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W eight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup with sour cream Dinner: Slow Cooked Chuck Roast with mushroom Gravy, Green Beans, Salad Drinks: Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 24) YMCA: X The Sleep record this morning showed something interesting. I did get to bed on time, more or less, and it didn't take me long to fall asleep. But the sleep record said I didn't fall asleep until almost 2 in the morning. I have a guess as to what might make the phone think that I was awake for so long. I'm thinking that it might be because I had set the phone to play some space documentaries to listen to while I drifted off. And I think that the phone saw that I was "watching YouTube videos" instead of being asleep. Clearly the phone was playing videos, and if the phone is playing a video I have to be watching it, right? There's no way I could be asleep while "watchi...

  Weight: 347.8 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Doritos Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee with cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 23) YMCA: X I tried to do a bit of reading last night when I went to bed. But the book I was trying to read was “ The Children of Húrin” by JRR Tolkien. Professor Tolkien is an amazing writer. He is great at building his world through his characters. The problem is I have a hard time remembering people by their names. So he'll spend three pages saying who this person is, where they lived, who is in their family, and then Oh, they died. Then he just says somebody elses name, and the story just expects you to know who they are.  It was odd this morning I woke up with Amazing Grace playing in my head. Going over the lyrics it is strange that Amazing Grace is thought of such a mournful song. It is singing about the blessings God has given ...

Weight: 347.4 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Lunch: Fried Chicken Drumsticks, Cheddar Pringles Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Sober Week 2 (Day 19) YMCA: X It would be nice to lose some weight in the beginning of the year. I mean being up 0.1 to 0.4 pounds (45 to 181 grams) per day isn't an emergency, it's just that only having ups this early in the year makes the spreadsheets look kind of ridiculous. According to the current trend I'm going to be be 516.6 lbs (234.3 kg) by the end of 2026. I'm not sure if I'd like to be a quarter of a US Ton, but I'm pretty sure that my knees would sure as hell wouldn't. They're grumpy enough as it is. Yesterday it seemed like the entire state of Kansas was trying to squeeze through the two registers that they were nice enough to give us. This morning a guy...

Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Rockstar, Sugar Free Red Bull, Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 6 YMCA: X      Strange last night I had to wake up several times to pee. This is strange for me. Maybe because of how many carbs I ate lately? All of the Seltzer Water?      The up in the weight this morning is within normal daily fluctuations, so I'm trying to not beat myself up too much about the carbs in the last couple of days. Especially considering that some of those carbs were from a Christmas party.       The European Cookies are REALLY good dipped in coffee. The European Cookies are kind of like a box of chocolates, (except you know what you're going to get.) it is a verity box of different cookies. I don't want to eat them...

Weight: 354.2 lbs ( 160.6 kg) BMI: 45.5 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages, Rockstar Sliver Lunch: Private Selection Pepperoni Mozzarella Rolls, Rockstar Sliver Dinner: Chuck Steak Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sober Day 1 All of my dishes were dirty this morning so I couldn't have the usual bacon and eggs for breakfast. It took a lot of effort to hold off from going to Spangles. That idea came up a couple of days ago and it still sounds like a good idea. But fast food is expensive and not that great any more. I did end up driving around a bit before work. I really wasn't going anywhere I was just trying to stop myself from hitting up a fast food drive through. Annoyingly enough this cruising around made the “Low Gas” alert come on. I usually wait until I'm coasting in on fumes to refill the tank. Normally I just fill up once a month, but the Doctor's trip to Wichita last week and a Family Gathering a...

Weight: 331 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili with Cottage Cheese Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Several Cans of Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime and Mandarin Orange Sober Day 3 YMCA: Weights I got the hours and days mixed up in yesterday's post so I was able to get to the YMCA this morning. And I'm wanting to do swimming next week so I spent a few minutes in the weight room I had to struggle with the thought that I was doing everything wrong and I was just wasting time. I tried to use the counter thought of “Doing something is always better than doing nothing” but I really couldn't bring myself to do much in the weight room. I did feel a lot more confident and sure of myself when I was using the treadmill. But then again that's just walking. If I can't figure out how to walk by now I'm going to have a lot of questions with mys...

  Weight: 334.6 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Lunch: Low Carb Goulash Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Sugar Free Rockstar Energy, Kroger Energy Shot, Several Cans of Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime Sober Day 2 YMCA: No It's hard to believe that it's been since February since I've last posted. I was going to start this back up yesterday, but it just became another than a “Mark Whines About Work” Post. I feel like work absorbs enough of my life without me coming home and stewing about the BS. And I doubt anybody wants to read about that. But that does put a heck of a block on what I could write about on a “Daily Blog” Yesterday when I stepped on the scale I was back to where I was, weight wise, at the beginning of the year and I have been kind of concerned about the returning stabbing pain in my feet and how stiff my legs have been lately. I've also been really tired and irritated all da...

Weight: 328.8 lbs (149.1 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Nathans Hot Dogs and Cottage Cheese Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango x7 Sober Week 2 (Day 15) Had a laugh that might have messed up the measurement of last nights meditative session. I wasn't paying attention to what the voice was saying because they started the session by saying, “Sit up straight in your chair, your head straight up, and let the stress of your day flow down. Let the stress of the day flow down into the part of the chair where your chair is touching your body” And I couldn't help but interpret that as, “Let the stress of the day flow down, let the stress of the day flow down, and out of your ass” The rest of the meditative session was lost to me because I couldn't help but to bust out laughing about the idea of forcing the daily stress out the ass. I think i...

Weight: 334.8 lbs (151.9 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna mixed with Cheesy Ground Beef Casserole Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime 2, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime 2, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sugar Free 3, Rockstar Silver ICE, 500ml Bottled water x6 Sober Day 3 Last night when I went to bed the daily meditation was titled “Hakuna Matata” and I couldn't help but think, “What a wonderful phrase.” But the voice over spent half of the lesson talking about The Lion King. And it kind of ruined the clever feeling of catching the reference. It's also kind of hard to fall asleep when you're listening to the meditative version of “Hakuna Matata”, it is a bit distracting Was a bit slow at falling asleep last night. Even with the meditation lessons. I wasn't as angry as I was the previous night. And I was quite relaxed, I just couldn't pass out. I am glad that I got to bed by m...

Weight: 337.4 lbs (150.6 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cuban Picadillo with a handful of shredded cheese Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange x3, Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime x3, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, 500ml Bottled water x8 Sober Day 2 Vitamins: B12 1000mg (New) Vitamin C 1000mg (New) 2x Vitamin D3 5000IU K2+D3 (D3 5000I K2 100mcg) Fish Oil 1200mg (lol when I first wrote that I wrote “Fish Soil” I don't know what Fish Soil is but I don't think I want any) Magnesium 250 mg Potassium Gluconate Got a bit of inspiration to get serious about my health and other things that I want to be doing. I don't want to go into a whole lot of detail because anything I write on here would just be third level hearsay about someone else's medical issues. But the short of it is that one of my cousins is in the hospital because she wont manage her diabet...

Weight: 335.8 lbs (152.3 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Stroganoff Casserole Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: 2000ml water, 2x Kroger Energy Shots, Gatorade Zero Sugar Glacier Cherry, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Sober Week 1 (Day 8) Was finally able to get to the YMCA. I do have to say using those weight machines were very satisfying. It was also nice to hang out with Mom in an activity that she enjoys so much. It is somewhat of an entertaining thought that my mother is becoming a gym rat. I'm going to have to do some research on how lifting weights effect someone mentally. As I was leaving the gym I was feeling like I was drunk. But by the time I got to work I felt normal PHYSICALLY . But there was something going on with my mind and spirit. Because, WOW people were extra irritating today.  I'm going to make a really long, “Mark Whines About Work Blog” But these are just a few examples of what I had to deal with. These are kind ...

Weight: 337 lbs (152.9 kg) BMI: 43.3 Waist: 55.5 in (141 cm) WtHr: 75% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili with two slices of cheddar cheese mixed in Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: 2x Pepsi Zero, 2x Pepsi Cherry Zero, 2x Dr Pepper Zero, 2x Diet Mt Dew, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy, 1000ml water Sober Day 7 Really slow start this morning. I was really surprised to see it was 9:30 when I woke up the first time this morning. I did manage to get bacon and eggs cooked before I had to get to work. Would have been nice to get some coffee though. The weight was up compared to yesterday, but I'm trying to not beat myself up too much over eight tenths of a pound. For lunch I had some chili. I went to lunch at the same time the coworker that I had “converted” to the Keto diet. When I got back someone asked her what she had for lunch and she complained that all she was “allowed” to have was a piece of “lame” chicken. She asked what I had I told her that I h...

Weight: 342.4 lbs (155.3 kg) BMI: 43.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno and Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Silver Ice Sober Day 4 I have been slipping on this. And the days have been kind of mushing together again. My left foot really has not been happy. I know that I haven't been very good on my diet, but the shoes that I have now I have had for several months now and I think I'm due for a new pair.  Everyday when I wake up I tell myself, “Today, TODAY is the day that I'm going to get back onto the diet and plans” and then I start the day, and then, “well maybe tomorrow will be the day that I get back to it.” And then yesterday Mom shared a message saying that one of my cousins is in the hospital with Diabetic Ketoacidosis. This kinda tells me that I really need to get back into the diet. Cousin has had diabetes for a while no...

Weight: 340.6 lbs (154.5 kg) BMI: 43.7 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Burger King Eggnormous Burrito Meal Lunch: Stroganoff Casserole Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: Couple cans of Kroger Seltzer Watermelon, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, 900 ml water Sober Day 2 All morning I keep opening up tabs and closing them again. I really do want to avoid Social Media, but that's going to be a hard habit to break. Trucker Roommate was able to collect on some rather large boxes of Kit-Kat candy bars. Not exactly something I could have on my diet, but I decided that my sister's kids would like some candy. Not the most Ketogenic breakfast, but was on the way home from sister's house and didn't have time to cook properly. I did take my vitamins this morning, but didn't get a chance to get in any coffee and did feel that for the first half of work. Really felt worthless all day at work. Another day where I feel like I'm just waiting for the da...

Weight: 342.8 lbs (155.5 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sober Day 1 Two weeks almost to the day that I've last posted on my “Daily” Blog. The last post on here was the day before Christmas Eve. I told myself that I wasn't considering Christmas as a “Cheat Day” but the problem came when after Christmas I told myself, “Heck it's the end of the year anyway, why not?” and then, “Meh it's still early in the year.” And this last week I've been really struggling with a very heavy flare up of apathy. I just can't seem to give a damn about anything lately. I've been sitting at my computer until I have to go to work, stand around waiting for the day to end, and then going back home and sitting at the computer. The last several weeks have been kind of a gray blur, I've b...

Weight: 335.2 lbs (152 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Steak Drinks: Couple Cups of Coffee Black,Several cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Silver Weeks Sober 3 (Day 27) Stepdad looked at the car and it was the water pump that had went out. I do admit that he scared the hell out of me when he said that he was going to “Call a wrecker” after he determined that the problem was the water pump. He said that he put some antifreeze in and it just poured right out so he called a wrecker. I'm pretty sure that if I was linked up to an EKG it would have been writing in cursive. But he reassured me that the tow truck was just going to take it to my Granduncle's place for him to work on because it would be bad to drive it any more than absolutely necessary. Sounds like it's going to be an easy fix and it'll be done by the time I get...

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Stroganoff Casserole Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: Couple cups of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Cranberry Lime Weeks Sober 2 (Day 19) Last night the meditation was kind of strange. I was able to meditate without falling asleep just fine, and I did feel calm after the breathing session, but the “Stress” tracker on my watch said that the level of stress that I was experiencing had gone up instead of down like in previous sessions. I did fall asleep quite easily last night. Strangely the app said that I didn't get to sleep until 2:30 this morning, even though I went to bed closer to midnight. That first doctors appointment when the doctor asked me how well I usually sleep I asked him how much he trusted smartwatches to track sleep, and he seemed to think that they are pretty accurate. Bit of a hard time getting going this morning. ...