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Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: AI Cheesy Sausage Spinach Bake Dinner: Salmon Fillets Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Celsius Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 6 Sober Month 1 (Day 45) I was hoping to get a little bit more progress on things by the end of the first month of the year. I guess you could say that a month and a half of sobriety is a good start, but weight loss and financial gain isn't where I was hoping to be. I was late getting to bed last night. (Didn't sleep until 3am) No reason why, I was feeling rebellious. Kind of getting tired of the bed, work, bed, work cycle. Of course not going to bed actually makes me tired. I'm not sure if it was the lack of sleep or the nearly week into Keto I really had to pee a lot today. Keto is good at getting rid of body water. However the smartwatch tracks body water/fat/muscle and the stats re...

Weight: 349 lbs ( 158.3 kg) BMI: 44.8 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Cheese Mustard Snack: Savage Slim Jim Dinner: Bacon Cheeseburger Soup Drinks: Salted Coffee,Powerade Zero Orange, Gatorade Zero Orange, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Monster, Keto Day 5 Sober Month 1 (Day 44) Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I posted at 11pm and then went to strait to bed. I was going to read for a while, but laid right down. The sleep tracker says that I didn't sleep until 2:15am, and I believe it. I'm not sure why it was so hard to fall asleep. I didn't have very many energy drinks yesterday. I tried to avoid energy drinks today to see if I would sleep better tonight. I did have a monster at lunch, but that's not as many as I'd normally have. And I thought I'd try the Gatorade, Powerade is cheaper so I had one of those later in the day. And I did have an energy shot later in the afternoon. But not becaus...

Weight: 345.6 lbs ( 156.8 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Strip Steak and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Garlic Mustard Dinner: Bratwursts Garlic Mustard Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Celsius Energy Mango Lemonade, Powerade Zero Orange, Keto Day 4 Sober Month 1 (Day 43) Roommate had a doctors appointment this morning. He asked me if the Seltzer water had a lot of sodium in it because the doctor told him that he was retaining a lot of water. The seltzer cans say “Low Sodium” Roommate said that he's going to quit drinking my seltzer water. Which works for me because I was buying those to quit drinking beer. Looking at the Keto Day count and the Sober Day counts kind of makes me go on a bender to reset both numbers and sync them up. I know that this is an unwise idea. But ever since I got the idea I can't shake it. “Oh, come on. One day wouldn't hurt” “It's not like you'll go back to buying cases of beer a day” But I do know ...

Weight: 346.6 lbs ( 157.2 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 58.5 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 79.7% Breakfast: Bacon, Chuck Steak, and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Keto Day 3 Sober Month 1 (Day 42) Woke up in the middle of the night last night just DRENCHED in sweat. I thought I had woken up peeing the bed, but the wetness in the bed was only in the top half of the bed. I really had to pee several times during the night. And I had really low energy all morning. A google search says that this could be a range of issues ranging from certain STI's (probably not) High Stress (I haven't been that stressed lately) Changes in hormones (maybe from changing diet?) Certain Cancers (that's unnerving) Low Blood Sugar (I'm guessing on this one) I'm guessing hypoglycemia as I did wake up again today with a hangover like headache, muscle weakness, and tired all day. I was really zapped for energy all day. Even while drinking...

Weight: 347.8 lbs ( 157.8 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 59 in (149.9 cm) WtHr: 79.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Snack: Bar-S Hot Dogs Dinner: Baked Rib Eye Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Keto Day 2 Sober Month 1 (Day 41) YMCA: X Feet didn't hurt this morning, but I felt like I woke up with a hangover style headache. Not sure what that's about.  A bit annoyed by the measurements this morning. Reminding myself that daily fluctuations happen. I think I might have had a bit too much meatloaf last night. Then again justifying daily fluctuations is a shortcut to insanity. And one of the reasons they say to avoid doing daily weigh ins. The Amazon order finally charged my account. It still says that it's going to be delivered tomorrow. And the site says that it was shipped, but the only update on the “See all updates” is “Package left the shipper facility” it doesn't say where it's coming from, but it does say that it's still scheduled to be ...

Weight: 346.6 lbs ( 157.2 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages, Cottage Cheese, Dinner: Stuffed Meatloaf, Green Beans, Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Celsius Energy Keto Day 1 Sober Month 1 (Day 40) YMCA: X The moment I stood up this morning there was like a wave of fire that swept through my feet, but it didn't last long as I got up and moved around. However sitting at the computer my knees and elbows are snapping and popping like crazy. I stepped on the scale to do a weekly weigh in, but Roommate woke up before I could do the video. It is kind of exciting to be down to the level of making progress for the year again. Again, happiness is not a number on the scale, but progress really is the best motivation. Last night Roommate said that he was going to do laundry this morning before I had to go to work so I was goi...

Weight: 347.0 lbs ( 157.4 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Lunch: Fried Chicken Drumsticks, Pringles Dinner: Chuck Steaks Drinks: Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer, 1.25 L Diet Pepsi, Celsius Energy, Sober Month 1 (Day 39) YMCA: X Not down to where I started the year at, but under the average for the year. Waistline is making progress, but it's hard to get as excited about the waist as it is the weight. I keep reminding myself that, “Happiness is not a number on the scale, or the measuring tape” Happiness would be standing up without having to build up the courage to brace for the oncoming pain in the feet. Walking around without cringing in pain. Or the mind improving. Kind of ironic that I'm writing this after work and can't think of a way to expand on that point. But I am feeling that my mind/mood has greatly improved over the last couple of weeks. I worked earlier tha...

Weight: 347.8 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 45 Waist: 58.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Strip Steak Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 1 (Day 39) YMCA: X Had a lot of energy yesterday. So much energy it lasted into the night. I went to bed right after posting last night. But I didn't fall asleep until well after 2am. I was doing the rotisserie chicken until then. I even ran back downstairs to make sure that I put the bacon away. Yesterday I only had two strips of bacon so I wasn't able to have breakfast at home. I did remember to buy more bacon as I left work, but I wasn't sure that I had put it in the fridge. And it would have really irritated me if I had just left the $15 slab of bacon sitting on the counter top all night long. And yeah, I did put it away, I was just jumping out of bed because my brain was running wild. Ro...

Weight: 350.8 lbs ( 159.1 kg) BMI: 45 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Lunch: Cordon Bleu Soup Snack: Kroger Meat Sticks Dinner: Rib eye Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Sober Month 1 (Day 38) YMCA: X I'm a bit annoyed at Cox Communications. I try to pay all of my bills on the 4th Thursday of the month. But they don't release their statement until the 24th, today is the 23rd. So I'll have to wait until tomorrow to finish paying my bills.  Grrr.  Who I'm really annoyed with is Verizon. Every month since I got this phone back in September the bill had been $140.92 each month. But today the bill was $141.18. When I click on the “examine bill changes” it just says “increased $0.26” No reason, it's just more this month, than it was last month. And the estimated bill for next couple of months is going to be $152.29. No reason, no ex...

Weight: 349.6 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ Lunch: Italian Sausage Spinach Soup and Bar-S Hot Dogs https://youtu.be/1CzjLQbZZ2U Dinner: Chuck Steak American Salad with Caesar Dressing Drinks: Salted Coffee with Cream, Kroger Seltzer, Dt Arizona Lemonade Tea, Budweiser Zero Sober Month 1 (Day 37) YMCA: X Woke up this morning and my feet didn't really hurt, but my calves were really stiff and sore. It was like I just ran a marathon, but only in my calves. As I got up and moving they loosened up. I noticed that I haven't had salted coffee over the last week or so. So maybe the lack of salt is making my muscles sore? Maybe the cause of the headache over the last day or two? I made sure to put salt in the coffee this morning and I took my supplements (Fish Oil, Magnesium, Potassium, K2+D3, Vitamin D3) The rent check finally came through today. I have to say I was dancing on sunshine when I...

Weight: 347.6 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chili Dogs (lol it took me three tries to not spell it “Chili Gods”) Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Dr Pepper, Busch NA Sober Month 1 (Day 36) YMCA: X Slow wake up today. Feet didn't hurt, so that was nice. But had a hard time building momentum. It is comfortably warm in the apartment, which I THANK CHRIST for. A couple of years in a row the heater has had issues. Landlord is really good at coming out and fixing problems as soon as I report them, but I REALLY wouldn't want to wake up to the “Arctic Polar Vortex Blast” that we've been having for the last couple of days with the heater crapped out. It is so cold my mom is even cussing about it. Speaking about the arctic polar vortex, I'm feeling sorry for the people in the south of the country. I've heard that Louisiana is getting about 8 inches (20 cm) o...

Weight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Egg Stuff Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Baked Chicken with Rice Drinks: Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sober Month 1 (Day 35) YMCA: X Woke up this morning with a bit of a headache that just kind of lingered all day. Not bad enough to effect (affect?) me too much. But it did seem to drain my energy though. The temperature outside can only politely be described as REALLY FUCKING COLD. It's been snowing off and on. They were saying that they're only expecting a dusting to a trace, or wait, a trace to an inch or wait 1 to 2 inches. They seem to have a hard time deciding how much were supposed to get, but it is Kansas. I wont hate on anybody trying to predict Kansas Weather. It's so cold outside it's even cold sitting here at the computer. I even had to put on a sweatshirt to sit here next to these giant windows that I have in my living room. Trump Day One Prices Bread:...

W eight: 348.2 lbs ( 157.9 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages, Pork Rinds, Onion Dip Dinner: Cheesy Kielbasa Potatoes Drinks: Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Diet Arizona Lemonade Tea, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 1 (Day 34) YMCA: X I didn't get a chance to record this mornings Weekly Weigh In as Roommate woke up earlier than I did. That was probably because of the kid next door. I swear that kid sounds like he's wearing combat boots and running laps around the adjoining wall between our apartments. I get that kids have a lot of energy and it's cold as ass outside so they're not going to be playing outside. But it's a constant, “thump, thump, thump, thump” from one end of the room and then, “thump, thump, thump, thump” to the other side of the room. And then up and down the stairs. Just all day, every day. They've been driving Roommate crazy because t...

Weight: 351.2 lbs ( 159.3 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon, Strip Steak, and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili Dinner: Pork Steak Snack: Savage Slim Jim Drinks: Sugar Free Red Bull, Diet Arizona Lemonade Tea, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Sober Month 1 (Day 33) YMCA: X Spent too long last couple of days fiddling with the 3D Printers to make blog posts. The good news is the hex screws that I thought were all stripped out were actually fine, it was just me being too drunk to work on them properly. (Another thing to add to the list of thousands of reasons I'm glad I stopped drinking.) I installed the extruder that I had been wanting to install for a while now. When I looked at Amazon to see how long ago that it's been sitting in my basement waiting for me to get around to install it. It was back in December 2021. That was THREE YEARS AGO. That was three years of, “I want to get back to this thing that I want to be doing.” I kind of feel like I just w...

Weight: 344.2 lbs ( 156.1 kg) BMI: 44.2 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Snack: Sea Salt Mixed Nuts Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Week 4 (Day 30) YMCA: X Finally some progress on the waist. I know that it's going to be a “Vitamin P” kind of thing, but it would be nice if the waist line was as dynamic as the scale. I have noticed over the last couple of days the gut had been more “Saggy” and soft. Good news is that means I'm losing fat, bad news is that it's going to start drooping under my shirt if I'm not careful. But I'll take saggy gut over sore feet any day of the week. And on that point feet and shins felt amazing this morning. It sucked last night a screw came out of the back of my computer chair. I was able to put the screw back in. And it seems to be holding, but for a while I was thinking that I was going to have to buy a new one. That would kind ...

Weight: 345.4 lbs ( 156.7 kg) BMI: 44.3 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Egg Stuff ? Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Hamburger Patties with Cheesy Garlic Bread Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Week 4 (Day 29) YMCA: X Finally got around to cooking that recipe video that I'm planning to upload next week. I wasn't able to do the taste test part of it because Roommate woke up while I was still cooking. But it did smell quite nice. And I took the opportunity to take inventory of the freezer to set up the meal plan for the week. The recipe that I cooked would have made a better lunch than a breakfast. The recipe called for sausage, but the sausage that I had was only good until today. But I wasn't confident that I would be able to cook it today so I picked up another pack of sausage last night on the way home from work. But as I was able to cook that recipe I ended up having an extra thing of sausage that was ...

Weight: 346.2 lbs ( 157 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Broccoli Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Red Bull, Monster Zero Ultra, Arizona Dt Lemonade Tea, Cayman Jack Margarita Sober Week 4 (Day 28) YMCA: X Woot, new record on days sober. Roommate did offer me a Cayman Jack Margarita, and I did accept. But I wont consider it breaking the streak. Because it's not like I'm drunk after one small can. Now if I were to go buy a case tomorrow and drink that, and then the next day, and then the next day. Yeah that's when I'm back in trouble. He tried to give me some advice on drinking, insisting that if I just moderate the drinking it won't be a problem. But he doesn't seem to understand I CAN NOT moderate. If I buy a case of beer I WILL BE drinking the entire thing. He said that if I just stopped when I felt the buzz it'll be fine. But that's the problem, I wont stop when I...

Weight: 345.8 lbs ( 156.8 kg) BMI: 44.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Divan Dinner: Pork Steak, Garden Salad with Ranch Dressing Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Week 3 (Day 26) YMCA: X I was wired for sound all night last night. I could NOT fall asleep. Sitting at my computer I couldn't even keep my head up. But going to bed I felt like I was hyper charged or something. I tried doing meditation and breathing exercises. But I was distracted by the feeling of my pulse pounding through my hands. Sleep tracker says that I fell asleep around 1:25 but I'm pretty sure it was closer to 2am. It does show that I got considerably more “Deep Sleep” than I normally do so maybe once I passed out I passed all of the way out. FINALLY progress at last. A week and a half into the year and finally under the starting weight of the year. I can't help but think that there might be a connection to how closely I...

Weight: 347.4 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Wasn't Hungry Drinks: Salted coffee with cream and lemon juice, Kroger Energy Shot Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 25) YMCA: X Fell asleep pretty quickly last night and the phone reflects that. I don't think that I'll be playing anything on my phone when I fall asleep anymore. I mean I sleep alright, but I don't want my phone lecturing me that I stayed up too late “watching YouTube” Got another pretty good down today. I'm still up for the year. But only 0.7 lbs (317 g) Who knows, perhaps I'll actually be making progress tomorrow. Got a bit of a hair brained idea this morning. I've been hearing a lot about Scurvy. Dr Berry and a lot of other influences I follow say that isn't a thing on carnivore because Beef actually has a enough Vitamin C, but I've been eating a l...

W eight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup with sour cream Dinner: Slow Cooked Chuck Roast with mushroom Gravy, Green Beans, Salad Drinks: Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Rockstar Sober Week 3 (Day 24) YMCA: X The Sleep record this morning showed something interesting. I did get to bed on time, more or less, and it didn't take me long to fall asleep. But the sleep record said I didn't fall asleep until almost 2 in the morning. I have a guess as to what might make the phone think that I was awake for so long. I'm thinking that it might be because I had set the phone to play some space documentaries to listen to while I drifted off. And I think that the phone saw that I was "watching YouTube videos" instead of being asleep. Clearly the phone was playing videos, and if the phone is playing a video I have to be watching it, right? There's no way I could be asleep while "watchi...