Weight:
336.4 lbs ( 153.1 kg)
BMI: 43.2
Waist: 55 in ( 139.7 cm)
WtHr:
74.3%
Breakfast:
Not hungry
Lunch: Ribs
Dinner: BBQ Slow Cooked Chuck Roast
Drinks: Pot of
Coffee, 12 pk Bud Light
When
I woke up this morning I was going to cook up some bacon and eggs like I normally do,
but I really wasn't hungry. I convinced myself that I was just
cooking breakfast out of habit. And when I started writing this out I
started getting hungry, but I'm pretty sure that's just because I'm
thinking about food. I call this effect “Mouth Hungry” a quick
google search shows that “Mouth Hungry” is a term used by other
people and has different meanings for what I've used it for. But it
is important to remember that physical hunger is different from
emotional and/or mental for taste of hunger.
Strange
weather today. When I woke up it was almost 60 (15 c) but some heavy
clouds moved in. The forecast for this afternoon was 36 (2 C) The way
the sky darkened and wind picked up I was getting excited. I was
thinking that a good Kansas thunderstorm was moving in. But the site
that I check the radar on was showing that it was clear. Pretty sure that was the cold front
moving through. These do tend to generate pretty good storms, but this one just
didn't, or at least it didn't around here. There was a pretty good
snowfall, which was surprising as it was kind of warm this last week
or so. The snow did melt pretty quickly which wasn't very surprising
considering how warm it has been the last couple of days.
The
last couple of weeks I haven't been tracking my spending like I've
been wanting to, I held onto the receipts so when I did get around to
logging them I'd have record of the spending. And yesterday I did
finally get around to logging the spending. But strangely none of the
documents on my computer saved yesterday. I'm glad that I did do the
post yesterday because then I wouldn't have yesterday's data for the
spreadsheets that I'm using to track everything. And I'm really glad
that I didn't take out the trash like I really should have. Because
it sucked digging through the trash can, it would have REALLY sucked
to have to dig through the dumpster. And I would have been all kinds
out of bad luck if I had remembered that today was trash day.
Re-logging
all of the spending of the last couple of weeks did take a while, but
I really wasn't as productive as I should have been today. I had the
oil change for the car scheduled for three in the afternoon, and
naturally spent the entire day staring at the clock counting down how
much time is left before I have to leave. This is a bad habit of
mine, whenever I have something to do at a certain time I never do
anything other than count down the time before I have to do the
thing.
I'm
feeling a really high anxiety today. It's not an issue that I have
often enough to think that I have a medical issue, but when I do I
can't shake the feeling that I'm supposed to be doing ten thousand
different things, and I'm screwing up ten thousand other things. When
I get like this I get strange feelings in my chest and in my gut and
I just can't seem to get up and moving; even though I'm mentally
tearing myself up for not doing anything.
I didn't pick up the BBQ sauce that usually do because the sauce that I did pick up was on the "Markdown" sale, but this sauce doesn't smell as good as the other sauces. Probably why it was on "markdown"
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