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Weight: 346.8 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Grilled Pork Steaks Drinks: Salted Coffee, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Seltzer,Sugar Free Red Bull, Rockstar Focus Sober Week 2 (Day 15) YMCA: X Two full weeks sober, hadn't done that since July. And broke that streak on Independence Day at Day 19? I think. Day 19 was the last day I started a blog, I don't know if I had started that blog post in the morning and in the evening just decided to buy beer for the Forth of July. But I do have to say that I haven't been mentally or physically craving beer. Doritos hell yeah, but not really beer or alcohol. The real fight has been against habit. When I get off of work, or do the grocery shopping there's the beer sitting right there. Or the days off, like yesterday, I'll sit around thinking that I hadn't bought the beer yet. Spent a lot of time updating the spreadsheets for 2025. It is real...

Weight: 349.6 lbs ( 158.6 kg) BMI: 45.4 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Savage Slim Jim Lunch: Bag of Spicy Dill Pickle Chips Dinner: Bar-s Hot Dogs Snack: Bologna and sliced cheese Drinks: 5 Hour Energy, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Sober Week 1 (Day 14) YMCA: X Probably a bit of TMI in this one So didn't get around to making a post yesterday as the toilet was backing up into the bathtub. This has happened before, but rarely. I was praying that it was just the main sewer line like it was previously. IF that was the case they would just send someone out to clear the line. I called the landlord and he came out while I was at work. But when landlord came out he and Roommate checked the kitchen sink and that wasn't backing up. Meaning it was a clog in the upstairs sewer system. Meaning that the plumber had to go go upstairs. So I spent the free time panic scrubbing the bathroom. That bathroom hasn't been this clean in years. I woke up surprisingly ea...

Weight: 351 lbs ( 159.2 kg) BMI: 45.1 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages, Pringles Cheddar Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Power Aid Zero Orange Sober Week 1 (Day 12) YMCA: X There was leftover pizza this morning but chose to do the bacon and eggs instead. And again I woke up tired. I had sat a pan on the oven and turned it on and sat at my computer and only started cooking breakfast when I was reminded when I started to smell the pan warming up. Today was a really quiet day at work. Most people seem to be pretty chill. I did get into a couple of arguments with people. The Christmas items are naturally discounted 70% off. And a lot of people don't seem to understand that the discount is only on Christmas stuff, and can't comprehend that they can't get 70% off of Valentines Day and Spring merchandise before New Years. Apparently it's false a...

Weight: 348 lbs ( 157.9 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bologna Sandwich, Cheddar Sour Cream Chips Dinner: Gambinos Pizza Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sooter's Red Bull Insert(?) Sober Week 1 (Day 11) YMCA: X Another night when I had a hard time falling asleep. Not feeling stressed or anxious or anything. Just brain wasn't tired. The rest of me was dragging. But brain was doing back flips and jumping jacks Maybe why I had a weird dream. I don't usually have dreams, but when I do they're weird AF. I never have nightmares. I never wake up scared, I just wake up confused. In the dream I was stuck at a bar on the other side of town before dawn without a ride. In the bar there was one of those old soda machines where you put in money and open the door to get your coke. I got my coke, but the guy after me smashed the machine open and complained that he hurt his hand and was going to sue. I was wanting to leave ...

Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.7 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange, Sober Week 1 (Day 10) YMCA: X I got an idea this morning. Roommate's doctor is saying that he's going to be home until March for his leg infection, and Roommate is talking about getting a local job so he can get off of the road and be home every night. I'm wanting to be a YouTuber, but I really don't like making videos when he's home. Partially because I feel that it's not really fair to him to have him effect his time because I want to do my hobby. Also because if he's going to be in the background of my videos he has a quite a foul mouth when he's playing his games. And the things he shouts out would be something that would definitely get me canceled. However he is a dedicated night owl. And I have been wanting to get to bed e...

Weight: 348.4 lbs ( 158.0 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheeseburger Patties, Mac and Cheese Dinner: Mississippi Roast Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Snack: Last of The European Cookies Sober Week 1 (Day 9) YMCA: X Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Didn't feel bad or sick or anything. It's just that sleep just didn't happen. I wonder if it had anything to do with the couple glasses of soda that I had at Grandma's Christmas party. I'm not usually affected (effected?) by caffeine, but lately I've been avoiding any caffeinated drinks in the evenings. But although I had a hard time getting to sleep, I was able to get out of bed fairly easily this morning. I had a bit of a Christmas Miracle this morning. I usually get paid on Thursday and normally when payday lands on a holiday we get paid a day early. I was assuming that we'd get paid on Thursday like normal. I wasn't sure if the pay ...

Weight: 348.6 lbs ( 158.1 kg) BMI: 44.8 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bar-S Hot Dogs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Dinner: Christmas at Grandma Chili Dogs various snacks Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Energy Shot Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Week 1 (Day 8) YMCA: X Heh, down 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the month, up 10 lbs (4.5 kg) for the year.  It'd be fun if I could lose that much in a week, but nah, it's not going to happen. I had to drive my Roommate to a doctor's appointment before I had to go to work so I didn't have time for a proper breakfast. So I just grabbed a pack of hot dogs before work. Roommate says that the doctor told him that he is now officially on the Keto Diet. Kind of sucks, I had some dry lips the other day. I grabbed some lip balm that helped a bit on the lips, but didn't seem to catch a bit. As it feels like I have a paper cut on my upper lip. But at least it doesn't feel li...

  Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.8 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fried Chicken, Macaroni Salad Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Monster Guava Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 7 YMCA: X First time since July that I've gone a full week without beer. It's kind of encouraging that I've went a week without beer without much struggle. But also kind of disappointing that it's been nearly half a year that I've gone a full week without beer. I'd go three or four days, and then back to it. Today, understandably, was insanely busy at work. Thankfully most people understood why it was busy. But of course we had the, “Wow, it's really busy today!” or “Why is it so busy today?” Not sure if people were smart asses or dumb ones. Even the coworkers who are normally the ones I have to constantly chase after were able to keep rushing on their own. Which I...

Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sugar Free Rockstar, Sugar Free Red Bull, Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 6 YMCA: X      Strange last night I had to wake up several times to pee. This is strange for me. Maybe because of how many carbs I ate lately? All of the Seltzer Water?      The up in the weight this morning is within normal daily fluctuations, so I'm trying to not beat myself up too much about the carbs in the last couple of days. Especially considering that some of those carbs were from a Christmas party.       The European Cookies are REALLY good dipped in coffee. The European Cookies are kind of like a box of chocolates, (except you know what you're going to get.) it is a verity box of different cookies. I don't want to eat them...

Weight: 347.6 lbs ( 157.7 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Mac and Cheese with Hot Dogs Dinner: Christmas Gathering With Family Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Raspberry Iced Tea Snack: A couple of “European Cookies” Sober Day 5 YMCA: X I wore the other pair of pants that I bought yesterday. These do have accessory pockets but oddly they have zippers on them. I don't see myself zipping these up too often. These pants have a oddly tight fit around my calves. I'm sure that they'll wear in as well. Another odd thing about them are the front pockets are oddly deep and go straight down. It's nearly up to my elbow deep. And the back pockets are strangely wide. So it's kind of hard to get my wallet out while I'm sitting down. They also seem to smell quite good to dogs, as the roommate's dog has been randomly shoving it's cold nose up against my legs all day long. Very not very good with the diet today...

Weight: 348 lbs ( 157.88 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Jonsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Mushroom Gravy Chuck Roast, packet of beef flavored Ramen Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Day 4 YMCA: X I didn't get around to posting yesterday. Roommate was discharged from the hospital in the next state over, but he didn't have any family members that could go over and pick him up. I have to say that the Flint Hills really are quite stunning. They must be quite beautiful in the spring and summer when everything is green. Instead of the brown, brown, with a bit of brown mixed in that we have here in late autumn/early winter. I think I startled my mother when I posted on Facebook the picture of my dinner saying that this was the first time I had ever visited a Waffle House. It was an impromptu 14 hour road trip that I didn't tell anybody about. I rarely ever leave my house on a normal day, and then “Surpri...

Weight: 350.2 lbs ( 158.8 kg) BMI: 45 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs with Salsa Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Day 2 YMCA: X Elbows and knuckles are popping and cracking like crazy. I don't think I'm in Ketosis just yet as I had Velveeta Dinner yesterday for lunch err, “Lunch” as the first time I ate yesterday was at 4 O'clock in the evening. I had bratwursts for dinner later in the evening. I had picked up the dinner when I was doing the weekly shopping. I fell to the temptation of the glorified mac and cheese. I did manage to fight off the temptation of the beer. I tried to make a recipe video of Bacon and Eggs. But the once again I half cremated the bacon. The first half of the cooking turned out alright. But when I turned it over I let the bacon cook for too long. And the pepper container I have is one of those really big containers and it's starting to run low so all of the peppe...

Weight: 349.4 lbs ( 158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Corned Beef Hash Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, 12pk Busch NA Sober Day 3? YMCA: X Had a hard time getting going this morning. Not feeling physically, mentally, or emotionally bad. Just hard fighting the momentum of just sitting here. Another day where it was like the gravity is up too high or something. I did get around to getting the Bacon and Eggs done. Didn't take the time to have Coffee, but I'm pretty sure that I drink too much of that anyway. Had a good laugh at the radio. A commercial (I don't remember what company the advertisement was for) stated that they'll ALWAYS say “Merry Christmas” because it has always been and it'll always be Christmas to them. They did the spiel for their commercial, then they ended their commercial with, “And we wish you a happy and safe Holiday Season.” I'm going to be laughing a...

Weight: 352.4 lbs ( 159.8 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili Dinner: 11oz Strip Steak Drinks: Pot of salted coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Sober Day 2 YMCA: X       Didn't get the weekly weigh in video done yesterday. I was 12 pounds (5.5 kg) up from the previous weigh in. I shouldn't let a number on a scale dictate my mood. But being five and a half kilograms in two weeks kind of sucked. And being up 20 lbs (9 kg) for the year was just...yeah. And with it being December already it's unlikely that I'll get down to the year's starting weight. It would be kind of fun to lose 20 pounds in one month, but I'm not going to do anything to hurt myself to make that happen.       Did No Shave November, but I am glad that it's December and I can get this thing off of my face. Unfortunately I haven't had time to shave yet. I was too busy brooding yesterday and this morning b...

W eight: 351.4 lbs ( 159.4 kg) BMI: 45.4 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: St. Louis Style Ribs Dinner: Leftover Ribs Drinks: Pot of Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer Sober Day 3 YMCA: Swimming I was able to get up a bit easier today than I have been lately. It helped that I didn't have Twitter (I'm sorry “X”) on my phone. I couldn't find my tape-measure so I'm not 100% certain on my waist measurement, but I'm not going to guess that it changed much. My belly is feeling a bit tight, but that might be the Seltzer water that. I forgot that I wanted to wait until I was done at the Y to step on the scale. And when I first woke up I stepped on it and it said, 353.8 lbs (160.5 kg) That's 1.8 lbs (0.8 kg) up from yesterday. I tried to console myself with the idea of daily fluctuations and happiness isn't a number on the scale. That was a good motivator to go to the YMCA like I want to be doing. And when I got back from the Y ...

Weight: 352.0 lbs (159.7 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Taco Mix Lunch: Cordon Bleu Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer Sober Day 2 YMCA: Weight Room/Cardio Slow start again today. I really just didn't want to do anything. I finally convinced myself that I hated the effects of not moving than I hated the getting up and moving. I woke up at about 7:30 which is really good for me, but it was close to 10am by the time I got up and moving. Something got a-hold of me and it's been a-hold of me all day long. I did convince myself to get to the YMCA and I did stay a little bit longer in the weight room than I did on Saturday, but still feel hesitant being in there. Might just need to build the habit. And again I felt better in the cardio room on the treadmill. I really pushed myself on the treadmill. Got it up to 3 mph (4.8 kph) for 10 minutes. I waited to weigh in until I was back from the YMCA. I've noti...

Weight: 355.2 lbs (161.1 kg) BMI: 45.6 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Chuck Steak Drinks: Pot of Salted Coffee, Diet Mt Dew, Diet Dr Pepper, Coke Zero Sober Day 1 YMCA: No Not a very productive day today. It would be easy to blame the weather. It's a nice gentle rain. The kind of rain that this area needs. But it's the kind that makes it easy to sit here just listening. It really was another one of those, "Blink and it's three hours later" kind of days. Trying to do, "No Shave November"  but I'm starting to get to where the facial hair is getting annoying. I've been told that it stops getting irritating after a point, but I've had yet to find that point. I put some extra shampoo on my face when I showered this morning. It didn't help. I did manage to get a Store Story video posted, and finished editing a recipe video. But I recorded and did most of the editing of both of th...

Weight: 349.6 lbs (158.5 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Baked Bratwursts Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Monster Zero Ultra Sober Day 3 I'll admit, I'm a wimp. I turned on the heater right after I posted that I didn't want to turn on the heater. Saying that you waited until halfway through October to turn on the heater for the first time should be a brag, but there has been some bullshit high temperatures lately. I thought that I had the heater set to about 70 (21 c) but I somehow had it up to almost 80 (27 c) I'm not going to get a recipe video done today. I want to do a weekly Ketovore recipe, but roommate is a over-the-road trucker and he is on his home time. And I don't like making videos when he's home. I don't think that it's fair to him to sit aside his very little time off because I want to do something silly on the internet. I am working on re-editing a video for...

Weight: 348.8 lbs (158.2 kg) BMI: 44.8 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Pizza Hut Taco and Super Supreme Pizza, Parmesan Garlic Wings Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Monster Zero Ultra Sober Day 2 Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I just couldn't keep my eyes open sitting at the computer. But going to bed I was doing an impression of a rotisserie chicken. I don't think that it was “Keto Insomnia” as yesterday was only the first day back into the diet. I think it might be because of the temperature change. It is strange to go from highs in the mid-90's to highs in the 70's without a pretty good storm in between. And the weather has been eerily calm the last couple of days. There hasn't even been a lot of wind. (At lest in Kansas anyway, I'm sure that Florida would have liked to trade us some of our calm sunshine for their hurricanes) It is quite chilly in my apartment, but I'm not will...

Weight: 354.2 lbs ( 160.6 kg) BMI: 45.5 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages, Rockstar Sliver Lunch: Private Selection Pepperoni Mozzarella Rolls, Rockstar Sliver Dinner: Chuck Steak Drinks: Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Sober Day 1 All of my dishes were dirty this morning so I couldn't have the usual bacon and eggs for breakfast. It took a lot of effort to hold off from going to Spangles. That idea came up a couple of days ago and it still sounds like a good idea. But fast food is expensive and not that great any more. I did end up driving around a bit before work. I really wasn't going anywhere I was just trying to stop myself from hitting up a fast food drive through. Annoyingly enough this cruising around made the “Low Gas” alert come on. I usually wait until I'm coasting in on fumes to refill the tank. Normally I just fill up once a month, but the Doctor's trip to Wichita last week and a Family Gathering a...

Weight: 346.8 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 57in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bar-S Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Coffee (1 t-spoon salt) Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange Sober Day 3 Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Not really uncomfortable, just couldn't fall asleep. There was a bit of confusion this morning at the clinic when I arrived. I had an email saying that I had an appointment for a Venipuncture. But when I got there they didn't have any thing showing that I was going to show up, but there was a gap in the schedule. And my main labs aren't due until December. They did what I think they called a CBM. The only thing that I can think of was that when I called the Wichita branch to say I couldn't come in because of work they canceled both of the appointments. After they drew the blood I was given a total. I was a bit shocked to hear that they wanted $15 for an appointment that I didn...