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Weight: 352.4 lbs ( 159.8 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili Dinner: 11oz Strip Steak Drinks: Pot of salted coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Sober Day 2 YMCA: X       Didn't get the weekly weigh in video done yesterday. I was 12 pounds (5.5 kg) up from the previous weigh in. I shouldn't let a number on a scale dictate my mood. But being five and a half kilograms in two weeks kind of sucked. And being up 20 lbs (9 kg) for the year was just...yeah. And with it being December already it's unlikely that I'll get down to the year's starting weight. It would be kind of fun to lose 20 pounds in one month, but I'm not going to do anything to hurt myself to make that happen.       Did No Shave November, but I am glad that it's December and I can get this thing off of my face. Unfortunately I haven't had time to shave yet. I was too busy brooding yesterday and this morning b...

Weight: 352.0 lbs (159.7 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Taco Mix Lunch: Cordon Bleu Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer Sober Day 2 YMCA: Weight Room/Cardio Slow start again today. I really just didn't want to do anything. I finally convinced myself that I hated the effects of not moving than I hated the getting up and moving. I woke up at about 7:30 which is really good for me, but it was close to 10am by the time I got up and moving. Something got a-hold of me and it's been a-hold of me all day long. I did convince myself to get to the YMCA and I did stay a little bit longer in the weight room than I did on Saturday, but still feel hesitant being in there. Might just need to build the habit. And again I felt better in the cardio room on the treadmill. I really pushed myself on the treadmill. Got it up to 3 mph (4.8 kph) for 10 minutes. I waited to weigh in until I was back from the YMCA. I've noti...

Weight: 352 lbs (159.7 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 57 (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs, coffee with cream and non sugar vanilla flavoring Lunch: Deli Prepackaged Cobb Salad, Diet Monster energy Dinner: Mac and cheese with smoked sausage hot dogs Had a bit rough start to the morning. Just had a hard time getting the momentum going. Worked noon until 8. I did wake up around 9 am, but all I seemed to manage to get done was counting down until the time I had to get ready for work. Which really seemed to come up fast. I did manage to get some bacon and eggs fried up. What was really strange was that I was feeling really quite up and motivated for most of the morning. But as soon as I started drinking the coffee I suddenly felt like I was way past half asleep. This was a very odd feeling. I was under the impression that the caffeine in coffee would help wake me up, but after my second cup of coffee I felt that it took all of my self effort to just keep my head up. Getting to w...

Weight: 352.0 lbs (159.7 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHR 78% Breakfast: Kroger Shells and cheese Lunch: 4 Piece Deli Baked Chicken, Sugar Free Monster Dinner: KC Strip Steak, 6pk Bud Light Had another one of those phase out periods where I just coasted along with life. This is a source of frustration for me. There are so many things that I want to do, have to do, need to do, but I just fall back into a vegetative like state where I'm either staring zombie style at my computer while YouTube plays or lumbering around the store at work. And I'm getting back into the frustrated mood where I feel like I'm waking up to go to work and then going back to bed to wake up to go back to work. And working at a grocery store is frustrating because it's impossible to tell yesterday from last week from six months ago from six years ago. Everyday I go back to work, stand around seeming waiting to go home and start over the next day. I really do want to be doing the...