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Weight: 342.8 lbs (155.5 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sober Day 1 Two weeks almost to the day that I've last posted on my “Daily” Blog. The last post on here was the day before Christmas Eve. I told myself that I wasn't considering Christmas as a “Cheat Day” but the problem came when after Christmas I told myself, “Heck it's the end of the year anyway, why not?” and then, “Meh it's still early in the year.” And this last week I've been really struggling with a very heavy flare up of apathy. I just can't seem to give a damn about anything lately. I've been sitting at my computer until I have to go to work, stand around waiting for the day to end, and then going back home and sitting at the computer. The last several weeks have been kind of a gray blur, I've b

Weight: 335.2 lbs (152 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Steak Drinks: Couple Cups of Coffee Black,Several cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Silver Weeks Sober 3 (Day 27) Stepdad looked at the car and it was the water pump that had went out. I do admit that he scared the hell out of me when he said that he was going to “Call a wrecker” after he determined that the problem was the water pump. He said that he put some antifreeze in and it just poured right out so he called a wrecker. I'm pretty sure that if I was linked up to an EKG it would have been writing in cursive. But he reassured me that the tow truck was just going to take it to my Granduncle's place for him to work on because it would be bad to drive it any more than absolutely necessary. Sounds like it's going to be an easy fix and it'll be done by the time I get

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Beef Hot Dogs Dinner: Rib eye steak with garlic butter Drinks: Cup of Coffee Black with 1/4 tsp salt, a couple cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, 1500ml water Weeks Sober 3 (Day 26)      When I got up this morning my feet didn't hurt as much as they've had previously. I'm not sure if that is a sign of progress or not, but it is nice to stand up and not feel like the bottom of my feet are being Tased while being on fire. Legs were still a bit stiff and I had a pain in the back of my head but those went away as I got up and moving around.      I put a quarter teaspoon of salt into the coffee this morning because the entire teaspoon of salt that I had put in that cup was a bit too much.      I had decided to download the app that the doctor suggested to install to tack the eating habits. The frustrating thing is that I am planning on doing my version of “Me

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Rib eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Blackberry Citrus Days Without Beer 2      Going to try to redouble the efforts to avoid alcohol. You can lie on a blog, or to people you talk to (don't think about it too hard) but you can't lie on/to medical tests and I'm eight days away from the first doctors visit in maybe, 25 years? And some of the medications that I'm anticipating them to prescribe I'm going to guess are not going to react well to beer. Not to mention all of the hundreds of other reasons that I want to quit drinking.      Woke up this morning with sharp pains in my heals, I'm going to guess that those are due to the fact that I've been walking around the last day or two close to 340 lbs (154.2 kg) and the beer that I had on Saturday      I was going to help

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Cottage Cheese with pepper and garlic powder Dinner: Rib eye and butter Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, 1800 ml water Days Without Beer 3 Felt 1,000% better today than I've felt this entire weekend. This is purely speculative but I really stopped feeling good after eating the Nathan's Hot Dogs two days in a row and then a rack of the Kansas City Style Bake in Bag Ribs. And I'm sure that the Michelob Ultra didn't help much. My guess is that I had a reaction to the processed meat in the hot dogs and the “seasonings” on the “Bake in Bag” ribs might have stuff in them that break ketosis. Sure a “Serving” of those ribs might be fine, but I didn't eat “a serving” of that rack of ribs.” and had a hell of a lot more than “a serving” of the Michelob Ultra on Friday. So let's see according to the can there's 2.6 grams of carbohydrates per 12oz can of Mich

Weight: 347.4 lbs (157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Leftover Queso Soup Lunch: Mega Salad Dinner: Pan Seared Rib Eye and Salad with shredded cheddar and ranch dressing Drinks: 2x 5 hour energy shots, 2L Big K Cherry Cola Zero, 2L Big K Caffeine Free Diet Cola,1900ml water Days Without Beer 2      I had to work early this morning. The lady who was scheduled to work 7 to 4 today had a funeral to go to so I traded her Monday for my Friday. I'm not crazy about waking up early (And yes waking up at 6am to get ready for work is early for me) but I was able to get up and get ready for work. I do want to start waking up earlier, but haven't been very good at it. I am kind of proud that I was able to get up at my second alarm. Usually I have five alarms on my phone and two on my alarm clock, even then it's a bit of a coin flip if I get up before the store calls me to ask where I am. Didn't have time to get breakfast before I had to get to

Weight: 351.6 lbs (159.5 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHR: 78.4% Breakfast: X Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages, bang energy, Gatorade Zero Dinner: A really huge Rib eye mood: relaxed      I was NOT feeling good most of the day. It was a difficult situation to explain; kind of like I was inside out or upside down or something. I felt like I had to negotiate and navigate. And bleah was everything. Then I realized, I didn't eat anything before work. And yesterday all I ate was some leftover nacho cheese and munched on some Doritos. So no wonder I felt so weak, I hadn't had any proper meals in over 24 hours. I'm not trying to starve myself. I just didn't take the time to eat. And frustratingly I still didn't get anything done. Well, I did get the refrigerator thawed out and got the dishes done. (yesterday)      After lunch was like flipping a switch. I hadn't felt that good in a while. Claritin was taking effect, food was starting to tak

Weight: oops, forgot to weigh in before breakfast (Not sure what that is in metric) Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) Breakfast: Rib-eye Lunch: x Dinner: Nachos I love when the first day of the month is on a Thursday. I get paid on Thursdays and I like paying all of my monthly bills on the first of the month. So I have all my bills paid for the month, money in my checking, money in both of my savings, and a fridge full of food. Weather switched back to cool fall weather. Life is pretty damn good for me. Or at least it was before I went to work. I thought that we were done with the “Here Catch Training Strategy” at work. It had been a long time since they just threw something at us with a “Don't worry you'll figure it out” kind of attitude. They were getting good at training us for things, as well as doing follow up training every couple of years. But today someone, somewhere decided that the first of the month was the best day to install a new register system. I would lik

Weight: 360.0 (163.3 kg) Waist: 57 in (144.8cm) Breakfast: Rib eye Lunch: Deli Fried Chicken, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Dinner: 5x Bratwurst There have been really good sales on meat over the last couple of weeks. That's the only reason that I was able to have a high end steak for breakfast. I thought about having eggs to go with. But I'm getting a bit tired of eggs. I didn't plan out lunch or dinner so I had fried chicken from the deli for lunch (not exactly Keto, but I'll roll with it) and picked up some bratwursts for dinner. (better for Keto, but not great for variety if I don't get a meal plan together) My knee is reminding me about that diet that I wanted to be on. It hurts when I have to squat down and feels tight when I stand back up. People have asked me if I'm okay when I stand up. I get the feeling that is because I am breathing heavy when I stand up from a squat. but the reason I am breathing heavy is because my massive gut is pressing a