not sponsored) this week and if there's a coupon on something you have to buy that thing right? Had a weird feeling as I was going into work. It was like a light floaty feeling. Have you ever had a heavy sobbing cry? Just wept...

Weight: 329.4 lbs ( 149.4 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Basic Chili  and Potato Chips Dinner: Mac and Cheese and Hot Dogs Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer,5 Hour Energy Shot Hawaiian Breeze Sober Month 5 (Day 161) Woo back on track. I've been hard bingeing Oblivion over the last several days so I didn't take the time to make much progress on anything else. I had started a new play through so I can truly track all of the locations that I've discovered and that did put me in a bit of a funk as I was up to 60 hours on the last play through and restarted and all of that time was just wiped out. And starting that again kind of hurt. But this play through I've found 139 locations but only cleared 24 of them. That's 43% locations found but only 7% of the locations cleared. But I'm going to try to not have my time so absorbed by the game. I'm going to stop tracking “Keto” days until (if?) Roommate goe...

Weight: 332.8 lbs ( 150.9 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cabbage Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea, Kroger Energy Shot, Arizona Diet Lemonade Tea, Keto Day 3 Sober Month 5 (Day 155) I seem to be in a bit of a Weight Loss Plateau. But looking at the data of the year that seems to be the pattern. January was pretty flat, February had pretty good progress, March was pretty flat, and then April had good progress, and now May is flat. So I'm not sure if that is normal, but I am making amazing progress for the year. I didn't get a chance to take any notes today. I do remember that there were moments that I wanted to write things down. But good gravy today was swamped busy. It was the Friday of a holiday weekend and there are rumors of bad weather over the next couple of days. It was insanely busy and I did have more than one person ask me if the help that we had was all of the help...

Weight: 332.6 lbs ( 150.8 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Big Mac Casserole Dinner: Strip Steaks Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Keto Day 2 Sober Month 5 (Day 154) A little disappointed that the weight is up a couple of pound since yesterday. But I'm REALLY KIND OF FREAKED OUT that the paycheck hasn't landed in my bank account this morning. The pay stub usually updates on Wednesday around 7pm and I usually check the site as I'm leaving work on Wednesday, but I was off yesterday so I didn't bother checking the site and I was just expecting the deposit at midnight like usually happens. I checked my balances after posting last night...and it wasn't there. I tried to check the website were the pay stubs are posted and it wasn't responding. So I downloaded the related app. After a bit of login and signing up drama, I was able to check my pay stub...and it wasn't there. The last pay stu...

Weight: 330 lbs ( 149.7 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Hormel Garlic Herb Pork Loin Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Keto Day 1 Sober Month 5 (Day 153) Had spaghetti last night so resetting the Keto Count. Got distracted by Oblivion last night so I didn't get around to posting. Or at least that'll be the excuse that I'll use.  It is nice to be back down to 330 (149.7 kg) Goal is currently at 320 (145.1 kg) but I seem to be back on track now.  I did manage to defrost the freezer and take an inventory yesterday. Frustratingly the freezer is still overfilled. HOW DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING? Yeah, I bought some more Bratwursts, and a Pork Butt cut into steaks. But that's all I bought and it was still a challenge to get everything back into the freezer even with the stuff I got out for the weekly meal plan. I didn't think that I had bought more than the seven lunches and sev...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Basic Chili Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 5 (Day 152) Keto Week 1 (Day 7) I didn't post last night, I just didn't feel like it. I tired to explain why in this post before going to bed, but brain just didn't want to comply. It was almost like the Windows Shutdown Sound went off as soon as I got home last night. A piece of good news, my feet have stopped hurting. I was nervous about my left foot for a couple of days as it was sore on the top outside. I guess that I just stepped wrong, but it seems to have sorted itself out. Forgot my freaking notes again. I do remember that there were things that I wanted to write about, but I can't remember them now. I guess there was a Tornado Warning last night around midnight. It wasn't a very effective warning as nobody seemed...

Weight: 334 lbs ( 151.5 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Month 4 (Day 150) Keto Day 6 Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I just didn't want to go to bed. I was feeling kind of frustrated with the feeling of go to bed, wake up, go to work, go to bed, wake up, go to work, feeling of a loop. And the chili from last night was messing with my stomach and it was kind of cranky for most of the day. Coffee tasted a bit odd this morning. Kind of sour bitter. I'm not sure what's going on there. This container of coffee that I bought recently was the little baggie of coffee and not the can that I usually buy and I had left it open sitting next to the coffee pot so maybe it's going bad? It says to keep in the fridge, but I hadn't kept any other coffees in the fridge. But the other coffees had a lid that I could close an...

Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55.5 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Jonsonville Queso Blano Jalapeno Smoked Sausages Dinner: Instant Pot Chili Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sober Month 4 (Day 149) Keto Day 5 Came across some headlines that redoubled my intentions to try to avoid energy drinks. A major ingredient in most of the energy drinks is known as Taurine. TL;DR They're linking Taurine to Leukemia. Okay, this next part is biased on my understanding and Google searches and suffers from many rewrites to get “right”. The caffeine in the energy drinks doesn't as much give you energy. Brains are weird as it doesn't feel tired until it receives a chemical (adenosine) in a receptor. And Caffeine blocks those receptors so it isn't that you have more energy, you just don't feel the tired. That explains the “caffeine crash” that people have when it fades off. You didn't have more energy, t...