Tootn' Chili
Weight: 339.0 lbs
(153.8 kg)
BMI: 43.5
Waist: 57.0 in (144.8 cm)
WtHr: 76.4%
Breakfast: Bacon
and Eggs
Lunch: Tootn' Chili Beef
Dinner: Strip Steak
Drinks:
Pot of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, 900ml water, Several cans
of Kroger Seltzer Water Strawberry Lemonade
Weeks Sober 1 (Day 13)
As I was going to
bed last night I got a notification on my phone that led to a
meditation guidance thing. Which I really appreciate because I've
looked up how to meditate before and a lot of them just seem to say,
“Okay, just sit there and meditate” what does that mean? Well you
sit there and meditate. How do you do that? Well, you just meditate.
But last night there was a voice over that encouraged a breathing
exercise? Regimen? Session? (I like session, I'll use that one) While
reminding me to just focus on the breathing and not allowing the mind
to wonder. It said to sit straight up and relaxed, but I did it
laying flat in the bed with my arms to my side. I'm not sure how long
the session went on for but it was an interesting experience.
Particularly after the session was over. It wasn't uncomfortable, but
I felt like a log. And it took a lot of effort to move my hand to the
phone. I don't remember what I was doing with the phone I think I had
to acknowledge that I had completed the session, but I was so relaxed
it took a bit of effort to move. I'm looking forward to seeing if it comes up again tonight.
Had breakfast of
bacon and eggs out on the patio, felt kind of awkward. It felt like I
was on a stage. I'm sure that there wasn't anybody watching, but it
did kind feel like I was going, “HEY EVERYBODY i'M HAVING BREAKFAST
EVERYBODY LOOK AT ME!!” I keep telling myself that nobody is
looking or cares that I'm having breakfast. I decided to start having
breakfast outside because I've heard from multiple sources that
morning sunlight exposure helps with Seasonal Depression. I would
have gotten a bit more sunlight if I would have gotten up earlier. I
do like the amount of sleep I did get as I did get to bed at midnight
and did get up (not just woke up, but actually got up) at
about 8 am. But my building isn't exactly lined up North/South or
East/West so the sun had partially moved by the building by the time
I got breakfast set up. I did notice that the building across the
yard which has a more East/West alignment had more light on their
southern side. Today I had showered before breakfast, I think
tomorrow I'll have breakfast before showering to have more light on
the eastern side of my building. I am looking forward to spring when
the sun will start coming coming up in a more northerly direction so
it wont be so quick to get to the southern side of my building. Also
it is pretty warm for December, but that breeze is still quite cool;
warm enough to be outside with a short sleeve shirt for a bit, but
not by much.
First half of
work really made it easy to make this a “Mark Whines About Work”
blog, Customers have been alright, but the coworkers have all been
irritating.
I was going to
have lunch on the front stoop to try to get some sun exposure during
the lunch break but some clouds moved in and the wind picked up.
Still quite warm for December, but not something I want to sit out
in. Had some of the Tootn' Chili with some shredded cheese and sour cream mixed in, remembered to put the sour cream away today.
I kind of shut
down again for the second half of the day. I really didn't do much
other than mentally count down the time I had left in the shift. And
that is one of the frustrations of my job, so much of it is just
waiting for the day to end. I picked up a case of the Seltzer Water and the lady running the self checkout said that she really didn't like the seltzer water because it didn't have a very strong flavor. I told her that I was mainly just buying it because I was trying to stop buying beer. She asked me why I was wanting to quit beer. That is a short question with a lot of answers so I just told her, "Good Night" and walked away. It's strange how many people seem to want a justification for wanting to quit drinking.
For dinner I cooked a stake while watching the live stream that Dr Ken Berry made while I was at work. The steak tasted kind of off. I'm not sure if it was the meat, or because I was doing dishes while it cooked and the dish water might have been on my hands while I ate. My stomach feels better today than it did yesterday, but it would suck if I made myself sick because I overestimated the ability of the vacuum seal bags to keep meat good, or if I happened to "eat" dirty dish water.
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