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  Weight: 353.2 lbs (160.2 kg) BMI: 45.3 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: x Lunch: Bar S Hot Dogs, sugar free Rockstar energy Dinner: Hamburger Helper Cheesy Lasagna Drinks: 2x sparkling water, 2x 5 hour energy shot mood: not well      Allergies are banging again. Didn't have breakfast. Had hot dogs for lunch. Hamburger helper for dinner. My head hurts, my eyes hurt, my ears hurt. I am not in a good state right now. I really am hoping that it is just allergies.       Ducked out of work again. This sinus headache was just too much. Had a real fun moment when I told one guy that his total was $47 and some odd cents. And the dude exploded! He started screaming hooping and hollering. He was hoping to have an order under $50. Dude is damn near doing jumping jacks and I'm just clutching my head in pain.

Weight: 355.6 lbs (161.3 kg) BMI: 45.7 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79% Breakfast: 2x frozen breakfast burritos, sugar free Rockstar Energy Lunch: Pepperoni mozzarella rolls, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: a glass or two of Big K Citrus Drop Zero Sugar mood: better      This morning was rough as hell. It was a continuation of yesterday's allergy issues. And all day long I had a voice like I smoke three packs a day. This is on top of a voice that no one can hear on a normal day. But when I got to work I put on a mask and that massively helped with my symptoms. I didn't bother with a mask yesterday and I felt like re-fried dog poo. So that proves, to me at least, that a face mask helps with my allergy symptoms. Someone saw that I was wearing a mask and asked me if I was sick. I told him that the mask helps with my allergies. He just sneered at me, “That's just all in your head.” Yeah, genius where do you think my sinuses are?      This morning I ha

Weight: 360.2 lbs (163.4 kg) BMI: 46.2 Waist: 59.5 in (151.1 cm) WtHr: 80.4% Breakfast: X Lunch: Johnsonville Beddar with Cheddar sausages, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Dinner: X Drinks: 2 L Big K Cola Oh! mood:just so very tired      Brace yourselves, autumn is coming. Late summer early fall is always fun for me and my allergies. Today work was...work. It's really “”fun”” to listen to all of the little ones screeching their lungs out when you have a head full of mucus. The vibrations rolling through the eyeballs are an experience that I wish they all would share. I get it, kids scream, that's what they do. It would just be nice if parents do LITERALLY ANYTHING when their kids are screaming their lungs out. As someone who is not a parent and has no experience with children I shouldn't judge. But, damn lately everything under four foot tall seems to be screaming its head off. Maybe their allergies are getting triggered as well.      Someone suggested that, “If you're sick

  Weight: 360.8 lbs (163.6 kg) BMI: 46.3 Waist: 60 in (152.4 cm) WtHr: 81% Breakfast: X Lunch: Jonsonville Jalapeno Cheddar sausages Dinner: Ultameat Pizza Drinks: 1 can Liquid death canned water, 1.25 L Diet Coke mood: rushed Was too busy this morning making a weigh in video to have breakfast. So today I am kind of going to do a “Two meal a day” plan. This is more or less what I normally do. I don't normally take the time to have breakfast each day.      Was almost late to work today. I recorded a weekly weigh in video before work, but didn't have time to upload it before I had to leave. And that's when the panic came. I couldn't find my wallet! I was tearing the house apart looking for my wallet. It takes me about 10 minutes to drive to work and it was three minutes before I had to be there before I just grabbed my debit card (which wasn't in my wallet see previous blog entries for why) and told myself that I should just drive safely so I wouldn't get pulled o

Weight: 361.8 lbs (164.1 kg) BMI: 46.4 Waist: 58 in (47.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: KC Strip Steak and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Beddar with cheddar sausages, Rockstar sugar free energy Dinner: Cheeseburger Macaroni Hamburger Helper Drinks: 2x Sparkling water, 5 hour energy shot mood: tired      I was going to have bacon and eggs for breakfast this morning, but I had a KC Strip that had been sitting in my fridge for what was starting to be a while. I tried to make the eggs over easy again, but as soon as my spatula touched the eggs to turn them they just scrambled. I usually cook the eggs in a cast iron skillet. But that was dirty from yesterday so I was cooking in a different skillet, it's not a Teflon pan, it has some sort of light brown covering across the cooking surface. Usually it's a pretty good non stick pan, but this morning I just couldn't get the spatula under the eggs.      Work was frustrating as always. Underpaid, understaffed, overworked. But at least eve

Weight: 361.2 lbs (163.8 kg) BMI: 46.4 Waist: 58.5 in (149.6 cm) WtHr: 79.5% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Bar S hot dogs, bag of Cheetos Dinner: baked chicken Drinks: 2 Liters Dr Pepper Cherry zero Sugar, 2x Kroger Sparkling Water, 5 Hour energy shot, 4x 24 oz Milwaukee's Best ICE beer mood: tired      Started of with some bacon and eggs. I still haven't gotten the bacon right, it's always burnt halfway to charcoal or still half raw. Sometimes on the same strip. I'm kind of starting to see the greatness of over easy eggs. But they do seem to be a pain to eat compared to eggs cooked hard. It almost seems necessary to switch back between a fork and a spoon. And I was really clumsy and irritable this morning. The other day I had bumped into a door frame and I now have a heck of a bruise on the back of my left arm. And everything I touch seems to end up on the floor, or seems to knock something else onto the floor.      If I ever get the energy I seriously need to cl

Weight: 361.2 lbs (163.8 kg) BMI: 46.4 Waist: 58.9 in (149.6 cm) WtHR: 79.5% Breakfast: Hamburger Helper Italian Shells and Cheese Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: x Drinks: 2 Liter Dr Pepper zero Sugar, 2x Kroger Sparkling Water, 2x 5 Hour energy shot, 12pk bud light next mood: neutral      Weight did go up a bit, but I think that might have been because of the ribs I ate yesterday. And daily fluctuations in weight is a normal thing. I didn't have the most Keto friendly breakfast this morning. But I have a couple of boxes of Hamburger Helper in my cabinet that I need to get through.      Was not very productive before work today. I normally work 11-8, but today I was scheduled to work 2-10. I spent the day thinking of all of the stuff I was going to do before work. And spent the day counting down how much time I had before I had to get to work. I keep doing this, and this is one of my biggest frustrations in my life. I spend all of my time counting down h

Weight: 358 lbs (162.4 kg) BMI: 46 Waist: 59.5 (148.6 cm) WtHr: 80.4% Breakfast: Leftover nacho cheese Lunch: x Dinner: Ribs snacks: Corn chips with a jar of Queso Drinks: 2L Diet Mt Dew. 12Pk Samuel Adams Sweater Weather Beer, 12 pk Bud lite next mood: low I am using a whole lot of effort to write this out. A body at rest tends to stay at rest. And I have been “resting” way too much. It is frustrating that I can't seem to get the energy to do anything outside of going to work and sitting at my desk watching YouTube. But I just can't seem to get anything done. My “Sabbath” is supposed to be on Tuesday. And the last week or two I've worked on Tuesday. And had a different day off. And lately I've only had one day off per week. I don't want to complain about the overtime. I do need to save up for a very important financial situation that I need to resolve. This is a financial position that I swore that I would never fall into again. And I have to say I am reall