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Weight: 336.8 lbs ( 152.8 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cottage Cheese Bar-S Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Powerade Zero Orange, Arizona Diet Lemonade Tea Keto Week 2 (Day 17) Sober Month 2 (Day 78) I'm sure that I'm not bound by HIPAA or anything but I'm sure that Roommate would rather I didn't share all of his personal medical and employment information here. But the short of it is that he isn't going to go back to work in April. I could go into a long tirade of my frustrations there. But it seems self centered and it would be talking about his personal issues. I can't help but think that I'm going to have to re-balance a lot of things. I'm running really low on gas again so I decided to have lunch at the store. Tomorrow is payday so I was running really low on money in my checking account. I have money in my savings accounts but I don't want to get into...

Weight: 336.2 lbs ( 152.5 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Leftover Bratwursts Dinner: Pizza Soup Drinks: Sugar Free Monster, Kroger Seltzer, Dt Mt Dew, Keto Week 2 (Day 16) Sober Month 2 (Day 77) I did laundry today so not much happened. I didn't have time to take inventory. So I didn't make a meal plan for the week. Had a late lunch because I was at Mom's house doing laundry. More often than not I would have had lunch at Mom's house while the laundry is going, however I had bacon and eggs right before I went to her house. I had leftover bratwursts for lunch because Roommate didn't eat his half of them last night after I baked the set of them last night. And he didn't want them this afternoon. He had gotten a rather upsetting call from his, er, former trucking company. I figured if he didn't want them I'll go ahead and finish them off. That feels rough writing that out like that, but I don't ...

Weight: 338.4 lbs ( 153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Italian Sausage and Spinach Soup Dinner: Chuck Roast with Mushroom Onion Gravy American Blend Salad Caesar Dressing Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Powerade Zero Orange, Kroger Energy Shot Keto Week 1 (Day 14) Sober Month 2 (Day 75) I haven't used the shortening and socks over the last couple of nights because as I was guessing as it warmed back up the dry skin on the back of my hands has gone away. I'm going to hold on to the shortening for now. I'm not sure how long it'll “stay good for” but if it shows signs of “growth” or anything I'll go ahead and pitch it. It think that it might be a good idea to use lotion whenever I wash my hands though. Great weigh in this morning. Both waist and weight are down. I was kind of excited to see that the printer delivery time was updated to an estimated time from 10:15 to 2:15. I was e...

Weight: 340.6 lbs ( 154.5 kg) BMI: 43.8 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Fajita Soup with Sour Cream Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Powerade Zero Orange Keto Week 1 (Day 12) Sober Month 2 (Day 73) Wow that kinda sucks. I forgot to save before I went to bed last night. I had left the computer on because I was still watching some videos, but it was getting late. This morning after I dropped Roommate off at his doctor I was updating the spreadsheets, and then the computer froze. And for some reason just decided to reboot itself for no reason. So I kinda lost what I wrote, at least on the writing program that I use. I could copy and paste from the site back into the writing program, but I wrote a lot more on the blog post than what would fit into the single page that I write these out into. I didn't notice until later in the evening when I was sitting down and writing up the day and I noticed tha...

Weight: 347.0 lbs ( 157.4 kg) BMI: 44.5 Waist: 56in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs, Monster Zero Ultra Lunch: AI Chicken Soup , Monster Zero Ultra Dinner: 11oz Bone in Strip Steak Drinks: Kroger Energy Shot, Powerade Zero Orange Sober Day 2 YMCA: No Absolute negative mood, sore ankles, and swollen knees are telling me that I'm really needing to get back to my diet. I usually do the restart on Sundays, but I was so late on getting the Weekly Weigh in done that I really didn't have time to make a post. And I'm pretty sure that I would have just repeated what I said in the video along with making a “Mark Whines About Work” post. So a mix of “Warning Redundancy Alert” mixed with “Waah-waah people at work irritating me.”Although I did have another addition to Store Stories this evening.  Also the “waiting for Sunday to restart the blog” is something that I need to stop doing. If I fall off of the habit I just need to start back up again. Too many times I...

Weight: 342.4 lbs (155.3 kg) BMI: 43.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno and Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Chuck “Steak” Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Silver Ice Sober Day 4 I have been slipping on this. And the days have been kind of mushing together again. My left foot really has not been happy. I know that I haven't been very good on my diet, but the shoes that I have now I have had for several months now and I think I'm due for a new pair.  Everyday when I wake up I tell myself, “Today, TODAY is the day that I'm going to get back onto the diet and plans” and then I start the day, and then, “well maybe tomorrow will be the day that I get back to it.” And then yesterday Mom shared a message saying that one of my cousins is in the hospital with Diabetic Ketoacidosis. This kinda tells me that I really need to get back into the diet. Cousin has had diabetes for a while no...

Weight: 338.6 lbs (153.6 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: 5x slices Papa Johns Meat Pizza, Garlic Bites Dinner: 4x Burger Patties with sliced Cheddar and Pepper Jack Cheese Drinks: Pot of Coffee Black, 16.9 oz bottle of Cherry Coke zero Sugar, 5400ml water Sober Day 5 Usually when I'm not posting constantly it means that I've fallen off the wagon. But this week I just can not find the time or energy to get literally anything done. I kind of feel like my arms and legs are tied up, every time I try to do something I have other things to do. Today was nice because it was the first day since November when I was able to sit down and I don't have anything coming up anytime soon. Of course I could have been more productive, but sitting down and playing some Minecraft was nice. Sunday I was able to get the Weekly Weigh In video recorded before work, but only a minute or two before I had to leave for work. And when I got home I h...

Weight: 335.2 lbs (152 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Johnsonville Jalapeno Cheddar Smoked Sausages Dinner: Rib Eye Steak Drinks: Couple Cups of Coffee Black,Several cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Silver Weeks Sober 3 (Day 27) Stepdad looked at the car and it was the water pump that had went out. I do admit that he scared the hell out of me when he said that he was going to “Call a wrecker” after he determined that the problem was the water pump. He said that he put some antifreeze in and it just poured right out so he called a wrecker. I'm pretty sure that if I was linked up to an EKG it would have been writing in cursive. But he reassured me that the tow truck was just going to take it to my Granduncle's place for him to work on because it would be bad to drive it any more than absolutely necessary. Sounds like it's going to be an easy fix and it'll be done by the time I get...

Weight: 334.4 lbs (151.7 kg) BMI: 42.9 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Beef Hot Dogs Dinner: Rib eye steak with garlic butter Drinks: Cup of Coffee Black with 1/4 tsp salt, a couple cans of Seltzer water of various flavors, 1500ml water Weeks Sober 3 (Day 26)      When I got up this morning my feet didn't hurt as much as they've had previously. I'm not sure if that is a sign of progress or not, but it is nice to stand up and not feel like the bottom of my feet are being Tased while being on fire. Legs were still a bit stiff and I had a pain in the back of my head but those went away as I got up and moving around.      I put a quarter teaspoon of salt into the coffee this morning because the entire teaspoon of salt that I had put in that cup was a bit too much.      I had decided to download the app that the doctor suggested to install to tack the eating habits. The frustrating thing is that I am pla...

Weight: 334.6 lbs ( 151.8 kg) BMI: 43.0 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Egg Stuff Lunch: Beef Hot Dogs Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Couple cups of coffee with a teaspoon of salt and a splash of cream, Quite a few cans of Seltzer water of various flavors Weeks Sober 3 (Day 23) Not a very productive day today. I am using the last of the Paid Time Off that I have for the year. So I'll have four days off instead of two and when I got up this morning my computer updated the video driver and I thought it'd play games a bit better (it's been looking a bit rough lately) but what game did I play to see if my computer is playing games well? Minecraft. Not the game that pushes the computer the most. I was just going to start it up for a bit, but I kind of got pulled in. I just kind of looked up and it was close to 10 hours later. I really didn't even do anything. I really just flattened out an area to start a farm and the wall to go around it. I did explore a b...

Weight: 335.8 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Tootn' Chili Turkey Dinner: Baked Chicken Drinks: Pot of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, Kroger Seltzer Water Cranberry Lime Weeks Sober 2 (Day 20) I did a bit of re-tweaking to the 2023 and 2024 weight loss tracking spreadsheets before work. For the 2023 spreadsheet I had the wrong number for the BMI goal. It was only off by 2.3 so not a big change and for the 2024 Spreadsheet I was going to change the Waist to Height Ratio tracking to Waist to Hip Ratio, but I've been doing Waist to Height Ratio for so long I think changing what WtHR means would just cause confusion. It's kind of unfortunate that both Height and Hip both start with the letter “H” otherwise it wouldn't be a big deal. Oh well, that just changes a thing that I was going to change back to the thing that I was already doing. And I'm very grateful for the “Find/Replace” tool on Open Office it ...

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Stroganoff Casserole Dinner: Strip Steak Drinks: Couple cups of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, Sugar Free Rockstar, Kroger Seltzer Water Cranberry Lime Weeks Sober 2 (Day 19) Last night the meditation was kind of strange. I was able to meditate without falling asleep just fine, and I did feel calm after the breathing session, but the “Stress” tracker on my watch said that the level of stress that I was experiencing had gone up instead of down like in previous sessions. I did fall asleep quite easily last night. Strangely the app said that I didn't get to sleep until 2:30 this morning, even though I went to bed closer to midnight. That first doctors appointment when the doctor asked me how well I usually sleep I asked him how much he trusted smartwatches to track sleep, and he seemed to think that they are pretty accurate. Bit of a hard time getting going this morning. ...

Weight: 338.8 lbs (153.7 kg) BMI: 43.5 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Taco Salad Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Couple cups of Coffee black, Kroger Energy Shot, Rockstar Pure Zero Silver Ice, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango Weeks Sober 2 (Day 18) I guess that Queso Soup is bad for weight loss lol, I shouldn't worry about a daily fluctuation, but being up by four pounds in a single day is unfortunate. But considering that the waist hasn't gone up I'm just assuming that I'm just sitting on the food I ate yesterday (Tuesday). I got an email that showed the data of Yesterday's DXA scan. I got to say I DO NOT like the green blob of me laying there. I do have to say that I was surprised of the amount of fat that is in my legs. I knew that I had a serious gut that I had to work on, but I has always assumed that my legs were all muscle as I walk around all day almost every day. And my thighs have always been ...

Weight: 334.6 lbs (151.8 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Queso Soup Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Pot of Coffee black, Kroger Seltzer Water Watermelon, Kroger Seltzer Water Mango Weeks Sober 2 (Day 17) Didn't sleep very well last night. Stayed up later than I should have to listen to the streamer that I like to watch on Monday nights. But when I did finally get to bed I had one of those nights when I jumped out of bed every time I laid down. I could just not lay still. I even tried to do the meditation, the notification disappeared from my phone before I got to bed. But every time I laid down my heart would race and my breathing started racing. It felt like a panic attack every time I tried to get to sleep. This has happened before, but it is a very rare occurrence. I'm not sure what causes this, but it doesn't happen enough to try to figure out. I was able to wake up early enough to eat the regular breakfast of bacon and e...

Weight: 338.0 lbs (153.3 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56.0 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 76.4% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Lazy White Lasagna Dinner: Queso Soup Drinks: most of a pot of coffee with cream, Kroger Energy Shot, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Mango Weeks Sober: 1 (11 Days) Can't seem to find the thought power to write anything in the last couple of days. And today would be really easy to make it a “Mark Whines About Work” blog. I had a lot of interactions that would have made good additions to the To Do list on Store Stories, but a lot of them were things that are already on there, the strange thing is that the list I've compiled over a decade or two is having so many examples in this last week or so. It's also strange that so many people are so Goddamned pissy. Which leads to the question as to if it's everybody around me or is it me projecting on everybody around me. Usually when I drop off on posting on the blog it means that I've fallen off the wagon again, but...

Weight: 338.0 lbs (153.3 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Pizza Mix Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Mandarin Orange, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Cranberry Lime Days Without Beer 3 I remember waking up early this morning. (well, early for me) I had opened my eyes and jumped out of bed. This is not usual for me. I was up walking around at 7:30 this morning. That's usually one of the times when I “wake up” blink and then it's 9:30. But this morning I was up walking around laughing about how I was “eyes open jump out of bed” this morning. Not sure if that's due to Sobriety or because of Keto, but I did like how I felt this morning and for the most of the first three quarters of the day. It took a while to get focused enough to get breakfast cooked. Yeah, it was 7:30 when I was laughing about being up and moving around, but it was still 9:30 by the time I got started on breakfast. And al...

Weight: 338.4 lbs (153.5 kg) BMI: 43.4 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Bratwursts Dinner: Rib eye Drinks: Pot of Coffee with cream, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Water Lemon Lime, 12pk Kroger Seltzer Blackberry Citrus Days Without Beer 2      Going to try to redouble the efforts to avoid alcohol. You can lie on a blog, or to people you talk to (don't think about it too hard) but you can't lie on/to medical tests and I'm eight days away from the first doctors visit in maybe, 25 years? And some of the medications that I'm anticipating them to prescribe I'm going to guess are not going to react well to beer. Not to mention all of the hundreds of other reasons that I want to quit drinking.      Woke up this morning with sharp pains in my heals, I'm going to guess that those are due to the fact that I've been walking around the last day or two close to 340 lbs (154.2 kg) and the beer that I had on Saturday      I w...

Weight: 336.8 lbs (152.8 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Southwest Detox Chicken Soup Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Pot of Coffee, Kroger energy shot, Sugar Free Rockstar Energy Days Without Beer 7      I went to bed early last night. The store closed at 5 last night because of Thanksgiving. And when I got home I just kind of shut down. I really couldn't write anything on the blog or work on any of the many things I want to be working on. An idea that I came up with was because I got off early and mind and body was just feeling like “hey, it's the end of the day were done now” even though I got off early and had a short day. The counter to that thought is on a normal day I do most of the writing on these blog posts after work (writing this first part before work though). The other thought it is probably Holiday Depression. I did feel like I was missing out on something, which is odd because my family going to have the fam...

Weight: 329.6 lbs ( 149.5 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 56 in ( 142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and eggs Lunch: Lasagna Soup Dinner: Burger patties (grilled), Mac and cheese Drinks: couple cups of coffee; ~3600ml water, 6pk Bud Light      Woke up in a good mood. With the recipe videos that I recorded yesterday and the inventory I took of the freezer, I am stocked up with food for the next month and a half. So if I stick with the discipline for the next month and a half the only food I'll have to buy is bacon, coffee, and cream for said coffee. And the only dishes I'll have to do is cleaning off the pan I cook bacon in and rinsing off the bowls/silverware of the leftovers. That is if I have the discipline to stick with this plan. I know that it is a good plan because it worked before. I just didn't have the discipline to stick to it.      The “After Vacation anger” that I was expecting on Sunday showed up today after lunch. I'm not sure how much of i...