Weight: 337.0 lbs
(152.9kg)
BMI: 43.3
Waist: 58 in (146 cm)
WtHr: 78.4%
Breakfast:
Sausage Patties and eggs
Lunch: Low Carb Goulash
Dinner: Queso
Soup
Drinks: 2x Kroger Energy Shots,
Canned
Soda:
Diet Dr Pepper: 2
Diet
Mt Dew: 2
Diet
Pepsi: 3
Pepsi
Zero: 2
Days Without Beer: 5
The weight has
been on a hell of a streak for the last couple of days, but that's
probably water weight. It would be nice if that streak continued but
three to four pounds a day just isn't going to be something that I
see as something that will continue to happen. But being down 11
pounds since Sunday is definitely something to “Woot” about
I am also kind of
proud of myself that I didn't spend any money yesterday (Wednesday).
I'm really trying to get my spending under control. That's one of the
reasons I'm trying to get a meal plan going. Looking at my
budget spreadsheet it does look like I spent money, but that's just because
I transferred money to my savings account but, “A dollar saved is a
dollar earned”
Breakfast was nice, I accidentally made the perfect over medium eggs. A lot of the time they're usually way too runny or almost burnt, but today they came out perfect.
Lunch was nice, it was the Goulash that I made for this coming up Tuesday's recipe video and this was the first bowl of it that I had. It turned out alright, a bit salty though. But salt is good for you.
Dinner was what I call Queso Soup. That is basically my version of Nachos, just with a smaller Velveeta block and no chips. It's a good comfort food. And it was considerably more ketogenic than the ramen that I had last night.
Coming home
tonight and my ears hurt more than my feet. I was just so wiped out.
I know that Mom is begging me to get to a doctor and has compared her
experience as a “light turning on”. I walked out of the store
seriously wondering how much of the feeling I was feeling after work
was medicinal. Or because it was “Third Day Back From Vacation
Syndrome” I don't know why when you're not in the mood for bullshit
all of the bullshit surrounds you. Murphy's Law? And it was weird
Bullshit all day. All day long I would stand next to people SCREAMING
THEIR NAME an they would just not react. It seemed like all of Kansas
is trying to checkout through the store, but my coworkers just seemed
to be staring at the space between spaces. This could be a couple
pages worth of store stories, but I'm just thinking that I need to
get out of there. Even if I find a doctor, I'm thinking that this job
just isn't good for my mental health.
I'm trying to
remember the first half of the day, but it just went so smooth. The
only real frustration was that I'm the Supervisor I'm supposed to be
the Supervisor, but they keep scheduling me to work almost every
single other job in the front end. I get paid the same no matter
where I'm standing, but it's frustrating that I'm supposedly supposed
to be doing one job but they're scheduling me to do every single job
in the front end.
It was kind of a
shock when I greeted a lady and her response was asking me me how long I
had thought about quitting. Her conversation kind of sounded like she
had just quit her job and she said that she works from home now. I
told her that I have aspirations of being a YouTuber. She asked me how I planned on making money just by watching YouTube all day. I think her assumption
was a YouTuber was someone who watches YouTube videos all day and I
couldn't convince her that a YouTuber is someone who MAKES YouTube
videos. Some days I think that success on YouTube might be a dream of a hope of a crazy idea, but I have a VERY long to do list that I want to work on. And heck at least I have one thing to work on that gives me hope for something else in my life. (wow, that came out over dramatic, but I'm not sure how else to think of it.)
Mom sent me a
message inviting me along with her to an appointment to the clinic
that she goes to and I'm thinking about taking her up on that. I think it might be easier to ask the questions that I want to ask in person, and just showing up out of nowhere feels uncomfortable.
Another interesting thing is how my knees have been popping and cracking all evening as I write this out. They're not hurting or anything. It kind of feels like pressure is releasing.
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