Weight: 342.8 lbs
(155.5 kg)
BMI: 44
Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm)
WtHr: 77%
Breakfast: Bacon
and eggs
Lunch: Johnsonville
Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages
Dinner: Rib Eye
Drinks: Pot
of Coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water
Watermelon
Sober Day 1
Two weeks almost
to the day that I've last posted on my “Daily” Blog. The last
post on here was the day before Christmas Eve. I told myself that I
wasn't considering Christmas as a “Cheat Day” but the problem
came when after Christmas I told myself, “Heck it's the end of the
year anyway, why not?” and then, “Meh it's still early in the
year.” And this last week I've been really struggling with a very
heavy flare up of apathy. I just can't seem to give a damn about
anything lately. I've been sitting at my computer until I have to go
to work, stand around waiting for the day to end, and then going back
home and sitting at the computer.
The last several
weeks have been kind of a gray blur, I've been kind of just scrolling
through the various Social Media sites I swear that these are about
as dangerous as alcohol and carbs. I've been spending all week trying
to convince myself that it is the beginning of the year I need to
start doing things to get the year started. But I don't seem to have
the same “Get Up and Go” that I did in previous years. I do have
a lot of things that I really “want” to do. It did kind of hurt
when I finally started up the list of videos for the year and for
most of January its just too late to do most of the videos. I should
be able to get the Weekly Weigh Ins done. It will take some focus to
get the Store Stories and Weekly Keto Recipes done. Those Three
series are the videos that I want to be the ones I want to focus on,
but there is quite a few more videos that I want to make.
I did sign up for
the local YMCA, but I think I might have done this backwards. I
signed up online, but still haven't found the time (see courage) to
go over there and see any of it in person. But I do want to start
weight lifting and maybe get into swimming.
Things I'm going
to do to make things happen. Hesitant to call these “Resolutions”
but here we go.
Get off of
the beer. Any whiff of alcohol turns me into a lump sitting here at
my computer. I have way too much that I want to do with my life to
just sit here half out of reality. And then recovering the next day.
Limit my
time on Social Media to just during my Lunch Break. What I've been
doing is waking up in the morning, zombie strolling through the
social medias until time to go to work, come home for lunch, zombie
scroll until I have to go back to work, and then come home and
zombie scroll more until I go to bed WAY too late at night. This
cannot be healthy. I don't want to completely drop off of the
grid as this is kind of my only window to the outside. But the zombie scrolling has to stop.
Try to get
over to the Y to get started with weight lifting. This might be the
hardest challenge so far. But there are many mental and physical
benefits to lifting weights, but new things are scary. I am off Monday and Tuesday this week but there's supposed to be a pretty decent snow storm that is expected to come through and give me a pretty good excuse.
Try to get
videos done and scheduled. For example the first Thursday of the
month I want to make a Science related video. If I didn't happen to
get the Science video done for the month, I'll still work on the
video until it's done and then just schedule it to go live the next
month. I keep coming up with this plan. And I do think that it is a good plan. But I keep falling back on things and end up not getting anything done. That could be a sign that I just don't have the passion to do this YouTube project. But I haven't found anything that I've have wanted to work on.
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