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Weight: 328.4 lbs ( 148.9 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Bologna Sandwiches Pringles Cheddar Sour Cream Chips Dinner: Chuck Roast with mushroom gravy Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 289) I was surprised to see the lower number on the scale this morning. I was thinking that the scale was glitching again. But it gave a consistent number over the several times I stepped on it. I didn't do much before work again today. I've just been having a hard time gauging the passage of time. I was sitting here at the computer playing with the spending spreadsheet and weigh in spreadsheets thinking, “oh, it's coming up on 10:30 I should probably get ready for work. OH CRAP IT'S 10:30 I NEED TO GET READY FOR WORK!” The rent check still hasn't gone through. But at least it's now in a time that I have the funds for it to go through. I only worked a hal...

Weight: 329.0 lbs ( 149.2 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Bologna Sandwiches, Pringles Pizza Chips Dinner: Hormel Pork Loin Lemon Garlic Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 9 (Day 288) Woke up in a mood today. It's just that I'm waking up surviving, going back to bed, and then waking up the next day. Again, I'm not tired of surviving, it's just wearying that that's all I'm doing. I can't think of anything that I've made progress on this year. Well, I have lost 17.7 lbs (8 kg) over the year. But I just haven't done much this year. The problem with that thought it is kind of self replicating (not the right term, but I can't think of the right one) I get frustrated because I haven't done anything, and when I try to think of something to do I just think that I haven't done anything. I did try to come up with an idea of a video to work on, and a kid a...

Weight: 330.2 lbs ( 149.8 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Keto Goulash   Dinner: Chicken Alfredo, Garlic Bread Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 9 (Day 287) I woke up earlier than Roommate. I was starting to wonder what was going on, but then he said that his appointment was at 9:15am today instead of the usual 8am. I was quite annoyed at myself after I dropped him off at his appointment. I usually go to do the grocery shopping while he's at his appointment. I had driven all of the way to the big store on the other side of town as it was in the direction of the hospital and I knew that I needed to pick up a new AC Filter. But as soon as I got there I got my phone out and saw that I had forgotten to write the grocery list into the notes app. So I had to run all of the way back home to write down my grocery list. I have the shopping list written up in a spreadsheet and as I come up with...

Weight: 329.2 lbs ( 149.3 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ Lunch: Ham Steak Dinner: Digiorno Three Meat Pizza Ruffles Cheddar Sour Cream Chips Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 9 (Day 286) I didn't get a chance to get around to making a blog post last night as Roommate's TV was having a graphical issue that made it kind of look like an old CRT TV so he got the idea of us watching a movie called Primitive War (that I keep getting the title wrong and keep calling it “primal war”) The movie takes place in 1968 Vietnam as an American recon team is sent into the jungle to find a Green Beret team that had mysteriously gone missing. And they quickly found out that there was a Soviet experiment that went sideways and there were dinosaurs all over the jungle. So it was a Vietnam war movie mixed with Jurassic Park. It, surprisingly, had a lot of character de...

Weight: 330.4 lbs ( 149.8 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54.0 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ Lunch: Keto Goulash https://youtu.be/-RcxiXu4zLM Dinner: Corned Beef Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 9 (Day 285) Keto Day 4 I really need to work on a bad habit. I've been going to bed at around midnight, but then I keep playing with my phone for another hour or so. I need to go to bed and go to bed and go to sleep and not play with the games on the phone, or scroll social media. Wow, the scale really doesn't like it when I'm under 330 lbs (149.7 kg) lol I was excited to see the notification on my phone that Roommate sent me his half of the rent and some money for bills. A bit annoyed that it'll take two business days for it to go from PayPal to my bank, but at least I know that it's on it's way. I could have had it instantly transfer, but that would have had a fee, a...

Weight: 328.2 lbs ( 148.8 kg) BMI: 42.1 Waist: 54.0 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Keto Goulash Dinner: Ham Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Month 9 (Day 284) Keto Day 3 Scale is giving me a bunch of random numbers again. But 328.2 lbs (148.8 kg) seemed to be the most consistent number. If I were to cherry pick it would have been 315.2 lbs (143 kg) THAT would have been nice, but would have been very dishonest. And it wouldn't have done me any favors. I did get around to taking inventory of the freezer and making a meal plan for the week. I was going to try to keep this next grocery run to be under $75, but it looks like the stocking up is going to be a bit expensive. So I think this Tuesday's trip I'm going to do the regular $150. But the things I'm going to buy are going to last a couple of weeks instead of the single week trip that I usually budget for. So p...

Weight: 331.0 lbs ( 150.1 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Pizza Soup   Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 283) Keto Day 2 I was woken up in the middle of the night last night as my right eye and nostril were in a competition on which one could run harder. I took some allergy tablets, it is interesting how quickly those take effect (affect?) I do have to wonder how much of that is placebo. Does placebo work if you know it's placebo? Brains are weird. But it is a very strange feeling when the eyes dry up and sinuses drain out. I was too busy this morning paying bills, balancing and rearranging my budget to cook the goulash that I was wanting to. It was a bit annoying to see that it was already 10:15 by the time I was done paying and moving things around and I had to work at 11. so All I had time to do was cook breakfast and get ready for wo...

Weight: 330.0 lbs ( 149.7 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Pizza Soup   Dinner: Bratwurst Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Powerade Zero Orange, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 10 (Day 282) Keto Day 1 Don't get me wrong, I did love hanging out with Grandma and Mom last night for dinner. I have a very blessed family. But I'm a little disappointed that I broke Keto yesterday. But it is kind of convenient that the first day back on the diet is the first day of the month. I am wondering if I should even do the Keto this month. If I should restrict food spending to 15% of the income that's about $65 per week. And I was thinking that Hamburger Helper is pretty cheep. (not sponsored) I've already bought the groceries for this week so I won't be off the diet for now. But I'm thinking of seeing if I can get the grocery bill for next week to $75. That is over the $65, but that's half o...

Weight: 327.4 lbs ( 148.5 kg) BMI: 42 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: X Dinner: Grandma's Roasted Chicken, Stuffing, Creamed Corn, Chocolate Pudding Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Root Beer Sober Month 10 (Day 281) Keto Day 0 With the Check Engine light being on I was a bit nervous taking Roommate to his doctor's appointment and going to do the shopping. Since O'Riley's (not sponsored) said that it was an issue with the transmission gears As I was doing the errands today I was staring at the tachometer and had the transmission temperature reading on the center console. I don't usually have that reading up so I wasn't sure what “right” was on the reading, but the animation of the thermometer didn't get much higher than about the middle and the tachometer seemed to be pretty stable as I was driving around. As usual for a Tuesday I did the grocery shopping right after I dropped ...

Weight: 329.2 lbs ( 149.3 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Pizza Soup   Dinner: Pork Ribs Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 9 (Day 280) Keto Day 6 Having a hard time. 10 months sober. I was kind of curious messing around with the spending comparison spreadsheet on Friday. The spending is up $513 compared to last year, but I was curious to see how the balances looked each day this year compared to last year. It wasn't a hard task, but it was a bit complicated because the savings strategy has evolved over time so I had to have some columns for the Checking account and then had to build in the columns for the various savings accounts. I knew that I was down from last year. But I hadn't had a day that I had more money this year than last year since March when I had that oil sensor repaired on my car. And then a couple of days here in September were finally getting caught up. I was plann...

Weight: 335.4 lbs ( 152.1 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Member's Mark Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 277) Keto Day 3 The increase in the waist is a bit disconcerting. The waistline doesn't usually move very much. And being up 2 whole inches is weird. Before work I started working on the scheduling and planning of the videos that I want to work on, and WOW that was a burst of energy that I haven't felt in a while. On the way to work I felt the energy dropping really hard. But I was able to recover some of the energy by telling myself that going to work is just going to be the temporary reprieve from working on the videos. The problem with that thought is that I am already feeling like I'm just waiting my life away. I can never do what I want to do because I have to wait for a little bit longer before I can do t...

Weight: 335.2 lbs ( 152.0 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Member's Mark Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Chuck Roast with Mushroom Gravy Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 276) Keto Day 2 All of the Full Time people are being scheduled 39 hours so the store can avoid any overtime. I was kind of nervous when this started this as I was thinking that they were maybe trying to get rid of me, but the other full time people have also had their hours cut. So I was scheduled 12-8 instead of the usual 11-8. Unfortunately the schedule being off kind of threw off my routine, so all I was able to do was count down how much time it was until I had to leave for work. I am glad that the scale is down 1.2 lbs (0.5 kg) but still annoyed that yesterday was 6lbs (2.7 kg) up from the previous day. It is more than a little annoying that it can jump up, but it always crawls down. When I got groceri...

Weight: 331.8 lbs ( 150.5 kg) BMI: 42.6 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: Bacon Cheddar Member's Mark Hot Dogs Lunch: Baked Chicken   Dinner: Pork Ribs Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 9 (Day 271) Keto Week 3 (Day 26) I was going to make steak and eggs for breakfast this morning, but I didn't have any butter. I did buy some butter and aluminum foil this afternoon and when I added the spending to the comparison spreadsheet that I started that compares this years spending to last years spending I was kind of encouraged because this day last year I had spent $30 on Beer and Velveeta dinner. As opposed to today's $8 on butter and foil. Who knows, maybe I'll get to a point where I spend less this year than last year.  I heard the freezer fan buzzing against the ice in the freezer again so I decided to go ahead and thaw out the freezer again. I figured that it'd be better to thaw it out before the ...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: Bacon Cheddar Member's Mark Hot Dogs Lunch:  Lasagna Soup   Dinner: Tilapia Fillets Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Low Carb Monster, Sober Month 8 (Day 270) Keto Week 3 (Day 25) Growling at the scale this morning. But fluctuations happen. I was wanting to find something to do. So I thought of coming up with a spreadsheet to show and compare my spending this year compared to this time last year. Because I know that I had a pretty expensive car repair earlier this year, but I wanted to figure out why I can't get ahead any further than treading water. And looking at the spending categories I am spending less on Food and Dining, not as less as I would like. By this time last year I had spent $2,625.73 on beer. Disappointingly so far this year I've spent $514.12 on Nonalcoholic Beer which is $2,111.61 down from last year. I really could have used that $514. It...

Weight: 329.0 lbs ( 149.2 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Snack: Bacon Cheddar Member's Mark Hot Dogs Lunch: Lasagna Soup   Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Low Carb Monster, Sober Month 8 (Day 269 Nice) Keto Week 3 (Day 24) Today went by really quickly. I'm not even sure what happened. I would blink and it would be several hours later. I really need to find something to do. I really am getting frustrated that I'm not seeming to be doing anything. I'm just sitting here zombie scrolling social media. I played some Minecraft. But honestly all I was able to do was rebuild the stuff that I lost the last time I played and the game glitched and lost all of the stuff I had. I was able to lead some sheep and cows back to my home base to have a bit of a farm. But when I tried to go out to fill out the map I ended up dying and now my gravestone is on the other side of the map. I'm going to see if Roomma...

Weight: 329.2 lbs ( 149.3 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Lasagna Soup Dinner: Hormel Pork loin Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Low Carb Monster, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 8 (Day 268) Keto Week 3 (Day 23) short post because time got away from me playing Oblivion  It was a relief to see the Rent check come through today. Spent the day playing Oblivion. Got a good chunk of the locations discovered now it's just a matter of doing the quests for the locations. And it's kind of fun that one location has quests for other locations. A farmer tasks you to clear out a cave full of goblins to receive a family heirloom that you need to drop off at a shrine kind of quests. While playing the game I was listening to videos on YouTube. But the long form documentaries seemed to have a hard time sticking to a specific topic. For example I clicked on a video that was supposed to be about the Bronze Age Collapse, but half way throu...

Weight: 329 lbs ( 149.2 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Quarters  Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Low Carb Monster, Unsweetened Tea Sober Month 8 (Day 267) Keto Week 3 (Day 22) The last couple of days I've noticed that my feet hasn't hurt in the morning. Not sure if that's because I've been off and not walking around all of the time or because I'm back to the Keto. Last week my feet were hurting so I'm not sure that it's completely because of the diet. Here are some things that I had forgotten to mention yesterday because the evening caught up with me quite quickly: I had gotten a new Debit card in the mail and I was out of seltzer so I ran over to the store to activate the card and get more water. Out of habit I had used the store's app to pay for the water and I was heading out of the store when I caught myself and went to the ATM and activated my card.  And...

Weight: 331.4 lbs ( 150.3 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili   Dinner: KC Strip Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 8 (Day 266) Keto Week 2 (Day 21) Another not very productive day. I was going to start out filling out the map in Minecraft. Roommate had installed a mod that if your character is killed in the game they'll leave behind a tombstone. Without the mod your character will drop all of your stuff which will all disappear if you don't get back to it, but with the tombstone it will hold all of your stuff and give you a pamphlet telling you where your stuff is. It took me a while to get started as I wanted to make a second map and fill out two maps at the same time. But I did get around to starting out and when nighttime fell and monsters were going to start coming out I put up a camp site that's supposed to have the game skip until day when the monsters are suppose...

Weight: 332 lbs ( 150.6 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili   Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 8 (Day 265) Keto Week 2 (Day 20) Not a very productive day. I finished the Really Big Room in Minecraft. So I just sat there for a bit. Looking at the 30x30x30 room that I dug out at bedrock. Looking at it kind of made me feel empty. I got done digging a really big hole, okay and so? It's a really big hole. I decided to go and try to fill out the map, but I didn't feel like playing anymore. I switched back to Bacon and Eggs for breakfast. It was kind of satisfying to switch back to that familiar thing. The strip steak and eggs is a good combination, very flavorful, but the bacon and eggs feels more normal. I had the serving of AI chili for lunch a little earlier than I would normally have lunch as I had lunch at 2:30 when I normally have lunch after 3. I wasn't...

Weight: 330.6 lbs ( 149.9 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheeseburger Soup   Dinner: Hormel Pork Loin Mesquite BBQ Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 8 (Day 258) Keto Week 1 (Day 13) woke up this morning with a really heavy case of the “don't wanna to” don't want to go to work, don't want to mess with the spreadsheets, don't want to look at the financial program. Don't want to do anything. Just a really low mood all over the place. Not physically sick, just no energy. Feet, ankles, and knees are kind of stiff and sore a lot lately as well. Zombie mode again a lot today. Work was running self checkout for an hour working the desk for a couple of hours and then was the manager for the rest of the day. I just spent the time while I was “manager” just conditioning the isles. That's when you pull the items forward and have the labels up front. I was kind o...