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Weight: 332 lbs (150.6 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chile Relleno Soup Snack: Bacon and Eggs Dinner: Baked Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Black Coffee, Several Cans of sugar free Big K Dr K and Cherry Cola  Sober Day 5 YMCA: No I didn't get around to posting last night. I didn't have any beer, but I did have some fried chicken for lunch and frozen pizza for dinner. This is supposed to be a Keto/Sobriety blog. I guess I could have just made a “Sobriety” post. But this started off as a Keto Blog and it kind of felt strange to write: “Welcome to my usually Keto Blog...” Another challenge that I couldn't overcome was yesterday was the last day of work before I went on vacation this week so when I got home all of ME just kind of shut down. I'm pretty sure I heard the windows shutdown sound when I sat at my computer. Although I did eat a lot of carbs yesterday I woke up feeling pretty good today. Ever since I got home fr

Weight: 328.8 lbs (149.1 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Nathans Hot Dogs and Cottage Cheese Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar Sliver Ice, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango x7 Sober Week 2 (Day 15) Had a laugh that might have messed up the measurement of last nights meditative session. I wasn't paying attention to what the voice was saying because they started the session by saying, “Sit up straight in your chair, your head straight up, and let the stress of your day flow down. Let the stress of the day flow down into the part of the chair where your chair is touching your body” And I couldn't help but interpret that as, “Let the stress of the day flow down, let the stress of the day flow down, and out of your ass” The rest of the meditative session was lost to me because I couldn't help but to bust out laughing about the idea of forcing the daily stress out the ass. I think i

Weight: 338.6 lbs (153.6 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 5x slices Papa Johns Meat Pizza, Garlic Bites Dinner: 4x Burger Patties with sliced Cheddar and Pepper Jack Cheese Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, 16.9 oz bottle of Cherry Coke zero Sugar, 5400ml water Sober Day 5 Usually when I'm not posting constantly it means that I've fallen off the wagon. But this week I just can not find the time or energy to get literally anything done. I kind of feel like my arms and legs are tied up, every time I try to do something I have other things to do. Today was nice because it was the first day since November when I was able to sit down and I don't have anything coming up anytime soon. Of course I could have been more productive, but sitting down and playing some Minecraft was nice. Sunday I was able to get the Weekly Weigh In video recorded before work, but only a minute or two before I had to leave for work. And when I got home I h

Weight: 342.8 lbs (155.5 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon Sober Day 1 Two weeks almost to the day that I've last posted on my “Daily” Blog. The last post on here was the day before Christmas Eve. I told myself that I wasn't considering Christmas as a “Cheat Day” but the problem came when after Christmas I told myself, “Heck it's the end of the year anyway, why not?” and then, “Meh it's still early in the year.” And this last week I've been really struggling with a very heavy flare up of apathy. I just can't seem to give a damn about anything lately. I've been sitting at my computer until I have to go to work, stand around waiting for the day to end, and then going back home and sitting at the computer. The last several weeks have been kind of a gray blur, I've b

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56.5 in (143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chicken Enchilada Soup Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, 2800ml water, Days Without Beer 4 I guess yesterday's “eyes open jump out of bed was an anomaly. I had absolutely no “go” this morning. This really was the kind of day where (when?) I was just kind of waiting for the day to end so I could just go home. I keep coming back to the idea that I need to get a “Grown Up Job” I just can't but wonder if I ruined everything by staying at the store for so long. People tell me that I have a good work history because I worked at one place for over 20 years. But now I'm 37 years old with no education, other experiences outside of working at a grocery store. I've been told that it's never too late to go back to school and get an education etc. But I barely have the money or mental energy to work at what I'm doing. IDK m

Weight: 338.0 lbs (153.3 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Pizza Mix Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime Days Without Beer 3 I remember waking up early this morning. (well, early for me) I had opened my eyes and jumped out of bed. This is not usual for me. I was up walking around at 7:30 this morning. That's usually one of the times when I “wake up” blink and then it's 9:30. But this morning I was up walking around laughing about how I was “eyes open jump out of bed” this morning. Not sure if that's due to Sobriety or because of Keto, but I did like how I felt this morning and for the most of the first three quarters of the day. It took a while to get focused enough to get breakfast cooked. Yeah, it was 7:30 when I was laughing about being up and moving around, but it was still 9:30 by the time I got started on breakfast. And al

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Rib eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Blackberry Citrus Days Without Beer 2      Going to try to redouble the efforts to avoid alcohol. You can lie on a blog, or to people you talk to (don't think about it too hard) but you can't lie on/to medical tests and I'm eight days away from the first doctors visit in maybe, 25 years? And some of the medications that I'm anticipating them to prescribe I'm going to guess are not going to react well to beer. Not to mention all of the hundreds of other reasons that I want to quit drinking.      Woke up this morning with sharp pains in my heals, I'm going to guess that those are due to the fact that I've been walking around the last day or two close to 340 lbs (154.2 kg) and the beer that I had on Saturday      I was going to help

Weight: 338.6 lbs (153.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 56.5 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: x Dinner: Fathead Pizza Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Days Without Beer 4      I'm thinking of making a weekly post of what my menu that I'm planning on eating for the week. I still plan on making a Daily Blog post saying what I decided to eat and feel about each day. I'm thinking that if I make a post each week saying what I plan on eating during the week I'm more likely to stick to the food that I have planned out. I'm not sure what to call this <proposed> weekly post. I'm planning on making this each Tuesday since that's my allocated day off each week so that is the day that I have the most time to cook and make a recipe plan for the week. A week being seven days. But I have the idea that for some people coming across a "weekly menu" that starts on a day that is only one day off from the middle of what most people consider th

Weight: 340.8 lbs (154.6 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 57.0 in (147.3 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Cottage Cheese with pepper and garlic powder Dinner: Rib eye and butter Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, 1800 ml water Days Without Beer 3 Felt 1,000% better today than I've felt this entire weekend. This is purely speculative but I really stopped feeling good after eating the Nathan's Hot Dogs two days in a row and then a rack of the Kansas City Style Bake in Bag Ribs. And I'm sure that the Michelob Ultra didn't help much. My guess is that I had a reaction to the processed meat in the hot dogs and the “seasonings” on the “Bake in Bag” ribs might have stuff in them that break ketosis. Sure a “Serving” of those ribs might be fine, but I didn't eat “a serving” of that rack of ribs.” and had a hell of a lot more than “a serving” of the Michelob Ultra on Friday. So let's see according to the can there's 2.6 grams of carbohydrates per 12oz can of Mich

Weight: 344.8 lbs (156.4 kg) BMI: 44.3 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Bratwursts and Mac and Cheese Dinner: Millionaire Chicken Casserole Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Diet Mt Dew, Dt Dr Pepper Weeks Without Beer 2 (17 Days)      Didn't do much today. I did manage to avoid spending any more money. It seems strange to say, “whoohoo! I didn't buy anything today!” But this is something that I need to work on.      Got the dishes done...again. For someone who keeps wanting to do meal planning I keep finding myself doing dishes. Seriously it feels like all I do each day is doing the dishes again. There are other rooms in the house that need some serious attention, but I keep getting distracted by getting the dishes done.      Had to get dishes done before I could cook the bacon and eggs for breakfast. I don't know if I need more forks, or just get used to constantly be washing the ones that I have.      Not the most Ketogenic lunch

Weight: 342.4lbs (155.3 kg) BMI: 44 Waist: 57.5 in (146 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: X Lunch: Egg Stuff Dinner: Cheesy Ground Beef Casserole Drinks: Rockstar Sugar Free Zero Sugar, Pot of Coffee with cream, Canned Soda:                          Diet Dr Pepper: 4                          Diet Mt Dew: 4                          Diet Pepsi: 5                          Pepsi Zero: 4                          Days Without Beer:3     Apparently alcohol withdraw includes insomnia. I'm not sure if that is effecting me though, according to my smartwatch I did get a whole hour and a half of sleep. /sarcasm I was doing a pretty good imitation of a fish on the wrong end of a taser all night long.       At first I was thinking that it might have been the four cans of caffeinated soda that I had with dinner last night that I drank pretty much right b

Weight: 348.2lbs (157.9 kg) BMI: 44.7 Waist: 57.5 in (146.0 cm) WtHr: 77.7% Breakfast: Sausage patties and eggs Lunch: Instant Pot Chili with cheese and sour cream Dinner: Bratwursts with G Hughes Sugar Free BBQ sauce, mustard, and Ranch Dressing for dipping Drinks: Pot of coffee with cream, Kroger Energy shot, ~16oz water, 2L Big K Caffeine Free Diet Cola Days Without Beer: 1      Quite proud of myself that I was able to wake up so early today. Today was the first day back to work from last weeks PTO and I was wanting to wake up early enough to get the Weekly Weigh In done before work. And I was frustrated all of last week as I woke up after 10am almost every day last week. I know that PTO is supposed to be time off to sit down, but it was frustrating that it was almost noon by the time I got up and going to do anything. But today I was up at the first alarm and up and going by the third. I was in an amazing mood... until I stood on the scale for the weigh in. That hurt.      W

Weight: 338.2 lbs (153.4 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57 in (144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Kraft Deluxe Original Cheddar Mac and cheese with some ground beef and Tomato Paste Dinner: X Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 4500ml water      Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Went to bed earlier than I usually do. I went to bed right after I posted last night right after midnight, but then spent several hours spinning like a rotisserie chicken. According to the health app on my phone I didn't get to sleep until 3am. I was really frustrated when I woke up and saw that it was 10 in the morning already. (And yes I can see how that could be seen as a humble brag) but I really am wanting to get out of bed earlier. And today was one of those days where I would look at the time and be disappointed that it was several hours later.       It's a bit concerning that I am up 4.2 pounds (1.9 kg) today compared to yesterday. I'm trying to tell myself that a daily we

Weight: 338.4 lbs ( 153.50 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 57 in ( 144.8 cm) WtHr: 77% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Chicken Adobo Dinner: X Drinks: Most of a pot of Coffee with cream, ~5400ml water, Had a hard time getting started this morning. I was excited that I woke up close to 7:30. I usually wake up closer to 9am and just kind of lay there until I have to get ready for work. (typically work at 11am, but I have Tuesdays off) However, today was awesome I woke up with the energy to really get going. Unfortunately it was chaotic energy so I couldn't find the focus to get anything done. I kept catching myself doing laps around my kitchen and living room. I would go into the kitchen to cook breakfast. But then I'd see the ingredients in the fridge for the recipes that I want to cook, so I'd think that I'd want to get the ingredients organized, but to do that I'll have to clean off the table, bringing back the thought that I'll have to clean the kitchen, but before

Weight: 339.8 lbs ( 154.1 kg) BMI: 43.6 Waist: 58 in ( 147.3 cm) WtHr: 78.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: X Dinner: Rack of Pork Loin Ribs, Kroger Stadium Style Mild Cheese Dip Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, ~1892ml water, 24 pk Michelob Ultra      Wow, I have not been up on this for far too long. I've been doing the daily weigh in and tracking that on (probably way too many) spreadsheets, but I just haven't been doing pretty much anything else. Not really sure why I stopped doing anything. I didn't WANT to stop doing stuff. I just kept telling myself, “I wasn't very 'Keto' today, I'll just do it tomorrow”. The beer wasn't helping in that area at all. The last several months the large cans of Natural ICE beer have been on sale for $0.99 per can. (It's not a good beer it's just cheep) And I have been taking advantage of this sale. And I have been drinking much more beer than that. As when the store is sold out of the Natural ICE beer I

Weight: 329.8 lbs ( 149.6 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 56.5 in ( 143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: X Dinner: Skillet Chicken Fajita Casserole Drinks: pot of coffee; ~3600ml water with lemon juice, 12pk Bud Light Next      Had a bit of a slow start today. I was laying in bed thinking of all of the stuff I want to get done today, but Tuesdays are my days off, but I have a lot to do today...repeat.      When I did finally convenience myself to get going I was excited to see that I was back under 330 lbs (149.7 kg) again! It's only by 3oz (90g) But hey, it's still under the last goal. Unlikely to meet the next goal ( 320 lbs {145.2 kg} by June 5) 330 lbs is the goal that I've been working on for the longest. And that's the one where I know if I hit it, I'm on the right track. When I'm not doing things right I'm never under 330 lbs. Waistline is up a bit from yesterday, but I'm noticing that the sides of the gut are sinking in again.

Weight: 331.2 lbs ( 150.2 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 56 in ( 142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Bacon Cheeseburger Helper Dinner: Boneless skinless chicken breasts, grilled Drinks: Most of a pot of coffee; ~3600ml Water      It took longer than it should have to get yesterday's post written. I'm guessing that it was a matter of momentum, I hadn't written a blog post in a while so I kind of struggled with coming up with something to say and formulating those things into a fluid thing. I do have to say though; this morning writing all of this just FEELS good. When I try to look over this last week or two it's just a giant blank to me. But as I'm writing this down it feels like I'm contributing to something.      I didn't sleep very well last night. I was sweating like crazy. The strange thing was that it wasn't very hot last night it was only 63 degrees outside (17 C) but I was sweating like I was running through a boiling rain fo

W eight: 335.8 lbs ( 151.1 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 56.5 in ( 143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Hot Dogs w/Ranch Dressing Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of coffee, ~3600ml water      After I posted last night I came across a video about meditation. And I thought it might be interesting to try meditation. And that was the last thing I remember from last night. I don't even remember going to bed. I'm not sure if that means that the meditation worked or if I just fell asleep. Or if that's a sign of meditation working.      I really should have closed the windows before going to bed last night because it was really freaking cold this morning. I'm pretty sure that it was 42 degrees (5.6 C) this morning when I woke up. That really got me woken up. But the feet and legs were really burning. Again once I got up and going the burning went away. The burning in my feet and ankles were rather disconcerting along with the weight tracking back upwards. I'

Had a bit of a hard time posting this post. Every time I tried to copy/paste into any browser everything froze up until I rebooted the entire computer. Strange. I hope that this isn't something wrong with my computer.  Weight: 333.2 lbs ( 151.1 kg) BMI: 42.8 Waist: 56.5 in ( 143.5 cm) WtHr: 76.3% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Hot Dogs w/Mustard Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of coffee, ~4500ml Water      Had a bit of a hard time getting moving this morning. I did gain consciousness at around 7am, but it took me about an hour to get moving. The weather was a nice cool spring day and the windows were open and nobodies heaters or air conditioners were running and it was really nice and comfy. I live right next to the High School and it's nice when their climate control is off. It is just so quiet when it's not running.      First half of work went really quite smoothly. I was kind of nervous because I was going to be running self checkout for three hours and decide