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Weight: 344.2 lbs ( 156.1 kg) BMI: 44.2 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Snack: Sea Salt Mixed Nuts Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Week 4 (Day 30) YMCA: X Finally some progress on the waist. I know that it's going to be a “Vitamin P” kind of thing, but it would be nice if the waist line was as dynamic as the scale. I have noticed over the last couple of days the gut had been more “Saggy” and soft. Good news is that means I'm losing fat, bad news is that it's going to start drooping under my shirt if I'm not careful. But I'll take saggy gut over sore feet any day of the week. And on that point feet and shins felt amazing this morning. It sucked last night a screw came out of the back of my computer chair. I was able to put the screw back in. And it seems to be holding, but for a while I was thinking that I was going to have to buy a new one. That would kind ...

Weight: 346.2 lbs ( 157 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Red Bull, Monster Zero Ultra, Arizona Dt Lemonade Tea, Cayman Jack Margarita Sober Week 4 (Day 28) YMCA: X Woot, new record on days sober. Roommate did offer me a Cayman Jack Margarita, and I did accept. But I wont consider it breaking the streak. Because it's not like I'm drunk after one small can. Now if I were to go buy a case tomorrow and drink that, and then the next day, and then the next day. Yeah that's when I'm back in trouble. He tried to give me some advice on drinking, insisting that if I just moderate the drinking it won't be a problem. But he doesn't seem to understand I CAN NOT moderate. If I buy a case of beer I WILL BE drinking the entire thing. He said that if I just stopped when I felt the buzz it'll be fine. But that's the problem, I wont stop when I...

Weight: 345.8 lbs ( 156.8 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Divan Dinner: Pork Steak, Garden Salad with Ranch Dressing Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Week 3 (Day 26) YMCA: X I was wired for sound all night last night. I could NOT fall asleep. Sitting at my computer I couldn't even keep my head up. But going to bed I felt like I was hyper charged or something. I tried doing meditation and breathing exercises. But I was distracted by the feeling of my pulse pounding through my hands. Sleep tracker says that I fell asleep around 1:25 but I'm pretty sure it was closer to 2am. It does show that I got considerably more “Deep Sleep” than I normally do so maybe once I passed out I passed all of the way out. FINALLY progress at last. A week and a half into the year and finally under the starting weight of the year. I can't help but think that there might be a connection to how closely I...

Weight: 347.4 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Wasn't Hungry Drinks: Salted coffee with cream and lemon juice, Kroger Energy Shot Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 25) YMCA: X Fell asleep pretty quickly last night and the phone reflects that. I don't think that I'll be playing anything on my phone when I fall asleep anymore. I mean I sleep alright, but I don't want my phone lecturing me that I stayed up too late “watching YouTube” Got another pretty good down today. I'm still up for the year. But only 0.7 lbs (317 g) Who knows, perhaps I'll actually be making progress tomorrow. Got a bit of a hair brained idea this morning. I've been hearing a lot about Scurvy. Dr Berry and a lot of other influences I follow say that isn't a thing on carnivore because Beef actually has a enough Vitamin C, but I've been eating a l...

W eight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup with sour cream Dinner: Slow Cooked Chuck Roast with mushroom Gravy, Green Beans, Salad Drinks: Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 24) YMCA: X The Sleep record this morning showed something interesting. I did get to bed on time, more or less, and it didn't take me long to fall asleep. But the sleep record said I didn't fall asleep until almost 2 in the morning. I have a guess as to what might make the phone think that I was awake for so long. I'm thinking that it might be because I had set the phone to play some space documentaries to listen to while I drifted off. And I think that the phone saw that I was "watching YouTube videos" instead of being asleep. Clearly the phone was playing videos, and if the phone is playing a video I have to be watching it, right? There's no way I could be asleep while "watchi...

  Weight: 347.8 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Doritos Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 23) YMCA: X I tried to do a bit of reading last night when I went to bed. But the book I was trying to read was “ The Children of Húrin” by JRR Tolkien. Professor Tolkien is an amazing writer. He is great at building his world through his characters. The problem is I have a hard time remembering people by their names. So he'll spend three pages saying who this person is, where they lived, who is in their family, and then Oh, they died. Then he just says somebody elses name, and the story just expects you to know who they are.  It was odd this morning I woke up with Amazing Grace playing in my head. Going over the lyrics it is strange that Amazing Grace is thought of such a mournful song. It is singing about the blessings God has given ...

Weight: 351.6 lbs ( 159.5 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: Corn Chips Lunch: Bar-S Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Week 2 (Day 21) YMCA: X Off to a roaring start this year. 3 weeks sober, but haven't been very Ketogenic yet so far. I made a Weekly Weigh In video yesterday. Editing went long so I had to finish it after work. And it felt weird to make a Vlog, and then a Blog. Because of the weather I was stuck at the store for lunch. I shouldn't complain about the weight gain the next day if I'm going to have Doritos and Fried Chicken for lunch. Spent all evening burping after lunch. I'm thinking that the Fried Chicken makes me burp a lot. Roommate made a pot of chili last night and that's why I had corn chips earlier today. I took an inventory of the freezer today to set up the meal plan for the week. And I went to the store to get the ingredients for a couple of recipe vi...

Weight: 346.8 lbs ( 157.3 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Divan Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Rockstar Focus, Diet Arizona Lemonade Tea, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Week 2 (Day 17) YMCA: X I'm not going to call it a resolution; because that's a good way to not get it done, but I would like to get my 3D printers back up and going again. It's unlikely that I'd get any Cosplay done as, well I don't think I'll be able to lose enough gut to fit into an Iron Man or Master Chief suit. But it would be nice to get some projects going again. Started off the day thinking that it was nice to start the day without the existential dread that I've been dealing with lately. I've been feeling a lot more optimistic lately. Not sure if that's the feeling of the New Year, or the lack of the downer that is alcohol. And dealing with the people panic buying was a lot easier than it has been...

Weight: 346.7 lbs ( 157.3 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Creepy Cauldron Dinner: Pork Loin Chops, Mac and cheese Snack: Black Eyed Peas Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Rockstar Focus, Diet Arizona Lemonade Tea Sober Week 2 (Day 16) YMCA: X Technically today so I'll include it in snacks, but Roommate convinced me to have a can of Black Eyed Peas at midnight. I was a bit hesitant. Supposedly eating Black Eyed Peas at midnight is good luck for the new year. I've only tried it a couple of times. Including 2018, and 2020. Let's just say that those weren't very lucky years. But the beans turned out pretty good. I had microwaved them for a couple of minutes with a couple tablespoons of butter, garlic powder, onion powder, salt and pepper. A lot of people had asked me where the Black eyed peas were. I had to tell more than one person, more than once, that they were sold out. Had a bit of a hard time falling asleep...

Weight: 346.8 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Grilled Pork Steaks Drinks: Salted Coffee, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Seltzer,Sugar Free Red Bull, Rockstar Focus Sober Week 2 (Day 15) YMCA: X Two full weeks sober, hadn't done that since July. And broke that streak on Independence Day at Day 19? I think. Day 19 was the last day I started a blog, I don't know if I had started that blog post in the morning and in the evening just decided to buy beer for the Forth of July. But I do have to say that I haven't been mentally or physically craving beer. Doritos hell yeah, but not really beer or alcohol. The real fight has been against habit. When I get off of work, or do the grocery shopping there's the beer sitting right there. Or the days off, like yesterday, I'll sit around thinking that I hadn't bought the beer yet. Spent a lot of time updating the spreadsheets for 2025. It is real...

Weight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages, Pringles Cheddar Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Power Aid Zero Orange Sober Week 1 (Day 12) YMCA: X There was leftover pizza this morning but chose to do the bacon and eggs instead. And again I woke up tired. I had sat a pan on the oven and turned it on and sat at my computer and only started cooking breakfast when I was reminded when I started to smell the pan warming up. Today was a really quiet day at work. Most people seem to be pretty chill. I did get into a couple of arguments with people. The Christmas items are naturally discounted 70% off. And a lot of people don't seem to understand that the discount is only on Christmas stuff, and can't comprehend that they can't get 70% off of Valentines Day and Spring merchandise before New Years. Apparently it's false a...

Weight: 348 lbs ( 157.9 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bologna Sandwich, Cheddar Sour Cream Chips Dinner: Gambinos Pizza Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sooter's Red Bull Insert(?) Sober Week 1 (Day 11) YMCA: X Another night when I had a hard time falling asleep. Not feeling stressed or anxious or anything. Just brain wasn't tired. The rest of me was dragging. But brain was doing back flips and jumping jacks Maybe why I had a weird dream. I don't usually have dreams, but when I do they're weird AF. I never have nightmares. I never wake up scared, I just wake up confused. In the dream I was stuck at a bar on the other side of town before dawn without a ride. In the bar there was one of those old soda machines where you put in money and open the door to get your coke. I got my coke, but the guy after me smashed the machine open and complained that he hurt his hand and was going to sue. I was wanting to leave ...

Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.7 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange, Sober Week 1 (Day 10) YMCA: X I got an idea this morning. Roommate's doctor is saying that he's going to be home until March for his leg infection, and Roommate is talking about getting a local job so he can get off of the road and be home every night. I'm wanting to be a YouTuber, but I really don't like making videos when he's home. Partially because I feel that it's not really fair to him to have him effect his time because I want to do my hobby. Also because if he's going to be in the background of my videos he has a quite a foul mouth when he's playing his games. And the things he shouts out would be something that would definitely get me canceled. However he is a dedicated night owl. And I have been wanting to get to bed e...

Weight: 348.4 lbs ( 158.0 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheeseburger Patties, Mac and Cheese Dinner: Mississippi Roast Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Snack: Last of The European Cookies Sober Week 1 (Day 9) YMCA: X Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Didn't feel bad or sick or anything. It's just that sleep just didn't happen. I wonder if it had anything to do with the couple glasses of soda that I had at Grandma's Christmas party. I'm not usually affected (effected?) by caffeine, but lately I've been avoiding any caffeinated drinks in the evenings. But although I had a hard time getting to sleep, I was able to get out of bed fairly easily this morning. I had a bit of a Christmas Miracle this morning. I usually get paid on Thursday and normally when payday lands on a holiday we get paid a day early. I was assuming that we'd get paid on Thursday like normal. I wasn't sure if the pay ...

  Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.8 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Macaroni Salad Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster Guava Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 7 YMCA: X First time since July that I've gone a full week without beer. It's kind of encouraging that I've went a week without beer without much struggle. But also kind of disappointing that it's been nearly half a year that I've gone a full week without beer. I'd go three or four days, and then back to it. Today, understandably, was insanely busy at work. Thankfully most people understood why it was busy. But of course we had the, “Wow, it's really busy today!” or “Why is it so busy today?” Not sure if people were smart asses or dumb ones. Even the coworkers who are normally the ones I have to constantly chase after were able to keep rushing on their own. Which I...

Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Rockstar, Sugar Free Red Bull, Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 6 YMCA: X      Strange last night I had to wake up several times to pee. This is strange for me. Maybe because of how many carbs I ate lately? All of the Seltzer Water?      The up in the weight this morning is within normal daily fluctuations, so I'm trying to not beat myself up too much about the carbs in the last couple of days. Especially considering that some of those carbs were from a Christmas party.       The European Cookies are REALLY good dipped in coffee. The European Cookies are kind of like a box of chocolates, (except you know what you're going to get.) it is a verity box of different cookies. I don't want to eat them...

Weight: 347.6 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mac and Cheese with Hot Dogs Dinner: Christmas Gathering With Family Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Raspberry Iced Tea Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 5 YMCA: X I wore the other pair of pants that I bought yesterday. These do have accessory pockets but oddly they have zippers on them. I don't see myself zipping these up too often. These pants have a oddly tight fit around my calves. I'm sure that they'll wear in as well. Another odd thing about them are the front pockets are oddly deep and go straight down. It's nearly up to my elbow deep. And the back pockets are strangely wide. So it's kind of hard to get my wallet out while I'm sitting down. They also seem to smell quite good to dogs, as the roommate's dog has been randomly shoving it's cold nose up against my legs all day long. Very not very good with the diet today...

Weight: 348 lbs ( 157.88 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Jonsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Mushroom Gravy Chuck Roast, packet of beef flavored Ramen Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Day 4 YMCA: X I didn't get around to posting yesterday. Roommate was discharged from the hospital in the next state over, but he didn't have any family members that could go over and pick him up. I have to say that the Flint Hills really are quite stunning. They must be quite beautiful in the spring and summer when everything is green. Instead of the brown, brown, with a bit of brown mixed in that we have here in late autumn/early winter. I think I startled my mother when I posted on Facebook the picture of my dinner saying that this was the first time I had ever visited a Waffle House. It was an impromptu 14 hour road trip that I didn't tell anybody about. I rarely ever leave my house on a normal day, and then “Surpri...

Weight: 350.2 lbs ( 158.8 kg) BMI: 45 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs with Salsa Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Day 2 YMCA: X Elbows and knuckles are popping and cracking like crazy. I don't think I'm in Ketosis just yet as I had Velveeta Dinner yesterday for lunch err, “Lunch” as the first time I ate yesterday was at 4 O'clock in the evening. I had bratwursts for dinner later in the evening. I had picked up the dinner when I was doing the weekly shopping. I fell to the temptation of the glorified mac and cheese. I did manage to fight off the temptation of the beer. I tried to make a recipe video of Bacon and Eggs. But the once again I half cremated the bacon. The first half of the cooking turned out alright. But when I turned it over I let the bacon cook for too long. And the pepper container I have is one of those really big containers and it's starting to run low so all of the peppe...

Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Corned Beef Hash Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, 12pk Busch NA Sober Day 3? YMCA: X Had a hard time getting going this morning. Not feeling physically, mentally, or emotionally bad. Just hard fighting the momentum of just sitting here. Another day where it was like the gravity is up too high or something. I did get around to getting the Bacon and Eggs done. Didn't take the time to have Coffee, but I'm pretty sure that I drink too much of that anyway. Had a good laugh at the radio. A commercial (I don't remember what company the advertisement was for) stated that they'll ALWAYS say “Merry Christmas” because it has always been and it'll always be Christmas to them. They did the spiel for their commercial, then they ended their commercial with, “And we wish you a happy and safe Holiday Season.” I'm going to be laughing a...