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Weight: 342.8 lbs (155.5 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sober Day 1 Two weeks almost to the day that I've last posted on my “Daily” Blog. The last post on here was the day before Christmas Eve. I told myself that I wasn't considering Christmas as a “Cheat Day” but the problem came when after Christmas I told myself, “Heck it's the end of the year anyway, why not?” and then, “Meh it's still early in the year.” And this last week I've been really struggling with a very heavy flare up of apathy. I just can't seem to give a damn about anything lately. I've been sitting at my computer until I have to go to work, stand around waiting for the day to end, and then going back home and sitting at the computer. The last several weeks have been kind of a gray blur, I've b

Tootn' Chili Weight: 339.0 lbs (153.8 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Tootn' Chili Beef Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: Pot of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, 900ml water, Several cans of Kroger Seltzer Water Strawberry Lemonade Weeks Sober 1 (Day 13) As I was going to bed last night I got a notification on my phone that led to a meditation guidance thing. Which I really appreciate because I've looked up how to meditate before and a lot of them just seem to say, “Okay, just sit there and meditate” what does that mean? Well you sit there and meditate. How do you do that? Well, you just meditate. But last night there was a voice over that encouraged a breathing exercise? Regimen? Session? (I like session, I'll use that one) While reminding me to just focus on the breathing and not allowing the mind to wonder. It said to sit straight up and relaxed, but I did it laying flat in the bed with my arms to my side. I'm

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77.0% Breakfast: Sausage Patties and Eggs Lunch: Chicken Enchilada Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Couple cups of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, 900ml water Weeks Sober 1 (Day 12) Stayed up WAY too late last night trying to write a blog post. So I naturally slept in WAY too late. I had time to cook breakfast, but didn't do much else. Doctor says that getting up in the morning to try to get out into the sun is a good way to stave off the seasonal depression and I do have a small patio outside of my apartment so I have been thinking about buying a small table and putting a chair out there so that I can eat breakfast out on the patio and absorb some of the morning sun. But of course if I'm going to do that I'm going to have to start waking up in the morning. And as I'm writing this first part I'm needing to run out of the door three minutes ago. I was feeling alright before I left for work,

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: X Lunch: Chicken Enchilada Soup Snack: Leftover Fathead Pizza Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Silver Days Without Beer 5      Today was a really smooth day. It was the day before Thanksgiving so it was busy, but they thankfully scheduled us to have extra help. Or heh, “extra” help. Three or four years ago most of today's help would have been the normal crew. It was also nice that everybody showed up for work and all of the customers seemed to understand that it was busy. It probably helped that all of the registers were open. But then again if anybody calls in “sick” today they'd lose their holiday pay. As if anybody calls in the day before, the day of, or the day after any paid holiday not only would people lose out on the pay for the hours that they're scheduled to work, but they'd lose out on 4 to 8 hours of extra pay depending on if they're full or part time.

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Cottage Cheese with pepper and garlic powder Dinner: Rib eye and butter Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, 1800 ml water Days Without Beer 3 Felt 1,000% better today than I've felt this entire weekend. This is purely speculative but I really stopped feeling good after eating the Nathan's Hot Dogs two days in a row and then a rack of the Kansas City Style Bake in Bag Ribs. And I'm sure that the Michelob Ultra didn't help much. My guess is that I had a reaction to the processed meat in the hot dogs and the “seasonings” on the “Bake in Bag” ribs might have stuff in them that break ketosis. Sure a “Serving” of those ribs might be fine, but I didn't eat “a serving” of that rack of ribs.” and had a hell of a lot more than “a serving” of the Michelob Ultra on Friday. So let's see according to the can there's 2.6 grams of carbohydrates per 12oz can of Mich

Weight: 342.8 lbs (156.9 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: X Lunch: Cottage Cheese with chicken bits and ham left over from the super salad from the other day Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Energy Shot, 2L Big K Caffeine Free Diet Cola Days Without Beer 2 Going to be a short post not because the “down” I've been feeling lately. I've actually started feeling better after work this evening. I'm not sure if the feeling better is just the alcohol from last week's beer wearing off or what. But this is going to be a short post because I had to put so much creative energy into the weight loss video that I just made and the only thing that I would do is just repeat what I put into that video. That and the computer has been acting a bit wonky today. So it's getting pretty close to midnight and I want this to be a daily blog. I had recorded the Weigh In Vlog this morning, but it recorded from the wrong microphone so I ha

Weight: 341.2 lbs (154.8kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Southwest Style Detox Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Coffee with cream, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Energy Shot Days Without Beer 1      Hangovers suck. Woke up today with a desire to get going, but brain was throbbing in my head. And the in the concept of “Mind, Spirit, and body” In my mind I was wanting to get going, but in my body my brain was throbbing, and by shins and ankles hurt, and spiritually I just feel...flat for a lack of a better term. Is this what depression is? I woke up with a lot of mental energy, but low emotional and physical energy. The physical energy kind of built up as I got moving around, but the emotional energy just makes me want to lay down. I am kind of curious as to how depression is treated, as I think I've mentioned before, do they just hand you a “Happy pill” and tell you, “Have fun and good luck?” or is there more to it than that?      Ano

Weight: 343.8 lbs (155.9 kg) BMI: 44.1 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Nathan's Colossal Hot Dogs with mustard Dinner: Kroger Uncured Bacon and Cheddar Bratwursts Drinks: Coffee with cream, 2x Kroger energy shot, 2700ml water Days Without Beer 5 Woke up tired this morning and just could not wake up. This is not going to be a very long post I was a shambling zombie the entire day. People kept asking me if I was sick. I don't feel sick, I am just so damned tired. A coworker suggested that if I'm jumping back into the Keto diet my blood sugar might be getting really low. If this continues I'll have to try to bring this up with the doctor when I get my appointment in a couple of weeks. I got an email from the clinic saying that I have a secure message on their “Patient Portal” but that site seems to be having issues this evening. I'm really praying that the energy issues that I've had today isn't an indication of di

Weight: 343.4 lbs (155.8 kg) BMI: 44.1 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Nathans Colossal Hot Dogs with mustard Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Coffee with cream, Kroger energy shot, 1800ml water Days Without Beer 4 Another day when I woke up well rested, but the urge to get out of bed was really low. The first alarm went off at 6am and if I had a bit more drive I could have gotten up then. But the question of “Get up and do what?” didn't have an answer. I really do need to find an answer for this question. Maybe getting up and getting some exercise or something. Maybe learn to do some stretches. Because as it is alarms go off at six in the morning and I end up going back to sleep because bed is really comfy and I don't have any reasons to get up in the morning. I did get out of bed a lot earlier than I normally do. 7:45 compared to the usual nine or so. But thinking about it that might just be because of the recent daylight savings time c

Weight: 344.8 lbs (156.4 kg) BMI: 44.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Bratwursts and Mac and Cheese Dinner: Millionaire Chicken Casserole Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Diet Mt Dew, Dt Dr Pepper Weeks Without Beer 2 (17 Days)      Didn't do much today. I did manage to avoid spending any more money. It seems strange to say, “whoohoo! I didn't buy anything today!” But this is something that I need to work on.      Got the dishes done...again. For someone who keeps wanting to do meal planning I keep finding myself doing dishes. Seriously it feels like all I do each day is doing the dishes again. There are other rooms in the house that need some serious attention, but I keep getting distracted by getting the dishes done.      Had to get dishes done before I could cook the bacon and eggs for breakfast. I don't know if I need more forks, or just get used to constantly be washing the ones that I have.      Not the most Ketogenic lunch

Weight: 345.8 lbs (156.9 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 57. in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: AI Marinated Grilled Pork Steaks Dinner: Chili Mac Drinks: Cup of coffee with cream, 8x Diet Mt Dew, 8x Diet Dr Pepper Weeks Without Beer 2 (16 Days)      I just realized it this morning, but once again I am off for the week on the week that is on the week that the Daylight Savings time changes. This tends to happen a lot. Just out of happenstance, I just happen to be off on the week that Daylight Savings Time changes. I'm flexible enough that it really doesn't effect me much. I had woken up at around 8am this morning (even though I had set my alarms for 6) that's not much off from the time I usually wake up. I did drive myself crazy for a while comparing the time it was and what it would have been without the time change. But I convinced myself to stop doing that because it'd just drive me crazy with how much time I “lost”. I think it's lost because it bein

Weight: 342 lbs (155.1 kg) BMI: 43.9 Waist: 57. in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% OMAD: Nachos Drinks: Couple cups of coffee with cream, 8 cans Diet Mt Dew, 8 Cans Diet Dr Pepper Weeks Without Beer 2 (15 Days)      Spent the first part of the day getting a Weekly Weigh In video done. Had a hard time getting the thoughts together. It was really quite distracting that the weight was up so much today. It shouldn't be a surprise that I weighed more today than I did last week as I overate on Mac and cheese and chicken breast last night for dinner. It is a frustration that once again I was up a rather large amount in the day I weighed in and it put me over the previous weigh in just a little bit. Today I was up 4.8 pounds for the day, but only 1.6 pounds for the week. Last time this happened I was up 5.8 pounds in one day and it put me up 2.2 pounds for that week. Seriously, why does this only happen on Sunday's when I'm doing the Weekly Weigh In?      I got the other two recipe vid

Weight: 338.9 lbs (154.5 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 57 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Savage Slim Jim Lunch: Enchilada Soup Snack: 4x Bar S Classic Smoked Sausages Dinner: Corned Beef Drinks: 5 Hour Energy Shot, 2x Sugar Free Rockstar, 9x 12oz cans Diet Big K Cola Weeks Without Beer 1 (11 Days)      Day started early there was a “Leadership Meeting” this morning at the store. Just once it'd be nice to go to a store meeting and learn something new. The only thing that seems to have changed was that the “Front End Supervisor” is now the “Customer Assistance Leader” and they've came up with another acronym for us to learn. It must be nice to work in an office where all you do is come up with these things. But on the other hand it is kind of good that they stage kind of “reminder” meetings to remind the people in charge of what the expectations of what we're supposedly supposed to be doing are. But I do agree with the CSM that these really are mostly a waist of time. Especiall

Weight: 338.2 lbs (153.4 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Kraft Deluxe Original Cheddar Mac and cheese with some ground beef and Tomato Paste Dinner: X Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 4500ml water      Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Went to bed earlier than I usually do. I went to bed right after I posted last night right after midnight, but then spent several hours spinning like a rotisserie chicken. According to the health app on my phone I didn't get to sleep until 3am. I was really frustrated when I woke up and saw that it was 10 in the morning already. (And yes I can see how that could be seen as a humble brag) but I really am wanting to get out of bed earlier. And today was one of those days where I would look at the time and be disappointed that it was several hours later.       It's a bit concerning that I am up 4.2 pounds (1.9 kg) today compared to yesterday. I'm trying to tell myself that a daily we

Weight: 334.0 lbs (153.0 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon Lunch: Chicken Cordon Bleu Soup , Powerade Zero Orange Dinner: Bratwursts, Queso Dip Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, 2x Sugar Free Red Bull, ~3800ml water      Had a hard time getting started today. I didn't post yesterday, I decided to pickup a pack of White Claw. And I think it effected me this morning. It wasn't a hangover, and I wasn't still drunk, I just had no GO. I don't think it was depression, I wasn't sad, I was just so damned numb. (Okay that might be depression) Alcohol is a depressant and one of the many reasons that I want to be quitting alcohol. But then again it could have been a light hangover, I was thirsty as hell when I woke up this morning.      I'm using blankets as blackout curtains to keep the sun out of my room during the day to try to keep the electricity bill down. And I need to remember to take them down at night. It is a lot easier to wake up

Weight: 336.8lbs (153.0 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Low Carb Jambalaya https://youtu.be/zVHiY9DJVjI , Powerade Zero Orange Dinner: Kraft Deluxe White Cheddar Garlic & Herbs Mac and cheese, Baked Chicken Drinks: 2x Kroger Energy Shots, Sugar Free Red Bull I decided to take the social media apps (Facebook, X, Reddit) off of my phone again. I've been spending WAY too much time zombie scrolling. I'm not going to fully abandon all of the social medias, they're my only window to the outside world, but I spend WAY too much time staring at my phone. A normal day I usually wake up around 8am, but then lay there until I have to go to work scrolling through twitter. This has to end. I still spent all day pulling my phone out of my pocket and looking through the apps. So...today was Labor Day. What did I do for Labor Day? I worked, yes I worked for Labor Day. Yeah, that does mean that I lAbOrEd oN lAbOr DaY! That is so cre

Weight: 337.4lbs ( 153.0 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Hot Dogs and Powerade Zero Orange Lunch: Tuna Mornay Casserole , Powerade Zero White Cherry, Sugar Free Red Bull Dinner: Pork Steak, Kraft Deluxe 4 Cheese Mac and cheese Drinks: Kroger energy shot, 2L Big K Caffeine Free Diet Cola, 500ml water      Got a weekly weigh in video done this morning before work. And I don't know if I used up all of my creativity in that video or what but now at my lunch break when I'm starting to write out the daily blog I'm hitting a bit of a writers block. There are quite a few strings that I kind of grasp at that would be a good idea to write down, but they keep evaporating before I get the idea formed. This is a bit disconcerting considering that I was planning on working the General Update video this evening after work. The General Update video is a video that I want to release the first Monday of the month, but I work all day tomorrow and there's a

Weight: 333.6 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 57 in ( 144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Basic Chili with a few slices of cheese mixed in Dinner: Baked Bratwursts with ranch dressing and mustard Drinks: Cup of coffee with cream, Kroger energy shot, ~4300ml water When I woke up this morning my calves were still stiff and sore. But as I got up and moving they loosened up. My heels were still grumpy at me and I think that they will be with me until I get back under 330 lbs (149 kg). I think next week I'll pick up a pair of insoles to see if that helps with the foot pain. I'm glad that I have tomorrow off. I'm going to spend it here at my computer. Hopefully editing videos. But I might get into Minecraft and do that for a bit. A bit grumpy that my weight is up today compared to yesterday. It's only up 1.4 pounds, and I know that a daily weigh in will fluctuate, and I'm telling myself that I'm still down 4.6 pounds for the week and 3 pounds d

Weight: 335.4 lbs ( 152.1 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 57 in ( 144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: X Lunch: Tuna Casserole Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: ~6300ml water Slept in a bit this morning. Good levels of mental energy, but my legs were telling me that I really should have spent more time yesterday sitting down. Didn't get up in time to get breakfast done. I was actually technically late for work. It was only 5 minutes, but you get a half of a point for logging in 5 or more minutes late. So a little more than annoying that it rolled over the 5 minute mark as I was logging in. So if that lady wasn't blocking the door to the back room, or if the hallway to the break room was a couple of feet shorter I wouldn't have been late. Oh well, I don't think that I have enough tardy points to get worried just yet. I think you have to get 12 points before they fire you. And somehow I don't think I personally am going to get fired because I'm 5 minutes late from time to time. I

Weight: 338.4 lbs ( 153.50 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57 in ( 144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chicken Adobo Dinner: X Drinks: Most of a pot of Coffee with cream, ~5400ml water, Had a hard time getting started this morning. I was excited that I woke up close to 7:30. I usually wake up closer to 9am and just kind of lay there until I have to get ready for work. (typically work at 11am, but I have Tuesdays off) However, today was awesome I woke up with the energy to really get going. Unfortunately it was chaotic energy so I couldn't find the focus to get anything done. I kept catching myself doing laps around my kitchen and living room. I would go into the kitchen to cook breakfast. But then I'd see the ingredients in the fridge for the recipes that I want to cook, so I'd think that I'd want to get the ingredients organized, but to do that I'll have to clean off the table, bringing back the thought that I'll have to clean the kitchen, but before