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Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Rockstar, Sugar Free Red Bull, Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 6 YMCA: X      Strange last night I had to wake up several times to pee. This is strange for me. Maybe because of how many carbs I ate lately? All of the Seltzer Water?      The up in the weight this morning is within normal daily fluctuations, so I'm trying to not beat myself up too much about the carbs in the last couple of days. Especially considering that some of those carbs were from a Christmas party.       The European Cookies are REALLY good dipped in coffee. The European Cookies are kind of like a box of chocolates, (except you know what you're going to get.) it is a verity box of different cookies. I don't want to eat them...

Weight: 347.4 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 57in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chicken Drumsticks and Thighs Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Pot of Coffee (1 t-spoon salt) Many Cans Kroger Seltzer Sober Day 2 I'm not going to lie, I woke up this morning doing math. I only have $40 in my checking account (don't worry my savings accounts each have about $100) The idea that I was balancing what size of case of beer do I want to buy. If I buy a small 12 pk I'll be too tempted to finish it all off and go buy another case, or if I buy a bigger case I'll have less money to last until Thursday when I get paid. And then I got an email. An email reminding me that I have a doctors appointment for a Venipuncture tomorrow. That really put me into a mood. “Oh, yeah. I was supposed to be getting healthier!” The thing that I've been ignoring for the better part of the last six months. I've just been sitting on my butt drinking beer. Feeling...

Weight: 334.2 lbs (149.9 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73.0% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Basic Chili with cheese and Ranch dressing Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer Mango, Sugar Free Monster Sober Week 2 (Day 18) YMCA: No I didn't post last night. It was strange. I was feeling really good all day long, but as soon as the sun went down I had a MASSIVE wave of “don't give a damn.” Hard to describe it as anything else. I think that it might have been because I spent the entire day sitting here at the computer playing Fallout: New Vegas. I managed to get to the YMCA yesterday, but after that I just sat here at the computer just sitting here. I think that broke my mood. It's just so strange for me to go to bed at 10:30pm I'm going to talk about financial stuff. I was a big hesitant at first, but then again 1. I usually only get about 15 views on each these posts, and 2. If anybody if thinking about stealing/sca...

Weight: 333.2 lbs (151.1 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73.0% Breakfast: X Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Mississippi Roast Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Mango and Blackberry Citrus, Sugar Free Monster Sober Week 2 (Day 16) YMCA: no Woke up again a bit later than I would prefer, but I don't work today or tomorrow so there wasn't much rush to get up. But still there is a frustration in sleeping in so late. When I finally did get around to getting up I really didn't feel all that hungry. Dr Berry and other influencers suggest that you should only eat when only truly hungry. I'm not sure if that was because I had over eaten last night or because I just haven't discovered what it is to be truly hungry. But when I did get around to getting up I just didn't feel like eating anything. On the days that I do have to go to work I will have a breakfast before going to work, as I don't want to gamble with becoming “hangry” I ran by Mom's house to grab a c...

Weight: 327.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Pot of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot, Couple cups of water Sober Day 6 It's kind of creepy to weigh the exact same as the day before. Was able to take inventory before work and got a meal plan together. The “Dinner” list looks kind of funny because it's just Rib-eyes over and over. But I didn't have room in my freezer for all of them. Didn't have time to defrost the freezer and wow there was a lot of ice built up. I'll try to defrost it after work. Noticed that I was out of Chili. I don't usually run out of chili, I usually have some variety of chili. Sometimes multiple varieties. I'm going to have to fix that but then again I might want to wait until the freezer is a little less full. I was almost late for work...

Weight: 327.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Ribeye Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Couple cups of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot, Couple of the large cups of water that the store provides Sober Day 5 Strange feeling waking up today. Physically well rested, but mind is tired. Hard to explain. Roommate went out back to the road today. I usually tease him about the rent money but I had to get to work. I'm just glad that I got through downtown before they closed Main Street. Apparently they're going to have a “Smallville Festival” downtown over the next couple of days. Roommate was very vocal about how much he hates everything to do with that. But then again listing things that he DOESN'T hate would be a considerably shorter list. I was kind of naughty for lunch. And bought some Jumbo Jumbo hot dogs. I'm sure that I ...

Weight: 325.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 41.8 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chile Relleno Soup Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Couple cups of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, 2x Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot Sober Day 4 Woke up with a bit of a surprise in my bank account. For some reason I got paid today. I usually get paid on Thursdays It was close to the amount I was budgeting for. (it was a couple bucks more than I budgeted for, but overtime is hard to exactly calculate so I rounded down) I tried to log on to the site where my pay stubs get posted but the pay stubs haven't updated yet. They usually update Wednesday evenings. Also a nice surprise on the scale as well. Can't say if that's the 48 hour fast that I did the last couple of days, Keto diet, or daily fluctuations. But it's nice to be back under 330 lbs (150 kg) Roommate said that he had to have me run him around to do ...

Weight: 336.1 lbs (152.4 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Attempting Lunch: 48 Hour Dinner: Fast Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Pot of Coffee Black Sober Day 2 Attempting a 48 hour fast. Fell off of the wagon on Saturday and had some beer. And yesterday (Sunday) I decided to have Fried Chicken and Macaroni Salad for lunch. I have Monday and Tuesday off this week. Since I have two days off in a row I decided to attempt a 48 hour fast. I don't plan on trying this very often as all of the articles that I've came across suggest that this should only be done once or twice a month. I'm kind of glad that I didn't work today because for some reason I woke up at 10:30a. I usually work at 11a it always sucks to jump out of bed and run to work. It took me a while to process that it was so late in the morning. I have no idea why I slept in so late. I had even gotten to bed earlier than I normally would have for a Sunday night. And I didn't eve...

Weight: 330.0 lbs (149.7 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54.5 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar-s Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Chuck Shoulder Roast with Mushroom Gravy Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, “” Mango, Pot of Coffee with Cream, Celsius Mango Passion Fruit Sober Day 6 Couldn't get to sleep last night. Was physically tired, but brain was doing cartwheels all night long. I've made an observation. It's nice to stand up in the morning and not feel like I've stood up onto knives. Looking up the parts of the foot, the part known as the lateral arch is usually rather cranky when I wake up in the morning. But the last couple of days it hasn't been so bad. A lot of times when I stand up for the first time I'm sitting right back down with a yell of pain. But last couple of days, I'm not exactly dancing around, but at least I'm not having to convince myself that I have to power though it to get to the bathroom. The other day when Roommate ...

Weight: 333.8 lbs (151.4 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: leftover Fathead Lasagna Lunch: Stuffed Bell Pepper Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Water Strawberry Lemonade, “”Cranberry Lime, Celsius Astro Vibe Energy Drink, Kroger Seltzer Original, “” Mango Sober Day 5 Definitely too much lasagna last night, but I'm not too worried about it. A daily blog isn't to look at the daily fluctuations Had some leftover Fathead Lasagna for breakfast, but it gave me some nasty burps for the first half of the day. I wonder if that's telling me that I should be avoiding dairy.  Legs and feet feel considerably better than they have been, but that might be because I had the last two days off. I did catch the corner of my thumbnail right before work. There's something about my thumbs as soon as there's a bit of nail they'll catch one of the corners leading me to have to trim the damn thing back to the pink Irritability was quite ...

Weight: 332.2 lbs (150.7 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cabbage Soup Dinner: 1.17 lbs Chuck Blade Steak Grilled Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Diet Dr Pepper, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Blackberry Citrus Seltzer Water Sober Day 2 Still didn't go to the YMCA this morning as I'm still horaking up my lungs. I'm still fairly certain that it's just allergies, but I think COVID-19 is still close enough to the zeitgeist that nobody would want to lift weights around someone coughing like I am. And swimming when I can't breathe properly doesn't sound like fun either. Although sitting in the steam room for a bit would probably be beneficial. Had bacon and eggs for breakfast this morning. I've been trying to re-season my cast iron skillet. For a while I was cleaning the skillet with a steal wool scratch pad and baking it. I wasn't using soap water on it, but lately it looked like the patina was starting to come ...

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: X Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Top Sirloin Steak Drinks: Diet Dr Pepper, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Blackberry Citrus Seltzer Water Sober Day 1 Having a hard time just...giving a damn. It's not even a thought of, “I'll do it tomorrow” It's more of a just sitting here zombie scrolling through social media. I seriously need to get my life under control. Those first sentences were written four days ago. Lately I feel like I'm just tumbling trough space. I grew up wanting to be an astronaut, but this isn't that. I was going to get this restarted back on Tuesday when I was really surprised by  1. I woke up at half-past noon. It seems like a flex, but I really hate sleeping past noon. And when I did get downstairs I was surprised by the second surprise.  2. My Mom was banging on my door doing a welfare check. My Stepdad had called her to check on me because I had let ...

Weight: 331 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Several Cans of Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime and Mandarin Orange Sober Day 3 YMCA: Weights I got the hours and days mixed up in yesterday's post so I was able to get to the YMCA this morning. And I'm wanting to do swimming next week so I spent a few minutes in the weight room I had to struggle with the thought that I was doing everything wrong and I was just wasting time. I tried to use the counter thought of “Doing something is always better than doing nothing” but I really couldn't bring myself to do much in the weight room. I did feel a lot more confident and sure of myself when I was using the treadmill. But then again that's just walking. If I can't figure out how to walk by now I'm going to have a lot of questions with mys...

  Weight: 334.6 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Lunch: Low Carb Goulash Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Energy, Kroger Energy Shot, Several Cans of Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime Sober Day 2 YMCA: No It's hard to believe that it's been since February since I've last posted. I was going to start this back up yesterday, but it just became another than a “Mark Whines About Work” Post. I feel like work absorbs enough of my life without me coming home and stewing about the BS. And I doubt anybody wants to read about that. But that does put a heck of a block on what I could write about on a “Daily Blog” Yesterday when I stepped on the scale I was back to where I was, weight wise, at the beginning of the year and I have been kind of concerned about the returning stabbing pain in my feet and how stiff my legs have been lately. I've also been really tired and irritated all da...

Weight: 328.8 lbs (149.1 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Nathans Hot Dogs and Cottage Cheese Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango x7 Sober Week 2 (Day 15) Had a laugh that might have messed up the measurement of last nights meditative session. I wasn't paying attention to what the voice was saying because they started the session by saying, “Sit up straight in your chair, your head straight up, and let the stress of your day flow down. Let the stress of the day flow down into the part of the chair where your chair is touching your body” And I couldn't help but interpret that as, “Let the stress of the day flow down, let the stress of the day flow down, and out of your ass” The rest of the meditative session was lost to me because I couldn't help but to bust out laughing about the idea of forcing the daily stress out the ass. I think i...

W eight: 334.2 lbs (151.6 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mexican Ground Beef and Zucchini with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: 2x cups of Coffee Black, 500ml Bottled Water x4, Kroger Energy Shot x2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x5 Sober Week 1 (Day 9) Having a hard time the last couple of days getting up and going. Soreness in my lower right back. But it's more mentally struggling. I just couldn't get enough “Go” to go yesterday, but I did feel a considerable difference in the Mental and Physical energy yesterday. People were dumb AF but I'm starting to feel more “UP” on the days that I'm able to work out in the morning. Had Bacon and Eggs for breakfast after I got home from the YMCA. This is a very satisfying habit to get into. But I had used up the last of my bacon this morning and I forgot to pick up more bacon after work this evening. But I do have a Strip Steak in the fridge that I can have breakf...

Weight: 334.8 lbs (151.9 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna mixed with Cheesy Ground Beef Casserole Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime 2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime 2, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sugar Free 3, Rockstar Silver ICE, 500ml Bottled water x6 Sober Day 3 Last night when I went to bed the daily meditation was titled “Hakuna Matata” and I couldn't help but think, “What a wonderful phrase.” But the voice over spent half of the lesson talking about The Lion King. And it kind of ruined the clever feeling of catching the reference. It's also kind of hard to fall asleep when you're listening to the meditative version of “Hakuna Matata”, it is a bit distracting Was a bit slow at falling asleep last night. Even with the meditation lessons. I wasn't as angry as I was the previous night. And I was quite relaxed, I just couldn't pass out. I am glad that I got to bed by m...

Weight: 337.4 lbs (150.6 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cuban Picadillo with a handful of shredded cheese Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x3, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, 500ml Bottled water x8 Sober Day 2 Vitamins: B12 1000mg (New) Vitamin C 1000mg (New) 2x Vitamin D3 5000IU K2+D3 (D3 5000I K2 100mcg) Fish Oil 1200mg (lol when I first wrote that I wrote “Fish Soil” I don't know what Fish Soil is but I don't think I want any) Magnesium 250 mg Potassium Gluconate Got a bit of inspiration to get serious about my health and other things that I want to be doing. I don't want to go into a whole lot of detail because anything I write on here would just be third level hearsay about someone else's medical issues. But the short of it is that one of my cousins is in the hospital because she wont manage her diabet...