Weight: 348.6 lbs
( 158.1 kg)
BMI: 44.8
Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm)
WtHr: 78.4%
Breakfast: Bar-S
Hot Dogs
Lunch: Fried Chicken,
Dinner: Christmas at Grandma
Chili Dogs various snacks
Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red
Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot
Snack: A couple of
“European Cookies”
Sober Week 1 (Day 8)
YMCA: X
Heh, down 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the month, up 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the year. It'd be fun if I could lose that much in a week, but nah, it's not going to happen.
I had to drive my
Roommate to a doctor's appointment before I had to go to work so I
didn't have time for a proper breakfast. So I just grabbed a pack of
hot dogs before work.
Roommate says
that the doctor told him that he is now officially on the Keto Diet.
Kind of sucks, I
had some dry lips the other day. I grabbed some lip balm that helped
a bit on the lips, but didn't seem to catch a bit. As it feels like I
have a paper cut on my upper lip. But at least it doesn't feel like
my face is splitting open if I move my mouth wrong.
I took some time
during my lunch break to buy some extra groceries. This was a bit of
a knee jerk reaction. And reminds me of some memes that I've seen
online saying something along the line of, “The stores are closed
tomorrow, better grab six months worth of food!” I grabbed some
fried chicken along with the groceries because it was already warm so
I didn't have to warm it up. But then again I could have (should
have) bought some hot dogs or Smoked Sausages.
People were
overly annoying all day long today. It really wouldn't be that bad if
they'd just calm the hell down.
Had another
family gathering for Christmas. Grandma's Christmas party is a bit
more traditional than Mom's. For dinner we had some chili and hot
dogs and some snack foods before opening presents.
I was a bit
nervous going out to Grandma's house and coming back into town.
Leaving the store the low fuel notification indicator came on. The
notification comes on when I'm within 20 miles from empty. And it's
about 8 miles from the store to Grandma's house and about 7 miles
from Grandma's back to my house. I'd get gas, but there's not enough
in my bank accounts to get gas without the pumps shutting off. I'll
be able to get gas on Thursday when I get paid (got money for
Christmas, but the money isn't in my checking account. And I don't
think that they like to use that denomination in the convenience
store), but for now I'm stuck at home. Thankfully, due to Christmas,
the store will be closed tomorrow so I'll be off. And then Roommate asked if I could do a favor for him and suggested that we go out to KFC and get Eggnog. Yeah, I have NO money and NO gas. It's a fun idea, but that's not going to happen.
When I got home
it was hard to start this post. (This part is not for a "poor me" sympathy sob I'm just trying to put words to feelings) I really shut down when I got home. I
was just so “down” Not sure why, just felt so bleh. Not sure if
it was because of the constant run that I had to do the last couple of days dealing
with the customers doing their holiday rush, the inability to stick
to my diet over the last couple of days (I've been sober, just not
following Keto), or (not sure if I can get my feelings into words)
the other people interacting with each other. Nieces and nephews were playing with each other, I'm sitting to the side. Cousin's boyfriend (?) was talking to my uncle about being in the army and they're sharing experiences, and I'm sitting to the side. People get gifts being told how perfect their gifts are for them, I'm sitting to the side. I AM NOT complaining about the money I got. I could use it. I hope I'm not coming across like I'm demanding a gift, but it's just that nobody handed me something saying, "I looked at this and I thought of you!" Christmas isn't about the presents, it's just a lot of times at gatherings, I feel like I'm just there, sitting to the side.
Maybe I just need to get out more. I'll post this, but I won't share it to Facebook, I don't think the last paragraph is going to be interpreted well.
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