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Weight: 340.4 lbs ( 152.9 kg) BMI: 43.7 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Strip Steak and Eggs Lunch: Keto Clam Chowder Dinner: Mac and Cheese and Smoked Sausages Drinks: Salted Coffee with butter, 5 Hour Energy Shot, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 6 (Day 181?) I really need to get back to the diet. I've been sober since December, so yay Six Months sober. Not that I haven't been...Thirsty, from time to time. But I just have a hard time sticking to the diet. April really was the best weight loss progress month, but then May stayed really flat, and then June really tracked up really quickly. I haven't been at 340 since March and that average hadn't been since February. And today was the first time since February that I was over the average for the year. Another thing with getting back to the diet is Mind/Body/Spirit. Yeah, my feet, ankles, and knees are yelling at me by the end of the day. But I'm just getting off of work and just collapsing at my...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Pizza Soup  Classic Potato Chips Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Sugar Free Red Bull, Michelob Ultra Zero,  Sober Month 5 (Day 172) Sorry that I haven't been posting like I've been wanting to lately. On Sunday Mom threw a party for Grandma as it was Grandma's 80th birthday. And after the party I was in a strange mood. I sat down and I just didn't wanta. I didn't wana anything. I'm not sure what that mood came from. I don't know if it was because of all of the family members that I was supposed to know, but didn't know. All of the stuff people were talking about progressing their lives and I'm just still sitting here just trying to get my bills paid. I know this blog is about me. But it didn't feel right to make a post saying, “Yay, I went to Grandma's Birthday, and now I'm sad” I feel guilty for tha...

Weight: 332.4 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Skeats Rib Eye, House salad, cottage cheese, dinner roll Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Diet Coke, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 4 (Day 146) Keto Day 2 Wow, that was a drop. I'm not going to say that it was because I was back on the diet for one day, but that was a 6 lb (2.7 kg) drop the day after I got back to the diet. Eating breakfast did kind of feel like a chore. I thought it would be good to eat. But I just didn't want to. Maybe I shouldn't eat breakfast when I feel like that. I wasn't sick, I just wasn't interested in eating it. Had lunch with Grandma. It was busy at the restaurant so it was hard to have any kind of conversation. At least there wasn't any screaming children. I was glad that I was able to stick to the diet there. For the most part, I had the roll and that doesn't work well with the diet, bu...

Weight: 335 lbs ( 152 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Kroger BBQ Flavored Chips Dinner: BBQ Chuck Roast Drinks: Salted Coffee, Sugar Free Red Bull, Low Carb Monster, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 4 (Day 144) I shouldn't have had finished off the pitcher of Tea last night. Had a hard time falling asleep after posting the blog last night. Body was tired, mind was tired, brain WAS WIRED FOR SOUND. I made another pitcher of tea this morning, but I didn't have any of it after work. I'm not going to go full caffeine free, but I'm going to try to avoid it in the evening. I'll see if that helps me sleep better.  A little disappointed at the weight tracking over the last couple of day, sure I haven't been on the diet, but does it collapse so quickly if you're not that close to the diet 100% of the time? The first day back from vacation always really pisses me off. It's always a mi...

Weight: 333.0 lbs ( 151.0 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheesy Chicken Chili Snack: 3x Kroger Meat Stick Dinner: Keto Cheeseburger Helper with Taco Seasoning Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Month 1 (Day 41) Sober Month 4 (Day 135) Recorded a Store Story video this morning, but didn't get around to editing it First half of the day was quite long as I had forgotten my phone at home. I don't need to be on my phone while at work. But it did make the first half really long. Also gave me several heart attacks over the day as I would reach down to my pocket and the phone wasn't there. Took a lot of control to not buy something for lunch. I was really wanting to buy some Fried Chicken or Doritos (not sponsored) or something. I was drinking energy drinks all day long but I was just dragging ass all day long. I was craving something with a lot of flavor i...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bar-S Hot Dogs Lunch: Cheesy Chicken Chili Dinner: Meat Loaf, Green Beans, Garden Salad Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Month 1 (Day 35) Sober Month 4 (Day 129) Really had a hard time getting going this morning. I was surprised when I woke up and it was already 9:30am. And I had to work at 11am. I spent the most of the next hour and a half doing math of how long I have left until I have to get up and start getting ready for work. I just could not get up and going. So I didn't have time to have breakfast. I was able to get in a minute or two early to grab a pack of hot dogs and a red bull (not sponsored) Frustratingly everybody seemed to get in my way and just plod along. It took a lot of self control to not just put my shoulder down and charge through the crowd. I was in a really sour mood all day. You could probably tell by the post. Somebody said that it ...

Weight: 330.2 lbs ( 149.8 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 55.5 in (141.0 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Week 4 (Day 29) Sober Month 4 (Day 123) YMCA: No Had another disturbing dream last night, or rather this morning.  In the morning while I was drifting in and out of sleep I had these weird dreams where I found online where you could find Batman Memes. And found a GIF where Val Kilmer's Batman would wink at you when you opened your phone. And in the dream I dreamed that it was $600 for these memes, but I didn't buy them. But then I "woke up" in the dream, so dream inside dream I checked my balances and I had bought the $600 Batman memes, and then spent another $800 X-men memes. I woke up, truly woke up, in what felt like having a heart attack immediately checking my bank accounts. There'...

Weight: 332.2 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Double Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Week 3 (Day 23) Sober Month 3 (Day 117) YMCA: No Feet hurt again today. But only when I first stood up. Was excited to see another record low for the year. Still 8.4 lbs (3.8 kg) from the lowest weight of last year. But I'm still glad for the progress for the year. When I woke up this morning my right ear felt plugged up. Nose was drippy all day long. Not enough snot to get a good blow to clear the entire thing, just a bit of annoying little stream. I was really tired the first half of the day. I'm not sure if it was the weather or what. The last couple of days was really warm and sunny. Today was dark and cloudy. The ambient temperature wasn't that bad, but that wind was biting. The Google Doodle today celebrated World...

Weight: 335.2 lbs ( 152 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Pork Steak and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Keto Week 3 (Day 22) Sober Month 3 (Day 116) YMCA: No Good drop in weight. Resetting back to a couple of days ago. So back to making progress for the month. Feet really hurt this morning. They stopped hurting as I got up and moving around. As I was leaving for work (dressed, so I know it wasn't a dream) I noticed that the windows were down a bit. I hurriedly thought if it had rained last night. I don't think that it did. I'm sure that I had just left them down a bit because of the great weather we've been having the last couple of days. On the way to work I am starting to wonder if the sensor on the traffic light is working or not. I was sitting at the light for quite a while and it only turned green when a car came from the other way. ...

Weight: 338 lbs ( 153.3 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Keto Clam Chowder Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster Keto Week 2 (Day 21) Sober Month 3 (Day 115) YMCA: No Last night I had another really weird dream. I was dreaming that I was too busy watching videos on YouTube to get ready for work. I had started taking a shower, but concluded that I didn't have time to do that so I ran out the door. And I had hurried out the door to drive to work, but I was more than halfway there before I realized that I had left the house naked. I started to turn around, but figured that would just make me more late for work. So I ran into the store, buck ass naked ran up to the self checkout register grabbed all of the money out of it so I could do the audit to run the register, but decided to run home first to get dressed. The dream jumped to “the next day” and when I got to work I brought the money...

Weight: 335.4 lbs ( 152.1 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Taco Pork Loin Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster Keto Week 2 (Day 20) Sober Month 3 (Day 114) YMCA: No Last night I had a strange twitching in my left knee. Right below the kneecap. It didn't hurt, it was just like there was like a cricket or something jiggling around inside of my knee. I don't think that it's anything to be worried about just yet the knee is working fine this morning and again there is no pain. But it might be something to keep an eye on. Used up the last of the bacon this morning. I debated on wither or not to buy another thing of bacon. But I settled on just buying a smaller pack of bacon. It should last me until Tuesday when I can do the proper grocery shopping. When I got to work there was a new carryout guy. By the end of his three hour shift he was laying on the end of the ...

Weight: 335.2 lbs ( 152 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Southwestern Detox Soup Dinner: Ham Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 2 (Day 19) Sober Month 3 (Day 113) YMCA: No The weight was up today. But still down for the month and amazing progress for the year. The bacon was looking a bit rough when I cooked it this morning. It was just kind of gray while it cooked. I don't know if it's going bad on me, but I'm hoping it can stick it out until Tuesday. I did get around to getting the guts to share my opinion on what is probably going to happen when/if President Trump gets his way with the tariffs  Amazing weather outside today. It was nice enough to open up the windows and turn off the heater. When I came home for lunch Roommate was taking a nap, but I heard a strange banging coming from upstairs. It sounded like he kept slamming his door. But then I remembered that I had my wind...

Weight: 332.4 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Pork Steak and Eggs Lunch: AI Chicken Lemon Parmesan Dinner: Bratwurst Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Powerade Zero Orange, Powerade Zero Strawberry Keto Week 2 (Day 18) Sober Month 3 (Day 112) YMCA: No I stayed up WAY too late last night building those shelves. It was strangely extremely satisfying to finish building them. It was a little bookshelf that would probably fit into a dorm room. But it was sitting down in the basement for who knows how long waiting for me to sober up and put it together. Whoever wrote that instruction card deserves a beating though. The scale was a bit glitchy again today, but the most consistent number was the one I wrote down. A little annoying that it was the exact same as yesterday's. I stepped on it several times during the day and it gave me a different answer so it isn't just glitching to that number. It's still stunning that it's ...

Weight: 332.4 lbs ( 150.7 kg) BMI: 42.7 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 77.5% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Keto Clam Chowder Dinner: Pork Spare Ribs Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 2 (Day 17) Sober Month 3 (Day 111) YMCA: No Another decent drop in weight again today. But than again the scale was a bit glitchy again today. So who knows. It is annoying that the last time there was a record low the scale was glitching and then today there was another record low, and it's glitching again today. I was going to test the scale a bit more, but Roommate was already up and awake. Finally got around to making the second batch of Clam Chowder. I've been trying to cook that stew for little over a week now. Every time I tried cooking I was short an ingredient. I'd go to the store to get the ingredient, but then I'd be missing another ingredient. And it'd seem to be silly to go grab just one thing. And then the next day an ingredient ...

Weight: 335.8 lbs ( 152.3 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 55.5 in (141.0 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 2 (Day 16) Sober Month 3 (Day 110) YMCA: No Actually lost weight from yesterday. I'm just back down to the start of the month. But it's considerably down for the year. Waistline is considerably down, so that's encouraging. It's a bit disconcerting that I got an email this morning that the Jonsonville Jalapeno Sausages are now on recall because there's pieces of plastic in them. I did not little hard bits in the sausages that I had yesterday for lunch. I had assumed that they were bits of bone. But I guess not. I would be eligible for a refund, but I had already eaten them and had thrown away the packaging. No free lunches I guess. Finally, finally, finally got around to editing and scheduling the upload of the video that I recorded back on March 20. ...

Weight: 336.6 lbs ( 152.7 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Cheeseburger Patties Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 2 (Day 15) Sober Month 3 (Day 109) YMCA: No Weight is a little up from yesterday. But I'm blaming that on the jalapeno sausages that I had for lunch yesterday. It's a bit annoying, but I'm not going to let it get to me. Because I'm sure that it's just a minor temporary bump. This morning I did start editing the video that I want to upload for Tuesday. It really isn't a difficult or very long video I just can't seem to find the time to work on it. There's another thing to add to the list of reasons that I'm glad I'm done drinking. Before I went to work this morning my Grandma sent me a message that her hallway light seemed to be burnt out and asked me if I was willing to come over and change the bu...

Weight: 336.2 lbs ( 152.5 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Powerade Zero Orange Keto Week 1 (Day 14) Sober Month 3 (Day 108) YMCA: No Good drop in weight today. Still up for the month, but I'm not too worried about that. It's only 1.4 lbs (0.63 kg) from the record for the year and the month is just getting started. It's kind of strange how it's only and already April so far. This year is blazing by and also seemingly stretching on for forever. Was kinda slow getting up this morning. I barely had time to weigh in and cook breakfast before I had to run out of the door for work. Breakfast was strip steak and eggs. But that's going to be the last steak and eggs for a while. The strip steaks came in packs of 3 for about $35 and the bacon comes in $15 packs that last for about a week and a half. So th...

Weight: 337.4 lbs ( 153.0 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheesy Chicken Chili Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Keto Week 1 (Day 13) Sober Month 3 (Day 107) YMCA: No Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I'm guessing it was the water weight from the salty nuts that I had for lunch the other day because I kept having to get up and go pee. At least I woke up for all of the times I had to go. Today was another dark and dreary day. It started off with a nice gentle rain. But it made it cold all day long. I'm not really looking forward to the blazing heat of summer, but it will be nice when it warms up enough to open the windows and turn off the heater. Getting to work this morning I had a headache again today. I thought about grabbing a Sports Drink of some kind Powerade is usually cheaper (not sponsored) but every time it started to calm down enough for me to get a break th...