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Weight: 338.8 lbs ( 153.7 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fathead Lasagna   Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Peachy Keen Sober Month 6 (Day 190) Had a hard time waking up this morning. I just kind of sat here at the computer counting down the time until I had to go to work. I worked Noon to Nine closing the Customer Service Desk instead of the normal 11a-8pm Supervisor shift that I usually do. I drank an entire pot of coffee, but I'm just sitting here zoned out. I had thought a couple of times that I need to get a plan together for what I'm going to cook on Tuesday for the weekly lunch. But then I zone back out. First half of the day went really smoothly. Not sure if I should write this down. This is being logged at lunch. I worked a 3:5 split so I went to lunch at 3pm and will have to work 4 to 9. The challenge of the first half of today was that I wasn't supervisor I was s...

Weight: 341.2 lbs ( 154.7 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fathead Lasagna   Dinner: Baked T-bone Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free monster, Michelob Ultra Zero, Sober Month 6 (Day 189) I know that “Happiness is not a number on a scale” but being up almost 12 pounds (~5 kg) over the month kinda hurts the morale. I've been feeling really bleah over the month. I'm not sure if that's because I've been off of the diet for too long. There is a fascinating link between Body/Mind/Spirit (emotion) health. Heck maybe looking at the weight tracking up everyday is hurting the mood. I haven't been making the daily blog, but I have been keeping track of the weight. But I often remind myself that each day is just a data point on the graph. I spent most of the week staying at Mom's house while she went to Yellowstone National Park. When she got home on Thursday I cooked up a batch o...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Pizza Soup  Classic Potato Chips Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Sugar Free Red Bull, Michelob Ultra Zero,  Sober Month 5 (Day 172) Sorry that I haven't been posting like I've been wanting to lately. On Sunday Mom threw a party for Grandma as it was Grandma's 80th birthday. And after the party I was in a strange mood. I sat down and I just didn't wanta. I didn't wana anything. I'm not sure what that mood came from. I don't know if it was because of all of the family members that I was supposed to know, but didn't know. All of the stuff people were talking about progressing their lives and I'm just still sitting here just trying to get my bills paid. I know this blog is about me. But it didn't feel right to make a post saying, “Yay, I went to Grandma's Birthday, and now I'm sad” I feel guilty for tha...

Weight: 334.6 lbs ( 151.7 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Baked T-Bone Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Monster Sober Month 5 (Day 169) Had a chuckle when I woke up this morning. I saw a headline that apparently the shareholders of the parent company of my store think that the staff is underpaid and they are supposedly asking the company to pay us a “Living Wage” of at least $19 to $20. Yeah, that's not going to happen. I had just gotten a 25 cent raise. Raising it to $20, would be a nearly 25 PERCENT raise. Which would be a fun idea, it's just not going to happen. There was a digital coupon for the name brand coffee last week so I had took advantage of that to buy “Black Silk” flavored coffee, and I can't say that I like that flavor, it just tastes burnt. I usually drink the Breakfast Blend of the store brand. Every once an...

Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Keto Clam Chowder Snack: Savage Slim Jim Dinner: Velveeta Hamburger Skillet Dinner Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 5 (Day 164) It's June now and I'm still fighting against writing "April" in the title in each post.  Used up the last of the bacon this morning at breakfast. I'm glad that I have bacon on the shopping list for the week. I was excited last week when I did the inventory and it looked like I had enough Lunch and Dinner components to not have to do grocery shopping this next week. But I'll have to buy more Bacon, Eggs, and Seltzer. And there is a Digital Coupon on Bratwursts (not sponsored) this week and if there's a coupon on something you have to buy that thing right? Had a weird feeling as I was going into work. It was like a light floaty feeling. Have you ever had a heavy sobbing cry? Just wept...

Weight: 329.4 lbs ( 149.4 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Basic Chili  and Potato Chips Dinner: Mac and Cheese and Hot Dogs Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer,5 Hour Energy Shot Hawaiian Breeze Sober Month 5 (Day 161) Woo back on track. I've been hard bingeing Oblivion over the last several days so I didn't take the time to make much progress on anything else. I had started a new play through so I can truly track all of the locations that I've discovered and that did put me in a bit of a funk as I was up to 60 hours on the last play through and restarted and all of that time was just wiped out. And starting that again kind of hurt. But this play through I've found 139 locations but only cleared 24 of them. That's 43% locations found but only 7% of the locations cleared. But I'm going to try to not have my time so absorbed by the game. I'm going to stop tracking “Keto” days until (if?) Roommate goe...

Weight: 332.8 lbs ( 150.9 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cabbage Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea, Kroger Energy Shot, Arizona Diet Lemonade Tea, Keto Day 3 Sober Month 5 (Day 155) I seem to be in a bit of a Weight Loss Plateau. But looking at the data of the year that seems to be the pattern. January was pretty flat, February had pretty good progress, March was pretty flat, and then April had good progress, and now May is flat. So I'm not sure if that is normal, but I am making amazing progress for the year. I didn't get a chance to take any notes today. I do remember that there were moments that I wanted to write things down. But good gravy today was swamped busy. It was the Friday of a holiday weekend and there are rumors of bad weather over the next couple of days. It was insanely busy and I did have more than one person ask me if the help that we had was all of the help...

Weight: 332.6 lbs ( 150.8 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Big Mac Casserole Dinner: Strip Steaks Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Keto Day 2 Sober Month 5 (Day 154) A little disappointed that the weight is up a couple of pound since yesterday. But I'm REALLY KIND OF FREAKED OUT that the paycheck hasn't landed in my bank account this morning. The pay stub usually updates on Wednesday around 7pm and I usually check the site as I'm leaving work on Wednesday, but I was off yesterday so I didn't bother checking the site and I was just expecting the deposit at midnight like usually happens. I checked my balances after posting last night...and it wasn't there. I tried to check the website were the pay stubs are posted and it wasn't responding. So I downloaded the related app. After a bit of login and signing up drama, I was able to check my pay stub...and it wasn't there. The last pay stu...

Weight: 330 lbs ( 149.7 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Hormel Garlic Herb Pork Loin Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Keto Day 1 Sober Month 5 (Day 153) Had spaghetti last night so resetting the Keto Count. Got distracted by Oblivion last night so I didn't get around to posting. Or at least that'll be the excuse that I'll use.  It is nice to be back down to 330 (149.7 kg) Goal is currently at 320 (145.1 kg) but I seem to be back on track now.  I did manage to defrost the freezer and take an inventory yesterday. Frustratingly the freezer is still overfilled. HOW DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING? Yeah, I bought some more Bratwursts, and a Pork Butt cut into steaks. But that's all I bought and it was still a challenge to get everything back into the freezer even with the stuff I got out for the weekly meal plan. I didn't think that I had bought more than the seven lunches and sev...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Basic Chili Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 5 (Day 152) Keto Week 1 (Day 7) I didn't post last night, I just didn't feel like it. I tired to explain why in this post before going to bed, but brain just didn't want to comply. It was almost like the Windows Shutdown Sound went off as soon as I got home last night. A piece of good news, my feet have stopped hurting. I was nervous about my left foot for a couple of days as it was sore on the top outside. I guess that I just stepped wrong, but it seems to have sorted itself out. Forgot my freaking notes again. I do remember that there were things that I wanted to write about, but I can't remember them now. I guess there was a Tornado Warning last night around midnight. It wasn't a very effective warning as nobody seemed...

Weight: 334 lbs ( 151.5 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Month 4 (Day 150) Keto Day 6 Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I just didn't want to go to bed. I was feeling kind of frustrated with the feeling of go to bed, wake up, go to work, go to bed, wake up, go to work, feeling of a loop. And the chili from last night was messing with my stomach and it was kind of cranky for most of the day. Coffee tasted a bit odd this morning. Kind of sour bitter. I'm not sure what's going on there. This container of coffee that I bought recently was the little baggie of coffee and not the can that I usually buy and I had left it open sitting next to the coffee pot so maybe it's going bad? It says to keep in the fridge, but I hadn't kept any other coffees in the fridge. But the other coffees had a lid that I could close an...

Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55.5 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Jonsonville Queso Blano Jalapeno Smoked Sausages Dinner: Instant Pot Chili Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sober Month 4 (Day 149) Keto Day 5 Came across some headlines that redoubled my intentions to try to avoid energy drinks. A major ingredient in most of the energy drinks is known as Taurine. TL;DR They're linking Taurine to Leukemia. Okay, this next part is biased on my understanding and Google searches and suffers from many rewrites to get “right”. The caffeine in the energy drinks doesn't as much give you energy. Brains are weird as it doesn't feel tired until it receives a chemical (adenosine) in a receptor. And Caffeine blocks those receptors so it isn't that you have more energy, you just don't feel the tired. That explains the “caffeine crash” that people have when it fades off. You didn't have more energy, t...

Weight: 334.8 lbs ( 151.9 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: Bar-S Hot Dogs Lunch: Big Mac Casserole Dinner: Swai Fish and Garden Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea, Coconut Water Sober Month 4 (Day 148) Keto Day 4 AC guy showed up right after I dropped Roommate off at his appointment he worked all day while I was at work. Roommate had to take public transportation to get home. When Roommate got back home the guy had left, but he had left a small generator hooked up to the AC unit outside. He did come back to continue working on it. I'm a little disappointed that it wasn't done by lunch. But hey, done well is better than done fast. He got the AC working, but he'll come back next week to finish some work on the Heater. I don't think that we'll have to worry too much about the heater working or not. He's also going to install a digital thermostat When I first got to work I felt really ...

Weight: 332.6 lbs ( 150.8 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Pizza Soup Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties, Garden Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea, Powerade Zero Strawberry, Sparkling ICE Lemon Lime Sober Month 4 (Day 147) Keto Day 3 AC guy showed up right before I had to go to work. Thankfully Roommate will be home if there are any issues. I was starting to get worried because it was 10 o'clock and he still hadn't called. I only saw that he was here because I saw his van pull up to the back of the house. We were, more or less, ready for him. We just had to drag the dog up to Roommates room. I think I recognize the technician I'm pretty sure he introduced himself to me as someone who did some work on my Grandma's house. Kind of nervous to ask him about it. He removed the heater from the basement and the AC unit from outside. And my guess of him, “being done by lunch” was kind of correct because...

Weight: 332.4 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Skeats Rib Eye, House salad, cottage cheese, dinner roll Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Diet Coke, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 4 (Day 146) Keto Day 2 Wow, that was a drop. I'm not going to say that it was because I was back on the diet for one day, but that was a 6 lb (2.7 kg) drop the day after I got back to the diet. Eating breakfast did kind of feel like a chore. I thought it would be good to eat. But I just didn't want to. Maybe I shouldn't eat breakfast when I feel like that. I wasn't sick, I just wasn't interested in eating it. Had lunch with Grandma. It was busy at the restaurant so it was hard to have any kind of conversation. At least there wasn't any screaming children. I was glad that I was able to stick to the diet there. For the most part, I had the roll and that doesn't work well with the diet, bu...

Weight: 338.4 lbs ( 153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bacon Cheeseburger Soup Snack: Big Mac Casserole Dinner: Pork Spare Ribs Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Keto Day 1 Sober Month 4 (Day 145) I was expecting a call from the HVAC people today, but they never called. Roommate is getting anxious because Wednesday is supposed to get up to 95 degrees (35 C) He sent a text to Landlord to ask about the timeline of the AC getting switched out. Landlord said that he'd call HVAC people to see if they could get an ETA. Apparently the last he heard they were still getting the equipment to do the job. Landlord didn't text back until later in the evening. He's going to be here Wednesday to take out the old units and Thursday to put the new ones in. It would have been nice to get the new AC before it started getting hot, but at least we know that there's a timeline of it getting fixed. I was dead tired ...

Weight: 335 lbs ( 152 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Kroger BBQ Flavored Chips Dinner: BBQ Chuck Roast Drinks: Salted Coffee, Sugar Free Red Bull, Low Carb Monster, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 4 (Day 144) I shouldn't have had finished off the pitcher of Tea last night. Had a hard time falling asleep after posting the blog last night. Body was tired, mind was tired, brain WAS WIRED FOR SOUND. I made another pitcher of tea this morning, but I didn't have any of it after work. I'm not going to go full caffeine free, but I'm going to try to avoid it in the evening. I'll see if that helps me sleep better.  A little disappointed at the weight tracking over the last couple of day, sure I haven't been on the diet, but does it collapse so quickly if you're not that close to the diet 100% of the time? The first day back from vacation always really pisses me off. It's always a mi...

Weight: 333 lbs ( 151 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken Dinner: Taco Mac and Cheese Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 4 (Day 143) Woke up in a bit of a rebellious mood so I decided to hold off on doing the Keto thing for a couple of days. If I dropped off of Sobriety I'd be disappointed (and I did have to fight that urge) Had Deli Fried Chicken for a bit of an early lunch. They had brought back the classic breading and I've been wanting to try it for a bit now. I do have to say, it is mountains above the new breading they had for a while. I was looking up how long it would take for them to install the new HVAC system and it kept showing that it could take 4 to 8 hours, there were some results that said that it could take up to five days! The paranoia made me look up why it could take that long to install it. And that's how long it would take to install a “geothermal heat pu...