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Weight: 332.2 lbs (150.7 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Strip Steak and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar S Jumbo Jumbo Quarter Pound Beef Hot Dogs Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: 2x cups of Coffee Black, 500ml Bottled Water x3, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x4, 900ml water, Sober Week 1 (Day 10) Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I was able to get to bed around midnight like I want to. I had listened to the meditation lessons that my phone plays each night. And I felt really calm, but sleep just didn't happen. The health app says that I fell asleep at about 1:25am but I'm pretty sure that I remember seeing the alarm clock show 2:30. I woke up at about 7:30 and I felt alright. “Keto Insomnia” is a known thing when transitioning to the Keto diet. And this can last up to four weeks. So add that to the reasons and challenges to staying clean and sober. Because although I do feel more or less alright th

W eight: 334.2 lbs (151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mexican Ground Beef and Zucchini with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: 2x cups of Coffee Black, 500ml Bottled Water x4, Kroger Energy Shot x2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x5 Sober Week 1 (Day 9) Having a hard time the last couple of days getting up and going. Soreness in my lower right back. But it's more mentally struggling. I just couldn't get enough “Go” to go yesterday, but I did feel a considerable difference in the Mental and Physical energy yesterday. People were dumb AF but I'm starting to feel more “UP” on the days that I'm able to work out in the morning. Had Bacon and Eggs for breakfast after I got home from the YMCA. This is a very satisfying habit to get into. But I had used up the last of my bacon this morning and I forgot to pick up more bacon after work this evening. But I do have a Strip Steak in the fridge that I can have breakf

Weight: 337.2 lbs (153.0 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Ground Beef Casserole Dinner: Bacon wrapped Chicken Breast Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, Several cans of Kroger Seltzer Water Strawberry Lemonade Weeks Sober 1 (Day 14) Last night I found that the phone did repeat the meditation program. It is somewhere inside of the Samsung Health app, but I can't seem to find it organically during the day. Last nights (12-8-23) session wasn't as effective as the previous night's (12-7-23) session. When the notification came up it had a collection of things to choose from and it said that the one I did previously was the “Seven Days of Relaxation” But when I choose that one it started saying the same thing it said the previous time. So I chose a different button on the front of that app. I'm thinking that is the next lesson on the “Seven Days of Relaxation” as it was labeled as something it said that was a Dutch term that (mo

Tootn' Chili Weight: 339.0 lbs (153.8 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Tootn' Chili Beef Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: Pot of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, 900ml water, Several cans of Kroger Seltzer Water Strawberry Lemonade Weeks Sober 1 (Day 13) As I was going to bed last night I got a notification on my phone that led to a meditation guidance thing. Which I really appreciate because I've looked up how to meditate before and a lot of them just seem to say, “Okay, just sit there and meditate” what does that mean? Well you sit there and meditate. How do you do that? Well, you just meditate. But last night there was a voice over that encouraged a breathing exercise? Regimen? Session? (I like session, I'll use that one) While reminding me to just focus on the breathing and not allowing the mind to wonder. It said to sit straight up and relaxed, but I did it laying flat in the bed with my arms to my side. I'm

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77.0% Breakfast: Sausage Patties and Eggs Lunch: Chicken Enchilada Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Couple cups of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, 900ml water Weeks Sober 1 (Day 12) Stayed up WAY too late last night trying to write a blog post. So I naturally slept in WAY too late. I had time to cook breakfast, but didn't do much else. Doctor says that getting up in the morning to try to get out into the sun is a good way to stave off the seasonal depression and I do have a small patio outside of my apartment so I have been thinking about buying a small table and putting a chair out there so that I can eat breakfast out on the patio and absorb some of the morning sun. But of course if I'm going to do that I'm going to have to start waking up in the morning. And as I'm writing this first part I'm needing to run out of the door three minutes ago. I was feeling alright before I left for work,

Weight: 338.0 lbs (153.3 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56.0 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: most of a pot of coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Mango Weeks Sober: 1 (11 Days) Can't seem to find the thought power to write anything in the last couple of days. And today would be really easy to make it a “Mark Whines About Work” blog. I had a lot of interactions that would have made good additions to the To Do list on Store Stories, but a lot of them were things that are already on there, the strange thing is that the list I've compiled over a decade or two is having so many examples in this last week or so. It's also strange that so many people are so Goddamned pissy. Which leads to the question as to if it's everybody around me or is it me projecting on everybody around me. Usually when I drop off on posting on the blog it means that I've fallen off the wagon again, but

Weight: 337.4 lbs (153 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: 6x Bar-S Smoked Sausages with mustard Lunch: Ground Beef Zucchini Casserole Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Cup of coffee with cream, 1500ml water, 5 Hour Energy shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Weeks Without Beer 1 (13 Days)     Feet hurt again today and I'm feeling kind of mentally off. I've been really kind of pissed off the last day or two. I'm not sure what's going on with that. It's not that anybody is doing anything specific, it's just that my “fight or flight” seems to be ramped up. Maybe too many energy drinks? Or maybe it's the smoked sausages. I didn't look at the ingredients, but I'm willing to bet money that they have high fructose corn syrup in them. And I did have Mac and cheese for dinner last night. But that wouldn't explain why I was so irritable yesterday. I hope I'm not snapping at everybody I come across, but I have noticed that I AM TALKING

Weight: 338.2 lbs (154.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna Dinner: Baked Pork Steak Mac and Cheese Drinks: Diet Big K Cola 3, Sugar Free Rockstar, 2x Kroger energy Shot Weeks Without Beer 1 (12 Days) Woke up with a Charlie Horse and feet felt like FIRE. The last several days I've woke up with a bit of a headache and some other “unwellness” stuff but they usually go away when I get up and moving. Today however the feet, ankles, and knees were just pain all day today. I'm seeing online that Keto can cause a deficiency in potassium and magnesium and that can cause cramping and pain in the muscles. I think I'll be adding those supplements to the shopping list for next week. I do like the idea that you should take all of your vitamins and nutrients through the food that you eat so if anybody has any suggestions for any food that I should be eating that contains the nutrients that I'm missing I would gr

Weight: 338.9 lbs (154.5 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 57 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Savage Slim Jim Lunch: Enchilada Soup Snack: 4x Bar S Classic Smoked Sausages Dinner: Corned Beef Drinks: 5 Hour Energy Shot, 2x Sugar Free Rockstar, 9x 12oz cans Diet Big K Cola Weeks Without Beer 1 (11 Days)      Day started early there was a “Leadership Meeting” this morning at the store. Just once it'd be nice to go to a store meeting and learn something new. The only thing that seems to have changed was that the “Front End Supervisor” is now the “Customer Assistance Leader” and they've came up with another acronym for us to learn. It must be nice to work in an office where all you do is come up with these things. But on the other hand it is kind of good that they stage kind of “reminder” meetings to remind the people in charge of what the expectations of what we're supposedly supposed to be doing are. But I do agree with the CSM that these really are mostly a waist of time. Especiall

Weight: 340.0 lbs (154.5 kg) BMI: 43.6 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Low Carb Goulash Dinner: Slapdash Chili Drinks: Pot of coffee, 3600ml water  Weeks Without Beer 1 (10 Days)      Yeah, today's weight is up compared to yesterday's post, but I'm trying to tell myself that's just because daily fluctuations. Many places online say that a daily weigh in is just not a good thing to do. But I'm just such a data junkie I hate to see any gaps in the data. I'm going to guess the up for today is just water weight, I drank a lot of water last night. And I was forcing myself to eat those pork rinds last night.      Didn't have a headache this morning, but feet and calves are sore whenever I stand up. I think I've been spending too much time at my desk over the last couple of days. Today I did get the recipe video for Tuesday edited and uploaded. And an inventory for the meal plan for the next seven days. I've also be

Weight: 338.2 lbs (154.4 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Sausage Patties and eggs Lunch: Pork Steak Dinner: Southwest Chicken Detox Soup Snack: Original Flavor Pork Rinds, Thick and Chunky Medium Salsa Drinks: Pot of coffee, 3600ml water                Canned Soda:                     Diet Dr Pepper: 4                     Diet Mt Dew: 1                     Diet Pepsi: 2 Weeks Without Beer 1 (9 Days)      Finished off the last of the diet canned diet soda and threw away all of the old cans that were piling up on my desk. I don't know why I keep all of the cans of drinks that I am drinking I did this both with beer and sodas that I drank. I'll keep the cans until I finish the case and then fill up the box with the used cans. It makes absolutely no sense to keep these cans, it just makes it so that I'm surrounded by literal trash u

Weight: 340.4 lbs (154.4 kg) BMI: 43.7 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Enchilada Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Couple cups of coffee, 2x Kroger Energy Shots, Powerade White Cherry Zero           Canned Soda:                     Diet Dr Pepper: 3                     Diet Mt Dew: 2                     Diet Pepsi: 2                     Pepsi Zero: 1 Weeks Without Beer 1 (8 Days)      Last night after posting I was really getting tired of having all of this soda so I tried to drink the way through it all, but just didn't get through it all and lost track how many sodas I drank last night. But I guess it didn't matter because I had an awesome weigh in today. 3.2 lbs (1.5 kg) down for the day and 7.8 lbs (3.5kg) for the week is amazing.      I woke up with a headache again today. But it did go