Weight: 329.2 lbs ( 149.3 kg)
BMI: 42.3
Waist: 54 in (137.2
cm)
WtHr: 73%
Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs
Lunch:
Pizza Soup
Dinner: Pork Ribs
Drinks:
Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster,
Sober Month 9 (Day 280)
Keto Day 6
Having a hard time.
10 months sober.
I was kind of curious messing around with the spending comparison
spreadsheet on Friday. The spending is up $513 compared to last year,
but I was curious to see how the balances looked each day this year
compared to last year. It wasn't a hard task, but it was a bit
complicated because the savings strategy has evolved over time so I
had to have some columns for the Checking account and then had to
build in the columns for the various savings accounts. I knew that I
was down from last year. But I hadn't had a day that I had more money
this year than last year since March when I had that oil sensor
repaired on my car. And then a couple of days here in September were
finally getting caught up. I was planning on getting most of those
bills paid this coming up Thursday. I want to pay the bills the last
Thursday of the Month before the month starts, but the first Thursday
of the month works too. I was getting kind of excited because since
October has five Thursdays it looks like I was finally going to get
the bills caught up and ahead for the next month of November.
And then
and then
The check engine light came on in my car. The last time it had
turned on it was a $450 repair and the only reason that I was able to
afford that was because I had just received the tax return for the
year. And I was never able to recover from that because the bills
always seemed be coming due. And now that I'm starting to catch back
up again the check engine light came on in my car.
I am behind on the oil change. But I really was planning on
getting that done in a couple of weeks after the bills for the month
had been paid. Now I'm afraid that I waited too long and now the car
is busted because I couldn't afford to do maintenance on my car
because I was too poor from getting my car fixed. The criticism that
I keep hearing in my head is, “the oil change is a whole lot
cheaper than an entire new engine” yeah, but I still didn't have
money to do the oil change.
Should I have had an oil change
or pay
rent,
or pay electricity,
or pay the phone that I have a contract on
or pay for internet that is Roommate's only window to the
outside world.
Etc.
“you should really live inside of your own
means.” Looking at the spending categories the only ones that I've
spent more this year than last year are the utilities,
transportation, and banking fees. Not really anything that I could
have done much about. And yeah a lot of the money that I saved not
buying beer I ended up spending on groceries, but food spending from last year is WAY down. Especially from money that I saved on not buying lunch and not eating out.
I took it by O'Riley's (not sponsored) to have them plug their
reader into it so see what the issue was and the code said that it
was that the transmission was having gear ratio issues. This could be
as simple as the fluid needing to be changed, and then ranging up to
an issue with the senors, an issue with the computer, or even the
entire transmission needing to be rebuilt.
I was already planning on doing laundry at Mom's house on Tuesday and one of my uncles (Grandpa's Brother) lives nearby and he has a garage and he could probably look at it.
So prayers would be nice for that.
Normally I would have came up with the recipe to cook tomorrow for the lunch for next week. But I just can't focus on anything else but my car being done. I've had four cars in my life. And the last three had died because I didn't take care of them, and now the fourth is now in a questionable state. And I bought this one with the inheritance I got from Dad. So if that car is gone it's like I lost Dad, and then I lost what he gave me. And I lost it because I just didn't take care of it. I really am afraid that Uncle is going to say that it isn't worth saving.
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