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Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.3 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Pork Steak and Eggs Lunch: Sausage Patties and Cheese Dinner: BBQ Chuck Roast Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Sober Month 5 (Day 166) It is strange. Yesterday (Monday) didn't seem to exist. I remember waking up, weighing in, playing Oblivion, and then I went to bed. I really need to balance life and game time. Now I'm going to be frustrated that I had a day off, but I didn't do any thing. Oh, well. I was really quite excited for a second when I stood on the scale this morning. I even checked to make sure that there wasn't anything stuck underneath it. But I realized that it said “334.2” and not “324.2” I mean I would have really preferred if it had said 324.2 (147.1 kg). But not feeling confident that it'll say that any time soon.Waist still seems to be down for the month/year. So not sure what's going on there. Somehow I doubt that it's because I'm gai...

Weight: 334 lbs ( 151.5 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Month 4 (Day 150) Keto Day 6 Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I just didn't want to go to bed. I was feeling kind of frustrated with the feeling of go to bed, wake up, go to work, go to bed, wake up, go to work, feeling of a loop. And the chili from last night was messing with my stomach and it was kind of cranky for most of the day. Coffee tasted a bit odd this morning. Kind of sour bitter. I'm not sure what's going on there. This container of coffee that I bought recently was the little baggie of coffee and not the can that I usually buy and I had left it open sitting next to the coffee pot so maybe it's going bad? It says to keep in the fridge, but I hadn't kept any other coffees in the fridge. But the other coffees had a lid that I could close an...

Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55.5 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Jonsonville Queso Blano Jalapeno Smoked Sausages Dinner: Instant Pot Chili Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sober Month 4 (Day 149) Keto Day 5 Came across some headlines that redoubled my intentions to try to avoid energy drinks. A major ingredient in most of the energy drinks is known as Taurine. TL;DR They're linking Taurine to Leukemia. Okay, this next part is biased on my understanding and Google searches and suffers from many rewrites to get “right”. The caffeine in the energy drinks doesn't as much give you energy. Brains are weird as it doesn't feel tired until it receives a chemical (adenosine) in a receptor. And Caffeine blocks those receptors so it isn't that you have more energy, you just don't feel the tired. That explains the “caffeine crash” that people have when it fades off. You didn't have more energy, t...

Weight: 333.8 lbs ( 151.4 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Queso Soup ( Nachos without chips) Dinner: Not Hungry Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Month 1 (Day 45) Sober Month 4 (Day 139) Joints are snapping and popping a lot over the last several days. Weight is tracking upwards. Not sure if that's due to the lack of activity over the last couple of days as I am on vacation this week. Renewing the drivers license today. My license expires on my birthday, later this week. I was kind of nervous when I went to the site to make an appointment as suggested by the renewal notice at first glance their site showed that they didn't have any openings until the 15th. It looked like the site had the cities of the state listed alphabetically. And I THOUGHT that I had set an appointment for today, but when I got there I found out that I set the appointment for the 15th the guy at the check in said that I c...

Weight: 334.4 lbs ( 151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Day 5 Sober Month 3 (Day 100) YMCA: No Woot, triple digits on the sobritety. Still can't seem to spell sobriety properly. I don't think that I've gone 100 days without alcohol since I was 21. Not that I've been struggling with it for that long. I printed out the front half of the left forearm of the costume I'm working on. When it finished it was quite satisfying how well it matched up with the back half of the forearm that I printed several years ago. I had to cut the part up a little more because the new printer isn't big enough to print it off in one piece. But a bit of duct tape is holding it together right now. The back half was printed in black filament and the front half is in white filament so there a bit of “yin and yang” going...

Weight: 334.4 lbs ( 151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Anchor Inn Buffet Dinner: Grilled Ham Steaks Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 0 Sober Month 3 (Day 95) YMCA: No The scale was acting strangely this morning. It seemed to have a hard time picking a number. And when it did it kept giving wildly different numbers. Ranging from 345 lbs (156.5 kg) to 312 lbs (141.5 kg) But the 334.4 seemed to be the most common number that it showed. Who knows how accurate that is though. However the waist measuring tape doesn't fluctuate. And that was showing a loss. Down to 55.5 inches (141 cm) And I have noticed that the gut has been changing shape over the last couple of days. Printing the rest of the parts of the helmet went a lot faster today than it did yesterday. So the shell of the helmet is printed off. I'm going to have to research on how to glue the parts together. I've seen videos on ho...

Weight: 334.2 lbs (149.9 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73.0% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Basic Chili with cheese and Ranch dressing Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer Mango, Sugar Free Monster Sober Week 2 (Day 18) YMCA: No I didn't post last night. It was strange. I was feeling really good all day long, but as soon as the sun went down I had a MASSIVE wave of “don't give a damn.” Hard to describe it as anything else. I think that it might have been because I spent the entire day sitting here at the computer playing Fallout: New Vegas. I managed to get to the YMCA yesterday, but after that I just sat here at the computer just sitting here. I think that broke my mood. It's just so strange for me to go to bed at 10:30pm I'm going to talk about financial stuff. I was a big hesitant at first, but then again 1. I usually only get about 15 views on each these posts, and 2. If anybody if thinking about stealing/sca...

Weight: 333.8 lbs (151.4 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: leftover Fathead Lasagna Lunch: Stuffed Bell Pepper Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Water Strawberry Lemonade, “”Cranberry Lime, Celsius Astro Vibe Energy Drink, Kroger Seltzer Original, “” Mango Sober Day 5 Definitely too much lasagna last night, but I'm not too worried about it. A daily blog isn't to look at the daily fluctuations Had some leftover Fathead Lasagna for breakfast, but it gave me some nasty burps for the first half of the day. I wonder if that's telling me that I should be avoiding dairy.  Legs and feet feel considerably better than they have been, but that might be because I had the last two days off. I did catch the corner of my thumbnail right before work. There's something about my thumbs as soon as there's a bit of nail they'll catch one of the corners leading me to have to trim the damn thing back to the pink Irritability was quite ...

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: X Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Top Sirloin Steak Drinks: Diet Dr Pepper, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Blackberry Citrus Seltzer Water Sober Day 1 Having a hard time just...giving a damn. It's not even a thought of, “I'll do it tomorrow” It's more of a just sitting here zombie scrolling through social media. I seriously need to get my life under control. Those first sentences were written four days ago. Lately I feel like I'm just tumbling trough space. I grew up wanting to be an astronaut, but this isn't that. I was going to get this restarted back on Tuesday when I was really surprised by  1. I woke up at half-past noon. It seems like a flex, but I really hate sleeping past noon. And when I did get downstairs I was surprised by the second surprise.  2. My Mom was banging on my door doing a welfare check. My Stepdad had called her to check on me because I had let ...

W eight: 334.2 lbs (151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mexican Ground Beef and Zucchini with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: 2x cups of Coffee Black, 500ml Bottled Water x4, Kroger Energy Shot x2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x5 Sober Week 1 (Day 9) Having a hard time the last couple of days getting up and going. Soreness in my lower right back. But it's more mentally struggling. I just couldn't get enough “Go” to go yesterday, but I did feel a considerable difference in the Mental and Physical energy yesterday. People were dumb AF but I'm starting to feel more “UP” on the days that I'm able to work out in the morning. Had Bacon and Eggs for breakfast after I got home from the YMCA. This is a very satisfying habit to get into. But I had used up the last of my bacon this morning and I forgot to pick up more bacon after work this evening. But I do have a Strip Steak in the fridge that I can have breakf...

Weight: 335.2 lbs (152 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Steak Drinks: Couple Cups of Coffee Black,Several cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Silver Weeks Sober 3 (Day 27) Stepdad looked at the car and it was the water pump that had went out. I do admit that he scared the hell out of me when he said that he was going to “Call a wrecker” after he determined that the problem was the water pump. He said that he put some antifreeze in and it just poured right out so he called a wrecker. I'm pretty sure that if I was linked up to an EKG it would have been writing in cursive. But he reassured me that the tow truck was just going to take it to my Granduncle's place for him to work on because it would be bad to drive it any more than absolutely necessary. Sounds like it's going to be an easy fix and it'll be done by the time I get...

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Beef Hot Dogs Dinner: Rib eye steak with garlic butter Drinks: Cup of Coffee Black with 1/4 tsp salt, a couple cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, 1500ml water Weeks Sober 3 (Day 26)      When I got up this morning my feet didn't hurt as much as they've had previously. I'm not sure if that is a sign of progress or not, but it is nice to stand up and not feel like the bottom of my feet are being Tased while being on fire. Legs were still a bit stiff and I had a pain in the back of my head but those went away as I got up and moving around.      I put a quarter teaspoon of salt into the coffee this morning because the entire teaspoon of salt that I had put in that cup was a bit too much.      I had decided to download the app that the doctor suggested to install to tack the eating habits. The frustrating thing is that I am pla...

Weight: 334.0 lbs (153.0 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon Lunch: Chicken Cordon Bleu Soup , Powerade Zero Orange Dinner: Bratwursts, Queso Dip Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, 2x Sugar Free Red Bull, ~3800ml water      Had a hard time getting started today. I didn't post yesterday, I decided to pickup a pack of White Claw. And I think it effected me this morning. It wasn't a hangover, and I wasn't still drunk, I just had no GO. I don't think it was depression, I wasn't sad, I was just so damned numb. (Okay that might be depression) Alcohol is a depressant and one of the many reasons that I want to be quitting alcohol. But then again it could have been a light hangover, I was thirsty as hell when I woke up this morning.      I'm using blankets as blackout curtains to keep the sun out of my room during the day to try to keep the electricity bill down. And I need to remember to take them down at night. It is a lot ea...

Weight: 334.2 lbs (151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in ( 141.0 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Keto Taco Casserole Dinner: Keto Cheeseburger Helper Drinks: Pot of coffee, ~3000 ml Water      Curious, the weight has been fluctuating quite a bit over this month. Would be nice if the weight was tracking more downwards, but is kind of odd how it's been so up and down over the last couple of weeks.      Got a haircut today. Every time I get a haircut I tell myself that I'm not going to let it get so long. And then it's six months later when I get the next haircut because the hair is starting to drive me crazy. I also want to give the stylist a hard time about “cutting the bangs too far back” (receding hairline) but I always chicken out. I always spend the rest of the day waving my head around because it feels different without the long hair.      Finished the Store Story video and got it uploaded. And got some of the ...

Weight: 334.4 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in ( 137.2 cm) WtHr: 75.6% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Cottage cheese with ranch, salt, and pepper Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Cup of coffee with cream, 2x Kroger energy shots, ~2700ml water      Not a very productive morning. I really just spent it counting down until I have to get ready for work. That is a frustration that I have in my life. I never take the time to do anything, I just count down how much time I have left before I have to do something else. I do the same thing with money. I never save any, I just average out how much I have and how much I could spend each day to make it last until the next thing I have to pay for. But then it becomes more of a spending goal instead of a savings goal.      Another “fun” day at work. But at least I remembered that I was wanting cottage cheese for lunch. I added a bit of ranch dressing into the cottage cheese with the epic amounts of salt and pep...

Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54 in ( 137.2 cm) WtHr: 73.0% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Couple cups of coffee with cream, Kroger energy shot, ~2700ml water,      Waist circumference was down today, but I'm not sure how much of that was losing belly fat, or how much of that was the gut just sagging. The weight was down pretty good today so I might just be being down on myself.      I was really hungry this morning so I cooked an extra slice of bacon. But it just made it so the bacon went cold before I was able to eat it all. I also didn't get it cooked crispy. It was cooked enough to have it so it wouldn't make me sick, but just not in the crispy form that I'd prefer.      I was going to leave my debit card at home, but I have seemed to have ran out of precooked meals. I keep thinking that I'm going to go online to look up some recipes, ...

Weight: 334.2 lbs ( 151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in ( 142.2 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: 2x 5 hour energy shots      Didn't wake up in time to cook the pizza casserole, but it's not going anywhere anytime soon. I'm really starting so see that spending my days off cooking is the thing to do. Last night was strange. I was just so damned wiped out after work I couldn't do anything. And that was even before I cooked the Velveeta dinner so I couldn't even blame it on the carbs in that.      I even woke up this morning tired. That might be the carbs from dinner last night, but I did stay up later than I should have. I had a hard time getting going this morning. Feet and legs did feel rough this morning. I even slept in too long to have any coffee. I did have a couple of energy shots over the day. I would NOT recommended the watermelon flavored one. That one was just nasty.  ...

Weight: 333.8 lbs ( 151.4 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in ( 139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Pork Steak Snack: Pack of Hot Dogs Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Coffee, 5 Hour energy shot, Bottle of Caffeinated Water      Tax return came in last night as I was going to bed. Frustratingly it's already all spent. But at least the car insurance is paid, I have new shoes, and the Fresh Start loan on my checking account is paid off. I did order a new smart watch. That could be seen as a frivolous purchase. But at least I was able to buy something for myself. I spent the tax money so fast, I should probably register as a Democrat. To be balanced I should tell a joke making fun of the Republicans, but they make enough of a joke by themselves.      It was the day before an expected snowstorm, so it was pretty active at work. But nothing worth talking about happened at work. There was a moment when there was a line at self checkout and peop...

Weight: 334.4 lbs ( 151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in ( 139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Tacos De Alambre Dinner: Bar S Hot Dogs Drinks: Pot of coffee, 2x cans Natural ICE beer, 1 Can Milwaukee's Best beer, ~2700 ml water    I think Nachos are bad for you. Or at least eating an entire bag of tortilla chips is bad for you. I am not feeling physically bad, not that bad mentally either. But the scale is moving up. My feet didn't hurt this morning, but I just think that's because I was sitting down all day yesterday. Kind of had a hard time waking up this morning, but that was more like “a body at rest” than anything else. But then again when I'm doing good on Keto I can jump out of bed before alarms even go off. It is an interesting coincidence that my weight got down the exact same lowest weight for last month and then went back up again. It's pure coincidence of course, but still kind of a fun one.      They scheduled me to be off Mond...