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Weight: 346.2 lbs ( 157 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Red Bull, Monster Zero Ultra, Arizona Dt Lemonade Tea, Cayman Jack Margarita Sober Week 4 (Day 28) YMCA: X Woot, new record on days sober. Roommate did offer me a Cayman Jack Margarita, and I did accept. But I wont consider it breaking the streak. Because it's not like I'm drunk after one small can. Now if I were to go buy a case tomorrow and drink that, and then the next day, and then the next day. Yeah that's when I'm back in trouble. He tried to give me some advice on drinking, insisting that if I just moderate the drinking it won't be a problem. But he doesn't seem to understand I CAN NOT moderate. If I buy a case of beer I WILL BE drinking the entire thing. He said that if I just stopped when I felt the buzz it'll be fine. But that's the problem, I wont stop when I...

Weight: 345.8 lbs ( 156.8 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Divan Dinner: Pork Steak, Garden Salad with Ranch Dressing Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Week 3 (Day 26) YMCA: X I was wired for sound all night last night. I could NOT fall asleep. Sitting at my computer I couldn't even keep my head up. But going to bed I felt like I was hyper charged or something. I tried doing meditation and breathing exercises. But I was distracted by the feeling of my pulse pounding through my hands. Sleep tracker says that I fell asleep around 1:25 but I'm pretty sure it was closer to 2am. It does show that I got considerably more “Deep Sleep” than I normally do so maybe once I passed out I passed all of the way out. FINALLY progress at last. A week and a half into the year and finally under the starting weight of the year. I can't help but think that there might be a connection to how closely I...

Weight: 347.4 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Wasn't Hungry Drinks: Salted coffee with cream and lemon juice, Kroger Energy Shot Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 25) YMCA: X Fell asleep pretty quickly last night and the phone reflects that. I don't think that I'll be playing anything on my phone when I fall asleep anymore. I mean I sleep alright, but I don't want my phone lecturing me that I stayed up too late “watching YouTube” Got another pretty good down today. I'm still up for the year. But only 0.7 lbs (317 g) Who knows, perhaps I'll actually be making progress tomorrow. Got a bit of a hair brained idea this morning. I've been hearing a lot about Scurvy. Dr Berry and a lot of other influences I follow say that isn't a thing on carnivore because Beef actually has a enough Vitamin C, but I've been eating a l...

Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.7 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange, Sober Week 1 (Day 10) YMCA: X I got an idea this morning. Roommate's doctor is saying that he's going to be home until March for his leg infection, and Roommate is talking about getting a local job so he can get off of the road and be home every night. I'm wanting to be a YouTuber, but I really don't like making videos when he's home. Partially because I feel that it's not really fair to him to have him effect his time because I want to do my hobby. Also because if he's going to be in the background of my videos he has a quite a foul mouth when he's playing his games. And the things he shouts out would be something that would definitely get me canceled. However he is a dedicated night owl. And I have been wanting to get to bed e...

Weight: 348.6 lbs ( 158.1 kg) BMI: 44.8 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bar-S Hot Dogs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Dinner: Christmas at Grandma Chili Dogs various snacks Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Week 1 (Day 8) YMCA: X Heh, down 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the month, up 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the year.  It'd be fun if I could lose that much in a week, but nah, it's not going to happen. I had to drive my Roommate to a doctor's appointment before I had to go to work so I didn't have time for a proper breakfast. So I just grabbed a pack of hot dogs before work. Roommate says that the doctor told him that he is now officially on the Keto Diet. Kind of sucks, I had some dry lips the other day. I grabbed some lip balm that helped a bit on the lips, but didn't seem to catch a bit. As it feels like I have a paper cut on my upper lip. But at least it doesn't feel li...

Weight: 354.2 lbs ( 160.6 kg) BMI: 45.5 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages, Rockstar Sliver Lunch: Private Selection Pepperoni Mozzarella Rolls, Rockstar Sliver Dinner: Chuck Steak Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sober Day 1 All of my dishes were dirty this morning so I couldn't have the usual bacon and eggs for breakfast. It took a lot of effort to hold off from going to Spangles. That idea came up a couple of days ago and it still sounds like a good idea. But fast food is expensive and not that great any more. I did end up driving around a bit before work. I really wasn't going anywhere I was just trying to stop myself from hitting up a fast food drive through. Annoyingly enough this cruising around made the “Low Gas” alert come on. I usually wait until I'm coasting in on fumes to refill the tank. Normally I just fill up once a month, but the Doctor's trip to Wichita last week and a Family Gathering a...

Weight: 346.8 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 57in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Coffee (1 t-spoon salt) Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange Sober Day 3 Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Not really uncomfortable, just couldn't fall asleep. There was a bit of confusion this morning at the clinic when I arrived. I had an email saying that I had an appointment for a Venipuncture. But when I got there they didn't have any thing showing that I was going to show up, but there was a gap in the schedule. And my main labs aren't due until December. They did what I think they called a CBM. The only thing that I can think of was that when I called the Wichita branch to say I couldn't come in because of work they canceled both of the appointments. After they drew the blood I was given a total. I was a bit shocked to hear that they wanted $15 for an appointment that I didn...

Weight: 327.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Pot of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot, Couple cups of water Sober Day 6 It's kind of creepy to weigh the exact same as the day before. Was able to take inventory before work and got a meal plan together. The “Dinner” list looks kind of funny because it's just Rib-eyes over and over. But I didn't have room in my freezer for all of them. Didn't have time to defrost the freezer and wow there was a lot of ice built up. I'll try to defrost it after work. Noticed that I was out of Chili. I don't usually run out of chili, I usually have some variety of chili. Sometimes multiple varieties. I'm going to have to fix that but then again I might want to wait until the freezer is a little less full. I was almost late for work...

Weight: 327.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Ribeye Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Couple cups of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot, Couple of the large cups of water that the store provides Sober Day 5 Strange feeling waking up today. Physically well rested, but mind is tired. Hard to explain. Roommate went out back to the road today. I usually tease him about the rent money but I had to get to work. I'm just glad that I got through downtown before they closed Main Street. Apparently they're going to have a “Smallville Festival” downtown over the next couple of days. Roommate was very vocal about how much he hates everything to do with that. But then again listing things that he DOESN'T hate would be a considerably shorter list. I was kind of naughty for lunch. And bought some Jumbo Jumbo hot dogs. I'm sure that I ...

Weight: 332.2 lbs (150.7 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cabbage Soup Dinner: 1.17 lbs Chuck Blade Steak Grilled Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Diet Dr Pepper, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Blackberry Citrus Seltzer Water Sober Day 2 Still didn't go to the YMCA this morning as I'm still horaking up my lungs. I'm still fairly certain that it's just allergies, but I think COVID-19 is still close enough to the zeitgeist that nobody would want to lift weights around someone coughing like I am. And swimming when I can't breathe properly doesn't sound like fun either. Although sitting in the steam room for a bit would probably be beneficial. Had bacon and eggs for breakfast this morning. I've been trying to re-season my cast iron skillet. For a while I was cleaning the skillet with a steal wool scratch pad and baking it. I wasn't using soap water on it, but lately it looked like the patina was starting to come ...

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: X Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Top Sirloin Steak Drinks: Diet Dr Pepper, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Blackberry Citrus Seltzer Water Sober Day 1 Having a hard time just...giving a damn. It's not even a thought of, “I'll do it tomorrow” It's more of a just sitting here zombie scrolling through social media. I seriously need to get my life under control. Those first sentences were written four days ago. Lately I feel like I'm just tumbling trough space. I grew up wanting to be an astronaut, but this isn't that. I was going to get this restarted back on Tuesday when I was really surprised by  1. I woke up at half-past noon. It seems like a flex, but I really hate sleeping past noon. And when I did get downstairs I was surprised by the second surprise.  2. My Mom was banging on my door doing a welfare check. My Stepdad had called her to check on me because I had let ...

Weight: 331 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Several Cans of Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime and Mandarin Orange Sober Day 3 YMCA: Weights I got the hours and days mixed up in yesterday's post so I was able to get to the YMCA this morning. And I'm wanting to do swimming next week so I spent a few minutes in the weight room I had to struggle with the thought that I was doing everything wrong and I was just wasting time. I tried to use the counter thought of “Doing something is always better than doing nothing” but I really couldn't bring myself to do much in the weight room. I did feel a lot more confident and sure of myself when I was using the treadmill. But then again that's just walking. If I can't figure out how to walk by now I'm going to have a lot of questions with mys...

  Weight: 334.6 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Lunch: Low Carb Goulash Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Energy, Kroger Energy Shot, Several Cans of Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime Sober Day 2 YMCA: No It's hard to believe that it's been since February since I've last posted. I was going to start this back up yesterday, but it just became another than a “Mark Whines About Work” Post. I feel like work absorbs enough of my life without me coming home and stewing about the BS. And I doubt anybody wants to read about that. But that does put a heck of a block on what I could write about on a “Daily Blog” Yesterday when I stepped on the scale I was back to where I was, weight wise, at the beginning of the year and I have been kind of concerned about the returning stabbing pain in my feet and how stiff my legs have been lately. I've also been really tired and irritated all da...

Weight: 328.8 lbs (149.1 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Nathans Hot Dogs and Cottage Cheese Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango x7 Sober Week 2 (Day 15) Had a laugh that might have messed up the measurement of last nights meditative session. I wasn't paying attention to what the voice was saying because they started the session by saying, “Sit up straight in your chair, your head straight up, and let the stress of your day flow down. Let the stress of the day flow down into the part of the chair where your chair is touching your body” And I couldn't help but interpret that as, “Let the stress of the day flow down, let the stress of the day flow down, and out of your ass” The rest of the meditative session was lost to me because I couldn't help but to bust out laughing about the idea of forcing the daily stress out the ass. I think i...

W eight: 334.2 lbs (151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mexican Ground Beef and Zucchini with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: 2x cups of Coffee Black, 500ml Bottled Water x4, Kroger Energy Shot x2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x5 Sober Week 1 (Day 9) Having a hard time the last couple of days getting up and going. Soreness in my lower right back. But it's more mentally struggling. I just couldn't get enough “Go” to go yesterday, but I did feel a considerable difference in the Mental and Physical energy yesterday. People were dumb AF but I'm starting to feel more “UP” on the days that I'm able to work out in the morning. Had Bacon and Eggs for breakfast after I got home from the YMCA. This is a very satisfying habit to get into. But I had used up the last of my bacon this morning and I forgot to pick up more bacon after work this evening. But I do have a Strip Steak in the fridge that I can have breakf...

Weight: 337.4 lbs (150.6 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cuban Picadillo with a handful of shredded cheese Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x3, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, 500ml Bottled water x8 Sober Day 2 Vitamins: B12 1000mg (New) Vitamin C 1000mg (New) 2x Vitamin D3 5000IU K2+D3 (D3 5000I K2 100mcg) Fish Oil 1200mg (lol when I first wrote that I wrote “Fish Soil” I don't know what Fish Soil is but I don't think I want any) Magnesium 250 mg Potassium Gluconate Got a bit of inspiration to get serious about my health and other things that I want to be doing. I don't want to go into a whole lot of detail because anything I write on here would just be third level hearsay about someone else's medical issues. But the short of it is that one of my cousins is in the hospital because she wont manage her diabet...

Weight: 335.8 lbs (152.3 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Stroganoff Casserole Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: 2000ml water, 2x Kroger Energy Shots, Gatorade Zero Sugar Glacier Cherry, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Sober Week 1 (Day 8) Was finally able to get to the YMCA. I do have to say using those weight machines were very satisfying. It was also nice to hang out with Mom in an activity that she enjoys so much. It is somewhat of an entertaining thought that my mother is becoming a gym rat. I'm going to have to do some research on how lifting weights effect someone mentally. As I was leaving the gym I was feeling like I was drunk. But by the time I got to work I felt normal PHYSICALLY . But there was something going on with my mind and spirit. Because, WOW people were extra irritating today.  I'm going to make a really long, “Mark Whines About Work Blog” But these are just a few examples of what I had to deal with. These are kind ...

Weight: 342.4 lbs (155.3 kg) BMI: 43.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno and Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Silver Ice Sober Day 4 I have been slipping on this. And the days have been kind of mushing together again. My left foot really has not been happy. I know that I haven't been very good on my diet, but the shoes that I have now I have had for several months now and I think I'm due for a new pair.  Everyday when I wake up I tell myself, “Today, TODAY is the day that I'm going to get back onto the diet and plans” and then I start the day, and then, “well maybe tomorrow will be the day that I get back to it.” And then yesterday Mom shared a message saying that one of my cousins is in the hospital with Diabetic Ketoacidosis. This kinda tells me that I really need to get back into the diet. Cousin has had diabetes for a while no...