Weight: 323.0 lbs ( 146.5 kg)
BMI: 41.5
Waist: 53.5 in (
135.9 cm)
WtHr: 72.3%
Breakfast:
Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ
Lunch:
Southwestern Detox Soup https://youtu.be/9q5K-GH0250
Dinner:
Bratwurst
Drinks:
Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Low Carb Monster,
Sober Year 1 (Day 387)
Keto Day 3 (6/365 Days 2026 Keto)
I don't know if the meditation last night did anything to help
sleep come sooner or better. But I did have a really strange dream.
Strange to have dreams at all, but this was a weird one. For some
reason I was walking to work and somebody said that they knew a short
cut, but I had lost them as they ran behind a warehouse which was odd
because there aren't any warehouses between my house and the store.
But when I came from behind the warehouse I noticed that I was in the
mountains. I figured that it was the Rocky Mountains as it was rocky
and snowy up on the top of the mountains. I looked down and saw a
city, I figured that was Denver because that is a city in the Rocky
Mountains. I thought that since I was lost in the mountains I needed
to find a police officer because I was lost. I came across a mounted
officer with a “Montey County Sheriff” Badge. I explained that I
needed help because I was lost in the mountains and I need to get
home. He told me it was alright because it was just a dream anyway. I
was rather upset with that response as it clearly wasn't a dream
because my feet were cold because of the snow and my hand hurt when I
smacked it into the side of a sign, he scoffed and I tried smacking
the sign again, but it didn't hurt as my hand felt numb. He said that
he'd call my mom. Suddenly I was riding in a car with Mom going down
the highway. Then I 'woke up' in the dream. I was in the house we
lived in when I was a teenager (that had been torn down IRL) I was
trying to explain the dream I just had to her but she was checking
the computer to see if I was doing drugs while playing video games. I
was trying to argue with her that you can't tell if somebody is on
drugs just because of their video games. But I couldn't get any
points out to her as I was chasing around, my current, roommates dog
as the dog was pooping all over the carpets in various rooms. I was
chasing the dog around asking, “How does crapping everywhere make
America Great Again?!” That's when I actually woke up and it was
8:45am and I was quite confused. I don't know if the meditation
caused the weird dream. But when I woke up my watch showed 0 steps so
far. So at least I didn't have to get up to pee. And I'm pretty sure
that I slept all of the way through the night. But the sleep tracker
said I didn't fall asleep until 2:30am. I didn't think that I was
awake that long.
God it's so satisfying to wake up on Pay Day and
just transfer into savings. Nothing is due this week, I have a locker
full of energy drinks, nothing needs to be paid for. I keep $50 in
Checking for the weekly allowance, but I don't need anything right
now, I transferred $1each into “Project” and “General”
savings and then the rest of the paycheck goes into “Bill Savings”
I the song Jehovah Jireh was stuck in my mind for the first part of
the day.
Almost as satisfying as transferring money into savings is
seeing the weight is lower today than yesterday. It's still over the
weight of the beginning of the year. So the yearly projection is
still going up and it's showing that the end of next year I'll be at
477lbs (216.4 kg) but at least that end weight is within the possible
range of a living human. I am wondering if I was premature on
lowering the “short goal” to 310 lbs (140.6 kg) But It's so close
to the 320 lb (145.2 kg) goal I'm sure I'll reach that goal soon
enough.
When I left the house for work the weather was sunny and in the
60's I didn't think that I needed a jacket. They've been talking
about an inch or two of snow this weekend. But it REALLY didn't look like it this afternoon...or at least it didn't until 1 or 2 when the clouds moved in and I started to think we might get some snow tomorrow. I still don't think we'll see any accumulation, who knows, I might have just jinxed it. Despite the flip in the weather, there really wasn't a massive rush. Another, "Busy, but smooth" day.
Something that I forgot to mention yesterday was that they were doing open interviews trying to hire people. I'm not sure how effective a couple hour session of open interviews in the middle of the afternoon will be, but what was odd was that one of the people who showed up for an interview was the guy who got fired a couple months ago because he was making threats of violence against coworkers. He never threatened me, but he was itching for a fight with the trans person who was a cashier at the time s/he doesn't work here anymore. But I would think that making threats against coworkers would put you on a pretty heavy "NO" list on rehiring. I had saw him talking with the HR Lady when I was clocking out for lunch (they were doing the interviews in the break room) and I heard her say, "If you've been fired in one position you can't be rehired for that same position." He asked if he got hired at the other store could he transfer back to this store and get into the job he had before. I ducked out to go to lunch before I heard her answer.
The monster in the locker really is working out well as I was able to go another day without spending anything extra. A coworker was on his lunch break with a couple of monsters on the table in front of him. I told him about my plan to buy the monster by the case (not sponsored) He was impressed with my ability do drain the can in three drinks. I told him that I didn't have the time to take a full break so I just slam them down really quickly. If they weren't carbonated I'd be able to do it in one gulp, but with the bubbles I have to take a moment to burp in between. Mom said that Stepdad is going to Sam's Club Saturday and offered to have him pick me up a case of Monsters. That would definitely be appreciated. I'll keep those at home, but if that was the case that he had offered to pick up for me before, that would last me for a while.
I tried to talk to the Backup Customer Service Manager about the hours that I've been getting the last couple of weeks. But she kept shutting me down; saying that she was getting 38 hours per week also. I asked her if that's just for now, or should I start budgeting for 38 hours/week. She said that it was too soon to tell. Which I noticed wasn't a no. I asked her if I should be worried becasue I heard that if you don't average a certain number of hours you could lose your full time status, but she didn't know about that. She did say that if somebody didn't average at least 35 hours/week they'd lose their benefits. I told her that if they had cut hours so much that I wasn't averaging 35 hours/week we'd be having a serious conversation. She did seem to be on my side on that thought though.
But for now I'm going to try to meditate again.
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