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Weight: 352 lbs (159.7 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 57 (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs, coffee with cream and non sugar vanilla flavoring Lunch: Deli Prepackaged Cobb Salad, Diet Monster energy Dinner: Mac and cheese with smoked sausage hot dogs Had a bit rough start to the morning. Just had a hard time getting the momentum going. Worked noon until 8. I did wake up around 9 am, but all I seemed to manage to get done was counting down until the time I had to get ready for work. Which really seemed to come up fast. I did manage to get some bacon and eggs fried up. What was really strange was that I was feeling really quite up and motivated for most of the morning. But as soon as I started drinking the coffee I suddenly felt like I was way past half asleep. This was a very odd feeling. I was under the impression that the caffeine in coffee would help wake me up, but after my second cup of coffee I felt that it took all of my self effort to just keep my head up. Getting to w

Weight: 354 lbs (160.6 kg) BMI: 45.4 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHR: 77% Breakfast: Bacon, eggs, coffee with cream Lunch: Deli Prepackaged Chef Salad, Sugar free monster energy, small bag of crunchy Cheetos Dinner: Pork steaks, Heinz 57, 12pk Bud light I woke up this morning. It did take me a bit to wake up properly, but that is a bit of the “A body at rest tends to stay at rest” kind of thing. And a bit of the fact that I finished that entire package of corona hard seltzer. But when I did manage to convince myself to get up I got a text from a coworker asking me if I could come in early; she had weekend plans that she hadn't planned for. I'm a bit annoyed by this, but I am pretty close to 40 hours and I'm not exactly in the position to turn down hours (not in an a precarious place so there is no need to worry, it's just that I could be in a slightly better position financially.) And she only wants me to come in a half an hour early. Whatever, a bit annoying, but a

Weight 357.6 BMI: 45.9 Waist: 57.5 WtHr: 78% Breakfast: -X- slept in Lunch: Italian Sandwich from deli (sans bread) Sugar Free Monster Energy Dinner: Grilled Cheddar Bratwursts, Ranch dressing (used as a condiment) 12 pk Corona Hard Seltzer   I've heard (several times, from multiple sources) that skipping breakfast is a way to continue the state of “fasting” which is a way that your body relies on its fat deposits. But lately, to be honest, I've been just lingering in bed until I determine that I've laid in bed long enough and I really need to get up. I really need to get more motivated in my life. I have so many things that I want to do, and work on. There really isn't a valid excuse for me to not do anything until I have to go to work. But when I did finally did get up I thought I would try this project again.  For my “lunch break” (which was at around 3pm). I had an Italian sandwich that the deli has for sell. I didn't eat the bread of the sandwich because I

A while back my mom started a Facebook group to highlight her travels. And I suggested that we visit the closest mountain to where we live here in South Central Kansas. With phones that take decent pictures we headed south when our schedules aligned It was kind of interesting to see the wind farms in Harper County. Mom has some pretty hard core libertarian views. So when she saw me staring at the windmills we had some interesting conversations. (I personally try to stay neutrally aligned to political parties)   We were about twenty minutes out from our destination and we had yet to see any hills greater than what we'd see in most of Kansas. Before we left my roommate (who is a trucker, so he has travel experience) had told me that a trip to Oklahoma would just look like Kansas. And most of our trip did look like the highways between home and going over to Wichita. There were times when the trees and hills would open up and do what I call, "Let your eyes see for a while."

Weight: 355.4 lbs (161.2 kg) BMI: 45.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHR 78% Breakfast:x Lunch: Taco Bell Crunch wrap, taco, Doritos Taco with spicy Ranch, Baja Mt Dew Dinner: Ribs Snack: Corn Chips and Queso Man I need to get these dishes done. They are seriously reeking up my house.      Taco Bell for lunch really wasn't on the meal plan. But I do have to say that the Doritos taco with spicy ranch dressing is dangerously good.      Got my car oil change done. I took it to a local garage instead of back to the dealership. Last oil change I took it to the dealership and it took them five or six hours to do the change because they "don't follow their online appointments". But this only took about an hour or so to get my car in and oil changed. I also had them do a check on the engine.       The last couple of months the engine just sounded rough as hell. It sounded like it had a bad throat or something. When the mechanic looked at the car the air intake and the le

Weight: 357.8 lbs (162.3 kg) BMI: 45.9 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHR 77% Breakfast: Leftover Chuck Roast Lunch: Deli Chef Salad Bowl Dinner: not hungry      A little annoyed that I've been gaining weight each day for the last several days. However the weigh in video that I had produced yesterday showed a loss from February      Having my car looked at tomorrow. The oil change is due, and it is making strange noises. It kind of sounds like it has a sore throat or something. It's not showing any indicator lights, but I thought that it would be a good idea to get it checked out before any lights came on. Last week I had set up an appointment on the garages website, but they didn't get that appointment so I had to reschedule for tomorrow.      Today is the 30 th anniversary of the Andover tornado. And I was watching footage of various tornadoes. Power of the wind really is quite awe inspiring      I'm not sure if the Deli and Produce departments are having

Weight: 355.8 lbs (161.4 kg) BMI: 45.7 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr 77% Breakfast: Lunch: Top Loin Steak Dinner: Slow Cooker Chuck Roast, Mac and cheese    CORRECTION: The last couple of days I've been mentioning that I had a lot of KC Strip Steaks, I looked over these again and they are actually Top Loin Steaks. I'm not sure if that makes much difference in much, but I thought it would be good to point out in case anyone gets confused by the sudden switch in the steaks that I'll be eating for the next week or so. (laughing at myself for typing that like anyone actually reads these)        Had a slow start to the morning. Woke up a bit late and it took a bit of convincing to get up and moving. Not that I felt bad, it's just that it was nice to lay in bed and scroll though the phone. I've heard that a lot of people don't keep their phones near their beds. I think that might be a good idea to start doing.      Spent all morning getting a weekly weigh in

Weight: 355.2 lbs (161.1 kg) BMI: 45.6 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr 77% Breakfast: Grilled Beef Steak Lunch: Kroger Single Salad Bowl Dinner: Velveeta Skillet Dinner      For Breakfast I grilled beef steak. I forgot to label the meat when I put it up in the freezer. I cleaned out the freezer and since I haven't been planing out my meals like I want to be doing all I had in the freezer are various (mostly unlabeled) steaks. So it kind of looks like I'll be doing a mostly carnivorous meal plan for the next week or so. Seriously I have about 12 steaks for the next week or so. I do plan on restocking the freezer. But I would like to go through all of these steaks that I have built up.      For lunch I had a salad kit that my store sells in the produce department. It was a bit smaller than I'm used to eating for a meal. But that might be a good thing. But I do miss the Salad Bar that our store used to have. It was closed when the COVID pandemic started, but there were ru

Weight: 352.0 lbs (159.7 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHR 78% Breakfast: Kroger Shells and cheese Lunch: 4 Piece Deli Baked Chicken, Sugar Free Monster Dinner: KC Strip Steak, 6pk Bud Light Had another one of those phase out periods where I just coasted along with life. This is a source of frustration for me. There are so many things that I want to do, have to do, need to do, but I just fall back into a vegetative like state where I'm either staring zombie style at my computer while YouTube plays or lumbering around the store at work. And I'm getting back into the frustrated mood where I feel like I'm waking up to go to work and then going back to bed to wake up to go back to work. And working at a grocery store is frustrating because it's impossible to tell yesterday from last week from six months ago from six years ago. Everyday I go back to work, stand around seeming waiting to go home and start over the next day. I really do want to be doing the

 Weight: 358.0 lbs (162.4 kg) BMI: 46.0 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHR: 78% Breakfast: Bacon, Eggs, Coffee Lunch: Deli 4pc Baked Chicken, Deli Mac and Cheese, Sugar Free Rockstar Dinner: Hot Dogs, 1 Bottle Modelo (My roommate is a bad influence lol) Soda:      Dr Pepper 20oz      5 Hour Energy Shot: 2 (not at the same time) Writing this after work and I got off at 11pm. A bit tired to come up with much to say. I realize that not all of my blog posts are going to be massive walls of texts. Something I do have to say is that my knees, shins, ankles, heels, and arches are really reminding me about that diet that I want to be on. I have a 1 liter bottle of ice that I keep in the freezer for my feet. I haven't had to use it for a while though. I wonder if my feet hurt because I was running the self checkout today. No matter where I work at the store I am always on my feet, but there is a difference from standing in one spot for five hours and running paces around an area

  Weight: 359.2 lbs (162.9 kg) BMI: 46.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHR: 78% Breakfast: Egg Stuff Lunch: x Dinner: Taco Casserole   Soda:      Mountain Dew Zero 16.9oz: 3      Sunkist Orange Zero Sugar 16.9oz: 3      Diet Dr Pepper 16.9oz: 2      Pepsi Zero 16.9oz: 2      Dr Pepper 2 L Woke up this morning with a strange headache, it felt like a hangover, which is strange as I hadn't had any alcohol in several days. Perhaps withdraw? WebMD shows the symptoms of withdraw as Anxiety Shaky Hands Headache Nausea Vomiting Insomnia Sweating So far the only symptom that I've ran into is a headache this morning. I didn't sleep all that well last night, (TMI incoming) but only because I seemed to have to get up and go pee every ten minutes. I'm not sure if that was because my body getting rid of toxins from alcohol, or the diet soda that I was drinking last night (caffeine is a diuretic and a stimulant) I haven't sweated any, and I haven't

  Weight: 361.4 lbs (163.9 kg) BMI: 46.4 Waist: 59 in (149.8 cm) WtHR: 80% Breakfast: x Lunch: Chili Cheese Fries, Double Cheeseburger Dinner: Steak, iceberg salad, steamed Brussels sprouts Soda:      Mountain Dew Zero 16.9oz: 2      Sunkist Orange Zero Sugar 16.9oz: 2      Diet Dr Pepper 16.9oz: 1      Pepsi Zero 16.9oz: 2 I have not been well lately. I'm going to be honest I've fallen into the trap of alcoholism. For some time I've been picking up a case/pack of beer after work, drink that entire case/pack of beer and then do the same the next day. I was drinking Michelob Ultra, because it said “Low Carb” on the side of the packaging. This led up to $16/per night every night (except for Sunday when you can't buy alcohol). So this stuff has been poisoning me mentally, physically, AND financially. I haven't yet noticed a physical “need” to have a beer, (although it's only been two or three days since my last beer) but I have noticed a