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Weight: 350 lbs ( 158.7 kg) BMI: 44.9 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange, Sober Week 1 (Day 10) YMCA: X I got an idea this morning. Roommate's doctor is saying that he's going to be home until March for his leg infection, and Roommate is talking about getting a local job so he can get off of the road and be home every night. I'm wanting to be a YouTuber, but I really don't like making videos when he's home. Partially because I feel that it's not really fair to him to have him effect his time because I want to do my hobby. Also because if he's going to be in the background of my videos he has a quite a foul mouth when he's playing his games. And the things he shouts out would be something that would definitely get me canceled. However he is a dedicated night owl. And I have been wanting to get to bed e...

Weight: 348 lbs ( 157.88 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Jonsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Sausages Dinner: Mushroom Gravy Chuck Roast, packet of beef flavored Ramen Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Day 4 YMCA: X I didn't get around to posting yesterday. Roommate was discharged from the hospital in the next state over, but he didn't have any family members that could go over and pick him up. I have to say that the Flint Hills really are quite stunning. They must be quite beautiful in the spring and summer when everything is green. Instead of the brown, brown, with a bit of brown mixed in that we have here in late autumn/early winter. I think I startled my mother when I posted on Facebook the picture of my dinner saying that this was the first time I had ever visited a Waffle House. It was an impromptu 14 hour road trip that I didn't tell anybody about. I rarely ever leave my house on a normal day, and then “Surpri...

Weight: 350.2 lbs ( 158.8 kg) BMI: 45 Waist: 58 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs with Salsa Lunch: Baked Chicken Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sober Day 2 YMCA: X Elbows and knuckles are popping and cracking like crazy. I don't think I'm in Ketosis just yet as I had Velveeta Dinner yesterday for lunch err, “Lunch” as the first time I ate yesterday was at 4 O'clock in the evening. I had bratwursts for dinner later in the evening. I had picked up the dinner when I was doing the weekly shopping. I fell to the temptation of the glorified mac and cheese. I did manage to fight off the temptation of the beer. I tried to make a recipe video of Bacon and Eggs. But the once again I half cremated the bacon. The first half of the cooking turned out alright. But when I turned it over I let the bacon cook for too long. And the pepper container I have is one of those really big containers and it's starting to run low so all of the peppe...

Weight: 352.4 lbs ( 159.8 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 58.5 in (148.6 cm) WtHr: 79.1% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili Dinner: 11oz Strip Steak Drinks: Pot of salted coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Sober Day 2 YMCA: X       Didn't get the weekly weigh in video done yesterday. I was 12 pounds (5.5 kg) up from the previous weigh in. I shouldn't let a number on a scale dictate my mood. But being five and a half kilograms in two weeks kind of sucked. And being up 20 lbs (9 kg) for the year was just...yeah. And with it being December already it's unlikely that I'll get down to the year's starting weight. It would be kind of fun to lose 20 pounds in one month, but I'm not going to do anything to hurt myself to make that happen.       Did No Shave November, but I am glad that it's December and I can get this thing off of my face. Unfortunately I haven't had time to shave yet. I was too busy brooding yesterday and this morning b...

W eight: 351.4 lbs ( 159.4 kg) BMI: 45.4 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: St. Louis Style Ribs Dinner: Leftover Ribs Drinks: Pot of Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer Sober Day 3 YMCA: Swimming I was able to get up a bit easier today than I have been lately. It helped that I didn't have Twitter (I'm sorry “X”) on my phone. I couldn't find my tape-measure so I'm not 100% certain on my waist measurement, but I'm not going to guess that it changed much. My belly is feeling a bit tight, but that might be the Seltzer water that. I forgot that I wanted to wait until I was done at the Y to step on the scale. And when I first woke up I stepped on it and it said, 353.8 lbs (160.5 kg) That's 1.8 lbs (0.8 kg) up from yesterday. I tried to console myself with the idea of daily fluctuations and happiness isn't a number on the scale. That was a good motivator to go to the YMCA like I want to be doing. And when I got back from the Y ...

Weight: 352.0 lbs (159.7 kg) BMI: 45.2 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Taco Mix Lunch: Cordon Bleu Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer Sober Day 2 YMCA: Weight Room/Cardio Slow start again today. I really just didn't want to do anything. I finally convinced myself that I hated the effects of not moving than I hated the getting up and moving. I woke up at about 7:30 which is really good for me, but it was close to 10am by the time I got up and moving. Something got a-hold of me and it's been a-hold of me all day long. I did convince myself to get to the YMCA and I did stay a little bit longer in the weight room than I did on Saturday, but still feel hesitant being in there. Might just need to build the habit. And again I felt better in the cardio room on the treadmill. I really pushed myself on the treadmill. Got it up to 3 mph (4.8 kph) for 10 minutes. I waited to weigh in until I was back from the YMCA. I've noti...

Weight: 355.2 lbs (161.1 kg) BMI: 45.6 Waist: 57.5 in (146.1 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup Dinner: Chuck Steak Drinks: Pot of Salted Coffee, Diet Mt Dew, Diet Dr Pepper, Coke Zero Sober Day 1 YMCA: No Not a very productive day today. It would be easy to blame the weather. It's a nice gentle rain. The kind of rain that this area needs. But it's the kind that makes it easy to sit here just listening. It really was another one of those, "Blink and it's three hours later" kind of days. Trying to do, "No Shave November"  but I'm starting to get to where the facial hair is getting annoying. I've been told that it stops getting irritating after a point, but I've had yet to find that point. I put some extra shampoo on my face when I showered this morning. It didn't help. I did manage to get a Store Story video posted, and finished editing a recipe video. But I recorded and did most of the editing of both of th...

Weight: 347.4 lbs ( 157.6 kg) BMI: 44.6 Waist: 57in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chicken Drumsticks and Thighs Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Pot of Coffee (1 t-spoon salt) Many Cans Kroger Seltzer Sober Day 2 I'm not going to lie, I woke up this morning doing math. I only have $40 in my checking account (don't worry my savings accounts each have about $100) The idea that I was balancing what size of case of beer do I want to buy. If I buy a small 12 pk I'll be too tempted to finish it all off and go buy another case, or if I buy a bigger case I'll have less money to last until Thursday when I get paid. And then I got an email. An email reminding me that I have a doctors appointment for a Venipuncture tomorrow. That really put me into a mood. “Oh, yeah. I was supposed to be getting healthier!” The thing that I've been ignoring for the better part of the last six months. I've just been sitting on my butt drinking beer. Feeling...

Weight: 327.6 lbs (147.7 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 4x Bar-S Jumbo Jumbos Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Pot of Coffee Black, 12oz Sugar Free Monster Energy, Powerade Zero Orange, 2x Kroger Energy Shot, Couple cups of water Sober Day 6 It's kind of creepy to weigh the exact same as the day before. Was able to take inventory before work and got a meal plan together. The “Dinner” list looks kind of funny because it's just Rib-eyes over and over. But I didn't have room in my freezer for all of them. Didn't have time to defrost the freezer and wow there was a lot of ice built up. I'll try to defrost it after work. Noticed that I was out of Chili. I don't usually run out of chili, I usually have some variety of chili. Sometimes multiple varieties. I'm going to have to fix that but then again I might want to wait until the freezer is a little less full. I was almost late for work...

Weight: 336.1 lbs (152.4 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Attempting Lunch: 48 Hour Dinner: Fast Drinks: Kroger Seltzer Original, Pot of Coffee Black Sober Day 2 Attempting a 48 hour fast. Fell off of the wagon on Saturday and had some beer. And yesterday (Sunday) I decided to have Fried Chicken and Macaroni Salad for lunch. I have Monday and Tuesday off this week. Since I have two days off in a row I decided to attempt a 48 hour fast. I don't plan on trying this very often as all of the articles that I've came across suggest that this should only be done once or twice a month. I'm kind of glad that I didn't work today because for some reason I woke up at 10:30a. I usually work at 11a it always sucks to jump out of bed and run to work. It took me a while to process that it was so late in the morning. I have no idea why I slept in so late. I had even gotten to bed earlier than I normally would have for a Sunday night. And I didn't eve...

Weight: 332.2 lbs (150.7 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cabbage Soup Dinner: 1.17 lbs Chuck Blade Steak Grilled Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Diet Dr Pepper, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Blackberry Citrus Seltzer Water Sober Day 2 Still didn't go to the YMCA this morning as I'm still horaking up my lungs. I'm still fairly certain that it's just allergies, but I think COVID-19 is still close enough to the zeitgeist that nobody would want to lift weights around someone coughing like I am. And swimming when I can't breathe properly doesn't sound like fun either. Although sitting in the steam room for a bit would probably be beneficial. Had bacon and eggs for breakfast this morning. I've been trying to re-season my cast iron skillet. For a while I was cleaning the skillet with a steal wool scratch pad and baking it. I wasn't using soap water on it, but lately it looked like the patina was starting to come ...

Weight: 332 lbs (150.6 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chile Relleno Soup Snack: Bacon and Eggs Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Black Coffee, Several Cans of sugar free Big K Dr K and Cherry Cola  Sober Day 5 YMCA: No I didn't get around to posting last night. I didn't have any beer, but I did have some fried chicken for lunch and frozen pizza for dinner. This is supposed to be a Keto/Sobriety blog. I guess I could have just made a “Sobriety” post. But this started off as a Keto Blog and it kind of felt strange to write: “Welcome to my usually Keto Blog...” Another challenge that I couldn't overcome was yesterday was the last day of work before I went on vacation this week so when I got home all of ME just kind of shut down. I'm pretty sure I heard the windows shutdown sound when I sat at my computer. Although I did eat a lot of carbs yesterday I woke up feeling pretty good today. Ever since I got home fr...

Weight: 328.8 lbs (149.1 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Nathans Hot Dogs and Cottage Cheese Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango x7 Sober Week 2 (Day 15) Had a laugh that might have messed up the measurement of last nights meditative session. I wasn't paying attention to what the voice was saying because they started the session by saying, “Sit up straight in your chair, your head straight up, and let the stress of your day flow down. Let the stress of the day flow down into the part of the chair where your chair is touching your body” And I couldn't help but interpret that as, “Let the stress of the day flow down, let the stress of the day flow down, and out of your ass” The rest of the meditative session was lost to me because I couldn't help but to bust out laughing about the idea of forcing the daily stress out the ass. I think i...

Weight: 338.6 lbs (153.6 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 5x slices Papa Johns Meat Pizza, Garlic Bites Dinner: 4x Burger Patties with sliced Cheddar and Pepper Jack Cheese Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, 16.9 oz bottle of Cherry Coke zero Sugar, 5400ml water Sober Day 5 Usually when I'm not posting constantly it means that I've fallen off the wagon. But this week I just can not find the time or energy to get literally anything done. I kind of feel like my arms and legs are tied up, every time I try to do something I have other things to do. Today was nice because it was the first day since November when I was able to sit down and I don't have anything coming up anytime soon. Of course I could have been more productive, but sitting down and playing some Minecraft was nice. Sunday I was able to get the Weekly Weigh In video recorded before work, but only a minute or two before I had to leave for work. And when I got home I h...

Weight: 342.8 lbs (155.5 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sober Day 1 Two weeks almost to the day that I've last posted on my “Daily” Blog. The last post on here was the day before Christmas Eve. I told myself that I wasn't considering Christmas as a “Cheat Day” but the problem came when after Christmas I told myself, “Heck it's the end of the year anyway, why not?” and then, “Meh it's still early in the year.” And this last week I've been really struggling with a very heavy flare up of apathy. I just can't seem to give a damn about anything lately. I've been sitting at my computer until I have to go to work, stand around waiting for the day to end, and then going back home and sitting at the computer. The last several weeks have been kind of a gray blur, I've b...

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chicken Enchilada Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, 2800ml water, Days Without Beer 4 I guess yesterday's “eyes open jump out of bed was an anomaly. I had absolutely no “go” this morning. This really was the kind of day where (when?) I was just kind of waiting for the day to end so I could just go home. I keep coming back to the idea that I need to get a “Grown Up Job” I just can't but wonder if I ruined everything by staying at the store for so long. People tell me that I have a good work history because I worked at one place for over 20 years. But now I'm 37 years old with no education, other experiences outside of working at a grocery store. I've been told that it's never too late to go back to school and get an education etc. But I barely have the money or mental energy to work at what I'm doing. IDK m...

Weight: 338.0 lbs (153.3 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Pizza Mix Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime Days Without Beer 3 I remember waking up early this morning. (well, early for me) I had opened my eyes and jumped out of bed. This is not usual for me. I was up walking around at 7:30 this morning. That's usually one of the times when I “wake up” blink and then it's 9:30. But this morning I was up walking around laughing about how I was “eyes open jump out of bed” this morning. Not sure if that's due to Sobriety or because of Keto, but I did like how I felt this morning and for the most of the first three quarters of the day. It took a while to get focused enough to get breakfast cooked. Yeah, it was 7:30 when I was laughing about being up and moving around, but it was still 9:30 by the time I got started on breakfast. And al...

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Rib eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Blackberry Citrus Days Without Beer 2      Going to try to redouble the efforts to avoid alcohol. You can lie on a blog, or to people you talk to (don't think about it too hard) but you can't lie on/to medical tests and I'm eight days away from the first doctors visit in maybe, 25 years? And some of the medications that I'm anticipating them to prescribe I'm going to guess are not going to react well to beer. Not to mention all of the hundreds of other reasons that I want to quit drinking.      Woke up this morning with sharp pains in my heals, I'm going to guess that those are due to the fact that I've been walking around the last day or two close to 340 lbs (154.2 kg) and the beer that I had on Saturday      I w...

Weight: 338.6 lbs (153.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 56.5 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: x Dinner: Fathead Pizza Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Days Without Beer 4      I'm thinking of making a weekly post of what my menu that I'm planning on eating for the week. I still plan on making a Daily Blog post saying what I decided to eat and feel about each day. I'm thinking that if I make a post each week saying what I plan on eating during the week I'm more likely to stick to the food that I have planned out. I'm not sure what to call this <proposed> weekly post. I'm planning on making this each Tuesday since that's my allocated day off each week so that is the day that I have the most time to cook and make a recipe plan for the week. A week being seven days. But I have the idea that for some people coming across a "weekly menu" that starts on a day that is only one day off from the middle of what most people consider th...

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Cottage Cheese with pepper and garlic powder Dinner: Rib eye and butter Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, 1800 ml water Days Without Beer 3 Felt 1,000% better today than I've felt this entire weekend. This is purely speculative but I really stopped feeling good after eating the Nathan's Hot Dogs two days in a row and then a rack of the Kansas City Style Bake in Bag Ribs. And I'm sure that the Michelob Ultra didn't help much. My guess is that I had a reaction to the processed meat in the hot dogs and the “seasonings” on the “Bake in Bag” ribs might have stuff in them that break ketosis. Sure a “Serving” of those ribs might be fine, but I didn't eat “a serving” of that rack of ribs.” and had a hell of a lot more than “a serving” of the Michelob Ultra on Friday. So let's see according to the can there's 2.6 grams of carbohydrates per 12oz can of Mich...