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Weight: 332.4 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Pork Steak and Eggs Lunch: AI Chicken Lemon Parmesan Dinner: Bratwurst Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Powerade Zero Orange, Powerade Zero Strawberry Keto Week 2 (Day 18) Sober Month 3 (Day 112) YMCA: No I stayed up WAY too late last night building those shelves. It was strangely extremely satisfying to finish building them. It was a little bookshelf that would probably fit into a dorm room. But it was sitting down in the basement for who knows how long waiting for me to sober up and put it together. Whoever wrote that instruction card deserves a beating though. The scale was a bit glitchy again today, but the most consistent number was the one I wrote down. A little annoying that it was the exact same as yesterday's. I stepped on it several times during the day and it gave me a different answer so it isn't just glitching to that number. It's still stunning that it's ...

Weight: 337.4 lbs ( 153.0 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheesy Chicken Chili Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 1 (Day 13) Sober Month 3 (Day 107) YMCA: No Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I'm guessing it was the water weight from the salty nuts that I had for lunch the other day because I kept having to get up and go pee. At least I woke up for all of the times I had to go. Today was another dark and dreary day. It started off with a nice gentle rain. But it made it cold all day long. I'm not really looking forward to the blazing heat of summer, but it will be nice when it warms up enough to open the windows and turn off the heater. Getting to work this morning I had a headache again today. I thought about grabbing a Sports Drink of some kind Powerade is usually cheaper (not sponsored) but every time it started to calm down enough for me to get a break th...

Weight: 152.3 kg (335.8lbs) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 144.8 cm (56.5 in) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Tuna Mornay Casserole Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 1 (Day 10) Sober Month 3 (Day 104) YMCA: No I was going to make an April Fool's video “Carnivore Butter” where I would imply that I was just going to eat butter. And only butter. There are influencers who have gotten famous for just noming on sticks of butter. But when I woke up this morning I had a really strong, “don't wanna to” attitude. Having a really hard time shaking that mood. Trying to think of something to work on, or something to do. But I just don't wanna to. Play a game? Set up another part on the printer? Meh. I don't wanna to. I know that I'm going to go to bed tonight frustrated that I didn't get anything done. But I just can't find the motivation to do anything. Heck, even Roommate asked me if everything was alright. Beca...

Weight: 335.4lbs ( 152.9 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Pork Steak and Eggs Lunch: Kroger Jalapeno Cheddar Bratwursts Dinner: BBQ Chuck Roast Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 1 (Day 9) Sober Month 3 (Day 103) YMCA: No Legs were stiff and sore this morning. That's the excuse I used to not go to the YMCA. Still had great progress on the weigh in. But if I'm wanting to make more progress I'm going to have to get going over there. And again I'm thinking that my gut is changing shape because I wore one of my 2X shirts and it almost fits right. I still have to adjust the front of it as I stand up. But at least my gut isn't hanging out of the front of the shirt. Or at least not as much as it has been. The pork steaks that I had for dinner last night came in a pack of three so I had one for breakfast this morning. And I did find another steak in the fridge. So that'll be tomorrow's breakfast. I di...

Weight: 335.8 lbs ( 152.3 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 4 Sober Month 3 (Day 99) YMCA: No Well, I took the car to the shop and when I said what was going on and I said that I'm praying that it just needs the oil changed the guys at the shop were really insistent that it was NOT going to be fixed by just changing the oil. And it wouldn't be a great idea to drive it back and forth too much. He did say that it would be fine to leave it at the shop until they get the chance to work on it. Some of their people are out of town on training so they wont be able to fix it today, but they'll really try to get it done tomorrow. They didn't want to give a time estimate without looking closer at the car. But they didn't seem to be worried and it didn't seem to be something that they haven't seen before. The computer ...

Weight: 341.2 lbs ( 154.7 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Cordon Bleu Soup Bar-S hot dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 1 Sober Month 3 (Day 96) YMCA: No I legitimately cannot remember what happened today. It might be a short post as when I got home I did dishes, but some bratwursts in the oven and my brain went blank. I noticed that the weight is up quite a bit from yesterday. I'm not sure if that's because of the scale glitching like it has been doing. It did do that a bit when I first woke up, but it did finally give me a consistent number. Not a number that I like very much, but hey, that's the number that it is. And the waist line is up as well. But still under average.  Breakfast was steak and eggs. I had the pan a bit too warm so it got a bit smokey in the house this morning. Strangely the pan was too hot and smokey, but it still took a while to cook the ...

Weight: 337.4 lbs ( 153.0 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Tootn' Chili Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Coffee with Cream and Salt, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Day 4 Sober Month 3 (Day 93) YMCA: No I was a bit scattered today. Roommate woke me up early so I could drive him to his appointment. While he was there I worked on an AI inspired recipe. I had a hard time getting things out of the way and getting started on it so I had to go pick him up from his appointment before I was done cooking. He was agreeable to stay quiet while I finished cooking. It gave me hope that I could go ahead and do my cooking channel while he's home. It'll still be better to do it when he's out, but at least there is an option of getting it done.  He was rather upset because the nurse that usually takes care of him is out on vacation and there weren't any other nurses available so he'll have to come back...

Weight: 336.2 lbs ( 152.5 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Italian Wedding Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Powerade Zero Orange, Keto Day 1 Sober Month 2 (Day 85) YMCA: No Happy Birthday Mom. Technically her birthday is “tomorrow” but she reads these in the morning lol. She replied on Facebook to yesterday's post of me voicing my frustration of being the exact same weight as the previous day. She seemed more bothered by my frustration than I was. It's just that the same weight as the day before is a bit irritating. But when you get to it it's just one point of data in the stream. Had potatoes for dinner last night, but I didn't seem to gain much this morning. I didn't get to the YMCA this morning either as I slept in too late to get over there. I've been going to bed around midnight, but before Daylight Savings started I was waking up right at 8am...

Weight: 336.6 lbs ( 152.7 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Bacon Cheeseburger Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot Keto Week 2 (Day 20) Sober Month 2 (Day 81) YMCA: No Causation or correlation? I have cottage cheese and hot dogs one day for lunch, the next day the weight is up. I have a recipe that I have saved for lunch the weight is down. I have Jalapeno cheesy sausages for lunch, the next day the weight is up. It's still among the lowest weigh ins for the year. And I'm still down 10 lbs for the year. I think starting tomorrow I'll start doing the tracking in my phone app again. Maybe start going back to the YMCA on Monday. I wont go tomorrow because with their Sunday hours they are only open while I'm at work. I'm thinking of trying to get into a habit of going into the weight room Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Maybe going to swim on Tuesday...

Weight: 336.8 lbs ( 152.8 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cottage Cheese Bar-S Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Powerade Zero Orange, Arizona Diet Lemonade Tea Keto Week 2 (Day 17) Sober Month 2 (Day 78) I'm sure that I'm not bound by HIPAA or anything but I'm sure that Roommate would rather I didn't share all of his personal medical and employment information here. But the short of it is that he isn't going to go back to work in April. I could go into a long tirade of my frustrations there. But it seems self centered and it would be talking about his personal issues. I can't help but think that I'm going to have to re-balance a lot of things. I'm running really low on gas again so I decided to have lunch at the store. Tomorrow is payday so I was running really low on money in my checking account. I have money in my savings accounts but I don't want to get into...

Weight: 336.2 lbs ( 152.5 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Leftover Bratwursts Dinner: Pizza Soup Drinks: Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Seltzer, Dt Mt Dew, Keto Week 2 (Day 16) Sober Month 2 (Day 77) I did laundry today so not much happened. I didn't have time to take inventory. So I didn't make a meal plan for the week. Had a late lunch because I was at Mom's house doing laundry. More often than not I would have had lunch at Mom's house while the laundry is going, however I had bacon and eggs right before I went to her house. I had leftover bratwursts for lunch because Roommate didn't eat his half of them last night after I baked the set of them last night. And he didn't want them this afternoon. He had gotten a rather upsetting call from his, er, former trucking company. I figured if he didn't want them I'll go ahead and finish them off. That feels rough writing that out like that, but I don't ...

Weight: 337.6 lbs ( 153.1 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Village Inn Steak and Eggs Lunch: Garlic Melody Pork Chops Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Iced Tea, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Week 2 (Day 15) Sober Month 2 (Day 76) I tried to do the set up for the printer last night. It would have been really easy because it was just two screws in the back to hold the spool holder on and plugging in the LCD Control Screen. But those were really small screws and the LCD wire strip was foreign to me. But the magnetic build plate was kind of fun to play with. I decided to just go to bed and try to read. But I was a bit to tired read as well. I was thinking I'm half way through The Children of Hurin so I was hoping that Tolkien was done with the introductions however the characters decided that they needed to go by different names. I realized how tired I was when I was trying to read and the entire book was just a soup of words. It was like my eyes wer...

Weight: 341.0 lbs ( 154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Italian Wedding Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Powerade Zero Orange Keto Week 1 (Day 11) Sober Month 2 (Day 72) Had a bit of a hard time falling asleep last night. Apparently Verizon had an update that scans the phone to for malware. The problem is that it decided to make notifications that it had started the scan. And then sent another notification that the scan was done. And then a notification that it started the virus scan. And then a notification that the virus scan was complete. I was glad that these scans were happening. And I'm glad that the scans came out clean, but I'm not sure that I liked to have these notifications at 2 O'clock in the freaking morning. The weight was a little up today from yesterday. I'm not too worried about that because daily fluctuations happen. It's still among the lowest numbers ...

Weight: 343.4 lbs ( 155.7 kg) BMI: 44.1 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Garlic Melody Pork Chops Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Keto Week 1 (Day 8) Sober Month 2 (Day 69) nice Pretty nice number of days sober. Roommate had a couple of doctor's appointments this morning. He's a bit nervous about his FMLA and Insurance continuing. He's not that worried about his job because he's planning on quitting anyway. But he'd prefer to wait until his medical stuff is paid for, but that's his plan. The thing I'm nervous about is every time he goes to the doctor they extend the estimated time he's going back to work. When he came home in December, he'd just be home until the end of January, oh wait, the middle of February, or the middle of March, now he'll “totally” be back to work by the beginning of April. Or is it going to be August. (Joke) I cooked bacon and eggs for br...

Weight: 345.2 lbs ( 156.6 kg) BMI: 44.3 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bacon Cheeseburger Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Gatorade Zero Glacier Cheery Keto Day 6 Sober Month 2 (Day 67) Feet hurt again this morning, but only until I got up and moving around. I felt like I was on peg legs until I got them loosened up. Weight is up again. A bit nervous about the way that it's been tracking up this week. It's down for the year and it's still below the average of the year. The watch says that Fat is down and Muscle is up, but water is also up. And I've been going to the bathroom a lot again today. Roommate had a nurse visit this morning. Pretty sure that this is his last home healthcare visit. He seems to be a bit nervous about that fact. As the roommate's nurse was there I left early for work. It was just a few minutes early, but as I was driving towards the store I notic...

Weight: 344.8 lbs (156.4 kg) BMI: 44.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Soup with Sour Cream Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Powerade Zero Orange Keto Day 4 Sober Month 2 (Day 65) Weight is tracking up again. But waist is down. It is kind of interesting how much the waist is fluctuating this month. It's only bouncing back and forth between 58 in (147.3 cm) to 57 in (144.8 cm) but it usually stays pretty steady. The car did get to the gas station, which was a relief. I looked it up and my car Chrysler 300 (not sponsored) has a 18.5 gallon (70 liter) tank. And when I fueled up it took 18.136 gallons (68.652 liters) lol. I got there on fumes, good will, and foreword momentum. I knew it was low so last night when I left the store I picked up a bottle of fuel injector cleaner. I wasn't having any issues with the car, but I know that you're supposed to put it into a ne...

Weight: 341.6 lbs (154.9 kg) BMI: 43.9 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Strip Steak and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Fathead Pizza Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Day 2 Sober Month 2 (Day 63) Lots of snow overnight. Somehow the snow makes the cold a bit more bearable. Cold without snow is just bleah. But with the snow coming down it kind of makes sense. I'm still very ready for spring. But if it has to be winter, let there be snow to make it look like winter. Last night I was playing Minecraft with Roommate and he asked me why I had put the latex gloves on. I told him that it was because of the dry skin on my hands. He said that might not be a good idea because I'm going to want something that lets my skin breathe. He was telling me that his bandage on his leg is designed to let the skin breathe. And the suggestions that I've came across say to wear cotton socks/gloves to keep warmth and moisture in. But...

Weight: 343 lbs (155.6 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Strip Steak Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 1 Sober Month 2 (Day 62) Used the last of the bacon for breakfast, I'll have to get some tomorrow when I get groceries. Wow, not much happened today. Hands hurt less today than previous days. But I didn't do much with them. Mom suggested that I get some shortening to moisturize them. I'll add that to the shopping list for tomorrow. Had an early lunch. It was about 1pm. Which is a little late for most people, but I usually have lunch around 3pm. But I was getting REALLY hungry. I was planning on cooking a small chuck roast that I've had for a while in the fridge, but when I opened the package on the roast it like really bad feet. I think it might have been in the fridge for too long. The Tax Return is kind of burning a hole in my pocket even before I get it. I spent t...

Weight: 343.4 lbs ( 155.7 kg) BMI: 44.1 Waist: 57 in (149.9 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Bacon Cheeseburger Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 3 Sober Month 1 (Day 58) Last night when I went to bed I felt strangely hungry. I had just ate a pretty good sized Pork Steak. That's all I had, but I was satisfied after dinner. But a couple of hours later my stomach was kind of rumbly Today started off AMAZINGLY I woke up and today was down 4.8 lbs (2.1 kg) waist is down 2in (5 cm) and the Rent and Grocery Checks came through on the same day that the Pay Check came in. I'm always holding my breath for the week or two it takes for the Rent Check to come through. So it is always a massive relief when it comes in. The challenge for today is not to spend any money. And I made it through the day without spending anything. This is one of my goals. Sure I didn't spend as much on soda as I did on beer, b...

Weight: 345.8 lbs ( 156.7 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: AI Cheesy Spinach Sausage Bake Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Week 1 (Day 14) Sober Month 1 (Day 53) I was scheduled to work 10-7 today. But there is a new lady who was scheduled to close the desk this evening and she's been having a hard time getting it done correctly and today is Saturday so if things are off tonight they'll be off for Sunday and that could throw off things for all of next week. I was a bit confused when they called me from the store to ask me to stay late because they asked me to come in “an hour later and stay until 9” Well if I'm scheduled to come in at 10 and I come in an hour later and stay until 9 that would mean that I would be working from 11 to 9pm. And no thanks. I usually work 11-8 so that must have confused them.  Roommate did some grocery shopping this mornin...