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Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chicken Enchilada Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, 2800ml water, Days Without Beer 4 I guess yesterday's “eyes open jump out of bed was an anomaly. I had absolutely no “go” this morning. This really was the kind of day where (when?) I was just kind of waiting for the day to end so I could just go home. I keep coming back to the idea that I need to get a “Grown Up Job” I just can't but wonder if I ruined everything by staying at the store for so long. People tell me that I have a good work history because I worked at one place for over 20 years. But now I'm 37 years old with no education, other experiences outside of working at a grocery store. I've been told that it's never too late to go back to school and get an education etc. But I barely have the money or mental energy to work at what I'm doing. IDK m

Weight: 338.0 lbs (153.3 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Pizza Mix Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime Days Without Beer 3 I remember waking up early this morning. (well, early for me) I had opened my eyes and jumped out of bed. This is not usual for me. I was up walking around at 7:30 this morning. That's usually one of the times when I “wake up” blink and then it's 9:30. But this morning I was up walking around laughing about how I was “eyes open jump out of bed” this morning. Not sure if that's due to Sobriety or because of Keto, but I did like how I felt this morning and for the most of the first three quarters of the day. It took a while to get focused enough to get breakfast cooked. Yeah, it was 7:30 when I was laughing about being up and moving around, but it was still 9:30 by the time I got started on breakfast. And al

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Rib eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Blackberry Citrus Days Without Beer 2      Going to try to redouble the efforts to avoid alcohol. You can lie on a blog, or to people you talk to (don't think about it too hard) but you can't lie on/to medical tests and I'm eight days away from the first doctors visit in maybe, 25 years? And some of the medications that I'm anticipating them to prescribe I'm going to guess are not going to react well to beer. Not to mention all of the hundreds of other reasons that I want to quit drinking.      Woke up this morning with sharp pains in my heals, I'm going to guess that those are due to the fact that I've been walking around the last day or two close to 340 lbs (154.2 kg) and the beer that I had on Saturday      I was going to help

Weight: 336.8 lbs (152.8 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Southwest Detox Chicken Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Coffee, Kroger energy shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Days Without Beer 7      I went to bed early last night. The store closed at 5 last night because of Thanksgiving. And when I got home I just kind of shut down. I really couldn't write anything on the blog or work on any of the many things I want to be working on. An idea that I came up with was because I got off early and mind and body was just feeling like “hey, it's the end of the day were done now” even though I got off early and had a short day. The counter to that thought is on a normal day I do most of the writing on these blog posts after work (writing this first part before work though). The other thought it is probably Holiday Depression. I did feel like I was missing out on something, which is odd because my family going to have the family ga

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: X Lunch: Chicken Enchilada Soup Snack: Leftover Fathead Pizza Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Silver Days Without Beer 5      Today was a really smooth day. It was the day before Thanksgiving so it was busy, but they thankfully scheduled us to have extra help. Or heh, “extra” help. Three or four years ago most of today's help would have been the normal crew. It was also nice that everybody showed up for work and all of the customers seemed to understand that it was busy. It probably helped that all of the registers were open. But then again if anybody calls in “sick” today they'd lose their holiday pay. As if anybody calls in the day before, the day of, or the day after any paid holiday not only would people lose out on the pay for the hours that they're scheduled to work, but they'd lose out on 4 to 8 hours of extra pay depending on if they're full or part time.

Weight: 338.6 lbs (153.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 56.5 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: x Dinner: Fathead Pizza Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Days Without Beer 4      I'm thinking of making a weekly post of what my menu that I'm planning on eating for the week. I still plan on making a Daily Blog post saying what I decided to eat and feel about each day. I'm thinking that if I make a post each week saying what I plan on eating during the week I'm more likely to stick to the food that I have planned out. I'm not sure what to call this <proposed> weekly post. I'm planning on making this each Tuesday since that's my allocated day off each week so that is the day that I have the most time to cook and make a recipe plan for the week. A week being seven days. But I have the idea that for some people coming across a "weekly menu" that starts on a day that is only one day off from the middle of what most people consider th

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Cottage Cheese with pepper and garlic powder Dinner: Rib eye and butter Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, 1800 ml water Days Without Beer 3 Felt 1,000% better today than I've felt this entire weekend. This is purely speculative but I really stopped feeling good after eating the Nathan's Hot Dogs two days in a row and then a rack of the Kansas City Style Bake in Bag Ribs. And I'm sure that the Michelob Ultra didn't help much. My guess is that I had a reaction to the processed meat in the hot dogs and the “seasonings” on the “Bake in Bag” ribs might have stuff in them that break ketosis. Sure a “Serving” of those ribs might be fine, but I didn't eat “a serving” of that rack of ribs.” and had a hell of a lot more than “a serving” of the Michelob Ultra on Friday. So let's see according to the can there's 2.6 grams of carbohydrates per 12oz can of Mich

Weight: 342.8 lbs (156.9 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: X Lunch: Cottage Cheese with chicken bits and ham left over from the super salad from the other day Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Energy Shot, 2L Big K Caffeine Free Diet Cola Days Without Beer 2 Going to be a short post not because the “down” I've been feeling lately. I've actually started feeling better after work this evening. I'm not sure if the feeling better is just the alcohol from last week's beer wearing off or what. But this is going to be a short post because I had to put so much creative energy into the weight loss video that I just made and the only thing that I would do is just repeat what I put into that video. That and the computer has been acting a bit wonky today. So it's getting pretty close to midnight and I want this to be a daily blog. I had recorded the Weigh In Vlog this morning, but it recorded from the wrong microphone so I ha

Weight: 341.2 lbs (154.8kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Southwest Style Detox Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Coffee with cream, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Energy Shot Days Without Beer 1      Hangovers suck. Woke up today with a desire to get going, but brain was throbbing in my head. And the in the concept of “Mind, Spirit, and body” In my mind I was wanting to get going, but in my body my brain was throbbing, and by shins and ankles hurt, and spiritually I just feel...flat for a lack of a better term. Is this what depression is? I woke up with a lot of mental energy, but low emotional and physical energy. The physical energy kind of built up as I got moving around, but the emotional energy just makes me want to lay down. I am kind of curious as to how depression is treated, as I think I've mentioned before, do they just hand you a “Happy pill” and tell you, “Have fun and good luck?” or is there more to it than that?      Ano

Weight: 346 lbs (156.9 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Sausage Patties and Eggs Lunch: Kroger Kansas City St Luis Style Bake in Bag Ribs Dinner: X Drinks: Coffee with cream, 24pk Michelob Ultra Days Without Beer 0      Slept in really late, even for me. I'm not sure if there was something wrong with me yesterday. I am glad that I am off today because I was crawling out of bed this morning at almost 11:30. Woke up today much more well rested than I did yesterday. The only thing that I can think of is that maybe I was having a reaction to the Nathan's Hot Dogs. They brag that they use the same recipe for the last 100 years, but I do have to wonder if I'm having a reaction to the processed meat. But then again I don't seem to have any problems eating bacon, sausage patties, or the store brand bratwursts.      Had a really strange dream this morning. (mostly strange because I can remember it) I had dreamed that I was visiting a cursed cast

Weight: 343.8 lbs (155.9 kg) BMI: 44.1 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Nathan's Colossal Hot Dogs with mustard Dinner: Kroger Uncured Bacon and Cheddar Bratwursts Drinks: Coffee with cream, 2x Kroger energy shot, 2700ml water Days Without Beer 5 Woke up tired this morning and just could not wake up. This is not going to be a very long post I was a shambling zombie the entire day. People kept asking me if I was sick. I don't feel sick, I am just so damned tired. A coworker suggested that if I'm jumping back into the Keto diet my blood sugar might be getting really low. If this continues I'll have to try to bring this up with the doctor when I get my appointment in a couple of weeks. I got an email from the clinic saying that I have a secure message on their “Patient Portal” but that site seems to be having issues this evening. I'm really praying that the energy issues that I've had today isn't an indication of di

Weight: 343.4 lbs (155.8 kg) BMI: 44.1 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Nathans Colossal Hot Dogs with mustard Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Coffee with cream, Kroger energy shot, 1800ml water Days Without Beer 4 Another day when I woke up well rested, but the urge to get out of bed was really low. The first alarm went off at 6am and if I had a bit more drive I could have gotten up then. But the question of “Get up and do what?” didn't have an answer. I really do need to find an answer for this question. Maybe getting up and getting some exercise or something. Maybe learn to do some stretches. Because as it is alarms go off at six in the morning and I end up going back to sleep because bed is really comfy and I don't have any reasons to get up in the morning. I did get out of bed a lot earlier than I normally do. 7:45 compared to the usual nine or so. But thinking about it that might just be because of the recent daylight savings time c

Weight: 346.6 lbs (157.2 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 58.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Scrambled eggs with diced ham green bell pepper, shredded cheddar Lunch: Beef Roast Dinner: X Drinks: Kroger energy shot, 2x Sugar Free Monster Energy, 2x Sparkling Water (forgot the brand), 900ml water Days Without Beer 3      Another day when I woke up quite early (for me) I woke up close to 7:30 which is kind of odd considering that according to the health app on the phone I fell asleep around 2:15. Another oddity was that even though I was fully awake both mentally and physically. I was just sitting here for a good several hours. I'd be sitting here, blink, and wow that was 45 minutes ago I need to get going and get things done, blink, that was an hour and a half ago.      I decided that I was kind of tired of bacon and eggs every day so I decided to have some of the diced ham that I had left over from yesterday's salad fried in butter, with some diced green bell pepper and scrambled

Weight: 347.4 lbs (157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Leftover Queso Soup Lunch: Mega Salad Dinner: Pan Seared Rib Eye and Salad with shredded cheddar and ranch dressing Drinks: 2x 5 hour energy shots, 2L Big K Cherry Cola Zero, 2L Big K Caffeine Free Diet Cola,1900ml water Days Without Beer 2      I had to work early this morning. The lady who was scheduled to work 7 to 4 today had a funeral to go to so I traded her Monday for my Friday. I'm not crazy about waking up early (And yes waking up at 6am to get ready for work is early for me) but I was able to get up and get ready for work. I do want to start waking up earlier, but haven't been very good at it. I am kind of proud that I was able to get up at my second alarm. Usually I have five alarms on my phone and two on my alarm clock, even then it's a bit of a coin flip if I get up before the store calls me to ask where I am. Didn't have time to get breakfast before I had to get to

Weight: 349.4 lbs (158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58.5 in (144.8 cm) Waist to Height Ratio: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Kroger energy shot, 3700ml water. Days Without Beer 1      A while back the Ethernet port in my computer went out and I had to buy a WiFi adapter and this last Thursday Avast Driver Updater said that the WiFi adapter had an update to install. And it had a warning that it might not work properly during the update. And then immediately had a notification that the update couldn't happen because the computer wasn't connected to the internet. So yeah, I think that the attempt to update the WiFi actually bricked the antenna. I ordered another one from Amazon and it arrived the next day.      I have a running grudge against the Avast antivirus company as it was. A year or so ago I couldn't afford the fee for the monthly renewal for it so I had canceled the subscription to the serv

Weight: 344.8 lbs (156.4 kg) BMI: 44.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Bratwursts and Mac and Cheese Dinner: Millionaire Chicken Casserole Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Diet Mt Dew, Dt Dr Pepper Weeks Without Beer 2 (17 Days)      Didn't do much today. I did manage to avoid spending any more money. It seems strange to say, “whoohoo! I didn't buy anything today!” But this is something that I need to work on.      Got the dishes done...again. For someone who keeps wanting to do meal planning I keep finding myself doing dishes. Seriously it feels like all I do each day is doing the dishes again. There are other rooms in the house that need some serious attention, but I keep getting distracted by getting the dishes done.      Had to get dishes done before I could cook the bacon and eggs for breakfast. I don't know if I need more forks, or just get used to constantly be washing the ones that I have.      Not the most Ketogenic lunch

Weight: 345.8 lbs (156.9 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 57. in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: AI Marinated Grilled Pork Steaks Dinner: Chili Mac Drinks: Cup of coffee with cream, 8x Diet Mt Dew, 8x Diet Dr Pepper Weeks Without Beer 2 (16 Days)      I just realized it this morning, but once again I am off for the week on the week that is on the week that the Daylight Savings time changes. This tends to happen a lot. Just out of happenstance, I just happen to be off on the week that Daylight Savings Time changes. I'm flexible enough that it really doesn't effect me much. I had woken up at around 8am this morning (even though I had set my alarms for 6) that's not much off from the time I usually wake up. I did drive myself crazy for a while comparing the time it was and what it would have been without the time change. But I convinced myself to stop doing that because it'd just drive me crazy with how much time I “lost”. I think it's lost because it bein

Weight: 342 lbs (155.1 kg) BMI: 43.9 Waist: 57. in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% OMAD: Nachos Drinks: Couple cups of coffee with cream, 8 cans Diet Mt Dew, 8 Cans Diet Dr Pepper Weeks Without Beer 2 (15 Days)      Spent the first part of the day getting a Weekly Weigh In video done. Had a hard time getting the thoughts together. It was really quite distracting that the weight was up so much today. It shouldn't be a surprise that I weighed more today than I did last week as I overate on Mac and cheese and chicken breast last night for dinner. It is a frustration that once again I was up a rather large amount in the day I weighed in and it put me over the previous weigh in just a little bit. Today I was up 4.8 pounds for the day, but only 1.6 pounds for the week. Last time this happened I was up 5.8 pounds in one day and it put me up 2.2 pounds for that week. Seriously, why does this only happen on Sunday's when I'm doing the Weekly Weigh In?      I got the other two recipe vid

Weight: 337.2 lbs (153 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bar-S Jumbo hot dogs Lunch: Chicken Cordon Bleu Soup Dinner: Mac and Cheese with Baked Chicken Breast Drinks: Cup of coffee with cream, 500ml Water, Kroger energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Pure Silver Ice Weeks Without Beer 1 (14 Days)      Not much to talk about today. I had set my alarms to try to wake up before dawn again. But again I just went back to sleep. I need to work on trying to get out of bed when my alarms go off. I had to work at 10 instead of 11 this morning and it kind of threw off the entire day. And I spent the entire day counting down until the end of the day as tomorrow I'm going back to vacation. I know that I had vacation a couple of weeks ago, but I am trying to use up all of my PTO before The Holidays start I'm trying to come up with anything to say about today, but it was just such a “beige day”      Feet and calves did hurt a bit in the morning, the calves did soo

Weight: 337.4 lbs (153 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: 6x Bar-S Smoked Sausages with mustard Lunch: Ground Beef Zucchini Casserole Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Cup of coffee with cream, 1500ml water, 5 Hour Energy shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Weeks Without Beer 1 (13 Days)     Feet hurt again today and I'm feeling kind of mentally off. I've been really kind of pissed off the last day or two. I'm not sure what's going on with that. It's not that anybody is doing anything specific, it's just that my “fight or flight” seems to be ramped up. Maybe too many energy drinks? Or maybe it's the smoked sausages. I didn't look at the ingredients, but I'm willing to bet money that they have high fructose corn syrup in them. And I did have Mac and cheese for dinner last night. But that wouldn't explain why I was so irritable yesterday. I hope I'm not snapping at everybody I come across, but I have noticed that I AM TALKING

Weight: 338.2 lbs (154.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna Dinner: Baked Pork Steak Mac and Cheese Drinks: Diet Big K Cola 3, Sugar Free Rockstar, 2x Kroger energy Shot Weeks Without Beer 1 (12 Days) Woke up with a Charlie Horse and feet felt like FIRE. The last several days I've woke up with a bit of a headache and some other “unwellness” stuff but they usually go away when I get up and moving. Today however the feet, ankles, and knees were just pain all day today. I'm seeing online that Keto can cause a deficiency in potassium and magnesium and that can cause cramping and pain in the muscles. I think I'll be adding those supplements to the shopping list for next week. I do like the idea that you should take all of your vitamins and nutrients through the food that you eat so if anybody has any suggestions for any food that I should be eating that contains the nutrients that I'm missing I would gr