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Weight: 328.4 lbs ( 148.9 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Bologna Sandwiches Pringles Cheddar Sour Cream Chips Dinner: Chuck Roast with mushroom gravy Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 289) I was surprised to see the lower number on the scale this morning. I was thinking that the scale was glitching again. But it gave a consistent number over the several times I stepped on it. I didn't do much before work again today. I've just been having a hard time gauging the passage of time. I was sitting here at the computer playing with the spending spreadsheet and weigh in spreadsheets thinking, “oh, it's coming up on 10:30 I should probably get ready for work. OH CRAP IT'S 10:30 I NEED TO GET READY FOR WORK!” The rent check still hasn't gone through. But at least it's now in a time that I have the funds for it to go through. I only worked a hal...

Weight: 329.0 lbs ( 149.2 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Bologna Sandwiches, Pringles Pizza Chips Dinner: Hormel Pork Loin Lemon Garlic Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 9 (Day 288) Woke up in a mood today. It's just that I'm waking up surviving, going back to bed, and then waking up the next day. Again, I'm not tired of surviving, it's just wearying that that's all I'm doing. I can't think of anything that I've made progress on this year. Well, I have lost 17.7 lbs (8 kg) over the year. But I just haven't done much this year. The problem with that thought it is kind of self replicating (not the right term, but I can't think of the right one) I get frustrated because I haven't done anything, and when I try to think of something to do I just think that I haven't done anything. I did try to come up with an idea of a video to work on, and a kid a...

Weight: 330.2 lbs ( 149.8 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Keto Goulash   Dinner: Chicken Alfredo, Garlic Bread Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 9 (Day 287) I woke up earlier than Roommate. I was starting to wonder what was going on, but then he said that his appointment was at 9:15am today instead of the usual 8am. I was quite annoyed at myself after I dropped him off at his appointment. I usually go to do the grocery shopping while he's at his appointment. I had driven all of the way to the big store on the other side of town as it was in the direction of the hospital and I knew that I needed to pick up a new AC Filter. But as soon as I got there I got my phone out and saw that I had forgotten to write the grocery list into the notes app. So I had to run all of the way back home to write down my grocery list. I have the shopping list written up in a spreadsheet and as I come up with...

Weight: 329.2 lbs ( 149.3 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ Lunch: Ham Steak Dinner: Digiorno Three Meat Pizza Ruffles Cheddar Sour Cream Chips Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 9 (Day 286) I didn't get a chance to get around to making a blog post last night as Roommate's TV was having a graphical issue that made it kind of look like an old CRT TV so he got the idea of us watching a movie called Primitive War (that I keep getting the title wrong and keep calling it “primal war”) The movie takes place in 1968 Vietnam as an American recon team is sent into the jungle to find a Green Beret team that had mysteriously gone missing. And they quickly found out that there was a Soviet experiment that went sideways and there were dinosaurs all over the jungle. So it was a Vietnam war movie mixed with Jurassic Park. It, surprisingly, had a lot of character de...

Weight: 330.4 lbs ( 149.8 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54.0 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs https://youtu.be/l5bQ0Y0FXWQ Lunch: Keto Goulash https://youtu.be/-RcxiXu4zLM Dinner: Corned Beef Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 9 (Day 285) Keto Day 4 I really need to work on a bad habit. I've been going to bed at around midnight, but then I keep playing with my phone for another hour or so. I need to go to bed and go to bed and go to sleep and not play with the games on the phone, or scroll social media. Wow, the scale really doesn't like it when I'm under 330 lbs (149.7 kg) lol I was excited to see the notification on my phone that Roommate sent me his half of the rent and some money for bills. A bit annoyed that it'll take two business days for it to go from PayPal to my bank, but at least I know that it's on it's way. I could have had it instantly transfer, but that would have had a fee, a...

Weight: 331.0 lbs ( 150.1 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Pizza Soup   Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 283) Keto Day 2 I was woken up in the middle of the night last night as my right eye and nostril were in a competition on which one could run harder. I took some allergy tablets, it is interesting how quickly those take effect (affect?) I do have to wonder how much of that is placebo. Does placebo work if you know it's placebo? Brains are weird. But it is a very strange feeling when the eyes dry up and sinuses drain out. I was too busy this morning paying bills, balancing and rearranging my budget to cook the goulash that I was wanting to. It was a bit annoying to see that it was already 10:15 by the time I was done paying and moving things around and I had to work at 11. so All I had time to do was cook breakfast and get ready for wo...

Weight: 330.0 lbs ( 149.7 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Pizza Soup   Dinner: Bratwurst Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Powerade Zero Orange, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 10 (Day 282) Keto Day 1 Don't get me wrong, I did love hanging out with Grandma and Mom last night for dinner. I have a very blessed family. But I'm a little disappointed that I broke Keto yesterday. But it is kind of convenient that the first day back on the diet is the first day of the month. I am wondering if I should even do the Keto this month. If I should restrict food spending to 15% of the income that's about $65 per week. And I was thinking that Hamburger Helper is pretty cheep. (not sponsored) I've already bought the groceries for this week so I won't be off the diet for now. But I'm thinking of seeing if I can get the grocery bill for next week to $75. That is over the $65, but that's half o...

Weight: 327.4 lbs ( 148.5 kg) BMI: 42 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: X Dinner: Grandma's Roasted Chicken, Stuffing, Creamed Corn, Chocolate Pudding Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Root Beer Sober Month 10 (Day 281) Keto Day 0 With the Check Engine light being on I was a bit nervous taking Roommate to his doctor's appointment and going to do the shopping. Since O'Riley's (not sponsored) said that it was an issue with the transmission gears As I was doing the errands today I was staring at the tachometer and had the transmission temperature reading on the center console. I don't usually have that reading up so I wasn't sure what “right” was on the reading, but the animation of the thermometer didn't get much higher than about the middle and the tachometer seemed to be pretty stable as I was driving around. As usual for a Tuesday I did the grocery shopping right after I dropped ...

Weight: 329.2 lbs ( 149.3 kg) BMI: 42.3 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs   Lunch: Pizza Soup   Dinner: Pork Ribs Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 9 (Day 280) Keto Day 6 Having a hard time. 10 months sober. I was kind of curious messing around with the spending comparison spreadsheet on Friday. The spending is up $513 compared to last year, but I was curious to see how the balances looked each day this year compared to last year. It wasn't a hard task, but it was a bit complicated because the savings strategy has evolved over time so I had to have some columns for the Checking account and then had to build in the columns for the various savings accounts. I knew that I was down from last year. But I hadn't had a day that I had more money this year than last year since March when I had that oil sensor repaired on my car. And then a couple of days here in September were finally getting caught up. I was plann...

Weight: 335.4 lbs ( 152.1 kg) BMI: 43.1 Waist: 56 in (142.2 cm) WtHr: 75.7% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Member's Mark Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Taco Salad Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 277) Keto Day 3 The increase in the waist is a bit disconcerting. The waistline doesn't usually move very much. And being up 2 whole inches is weird. Before work I started working on the scheduling and planning of the videos that I want to work on, and WOW that was a burst of energy that I haven't felt in a while. On the way to work I felt the energy dropping really hard. But I was able to recover some of the energy by telling myself that going to work is just going to be the temporary reprieve from working on the videos. The problem with that thought is that I am already feeling like I'm just waiting my life away. I can never do what I want to do because I have to wait for a little bit longer before I can do t...

Weight: 335.2 lbs ( 152.0 kg) BMI: 43 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Member's Mark Jumbo Hot Dogs Dinner: Chuck Roast with Mushroom Gravy Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 276) Keto Day 2 All of the Full Time people are being scheduled 39 hours so the store can avoid any overtime. I was kind of nervous when this started this as I was thinking that they were maybe trying to get rid of me, but the other full time people have also had their hours cut. So I was scheduled 12-8 instead of the usual 11-8. Unfortunately the schedule being off kind of threw off my routine, so all I was able to do was count down how much time it was until I had to leave for work. I am glad that the scale is down 1.2 lbs (0.5 kg) but still annoyed that yesterday was 6lbs (2.7 kg) up from the previous day. It is more than a little annoying that it can jump up, but it always crawls down. When I got groceri...

Weight: 336.4 lbs ( 152.6 kg) BMI: 43.2 Waist: 55 in (139.7 cm) WtHr: 74.3% Breakfast: Steak and Eggs Lunch: Pizza Soup https://youtu.be/Ow6p41Hqt1o Dinner: Ham Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull Sober Month 9 (Day 275) Keto Week Day 1 Really disappointed at the scale this morning. I know that happiness is not a number on the scale, but the weight this morning resets the entire weight for the month. Still down 10.3 lbs for the year. I'm not sure if it was the bad breakfast that I had yesterday or what caused the weight gain today. Or if it explained the pain today. But my left foot was really sore all day long. And later in the evening my right butt cheek started feeling sore. Possibly because of compensating for the sore foot. Too wiped out from work to make a full post. I was scheduled to close the desk so I was supposed to get off at 9pm, but right at 8:30 when I was going to start doing the closing reports there was a swa...

Weight: 330.4 lbs ( 149.8 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Village Inn Chicken Fried Steak, Pancakes, and Eggs Lunch: Member's Mark Hot Dogs Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Dr Pepper, Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster Sober Month 9 (Day 274) Keto Week Day 0 Woke up with what felt like a hangover. Headache, sore stiffness, irritability, etc. Nine months sober, so not sure what that was about. Kind a low mood all day today. I would say that the low mood could be because the weather was really dreary, but it did clear up for a while this afternoon. I was going to have Steak and Eggs for breakfast this morning, but Roommate had an appointment this morning and while he's at his appointments I do my weekly shopping. Just as soon as I got home from doing the grocery shopping he called and said that he was done with his appointment. And he said that there was something that sounded like really good progress. I don't want to go into details ...

Weight: 332 lbs ( 150.6 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili   Dinner: Bratwursts Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 8 (Day 265) Keto Week 2 (Day 20) Not a very productive day. I finished the Really Big Room in Minecraft. So I just sat there for a bit. Looking at the 30x30x30 room that I dug out at bedrock. Looking at it kind of made me feel empty. I got done digging a really big hole, okay and so? It's a really big hole. I decided to go and try to fill out the map, but I didn't feel like playing anymore. I switched back to Bacon and Eggs for breakfast. It was kind of satisfying to switch back to that familiar thing. The strip steak and eggs is a good combination, very flavorful, but the bacon and eggs feels more normal. I had the serving of AI chili for lunch a little earlier than I would normally have lunch as I had lunch at 2:30 when I normally have lunch after 3. I wasn't...

Weight: 331.0 lbs ( 150.1 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Egg Stuff Snack: Fun sized chips Lunch: AI Chili   Dinner: Tilapia Fillets Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 8 (Day 264) Keto Week 2 (Day 19) I used up the last of the coffee this morning and had the not so bright idea of running to the store to get more. I did that before I ate breakfast, it's always a bad idea to go to the store hungry. I didn't get much, but I did get the stuff to make Egg Stuff (scrambled eggs with sausage, cheese, and tomatoes). Didn't spend much, but more than I was planning on spending today. My sister hosted a birthday party for my niece celebrating her 10th birthday. She had a couple of cakes at the party, but I was good and didn't have any of the cake. I did grab a couple of the fun sized baggies of chips. Not the most ketogenic things ever, but the baggies said 15g of carbs and if I remember correctly you can hav...

Weight: 326.8 lbs ( 148.2 kg) BMI: 42 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Strip steak and Eggs Lunch: KC Strip Steak Dinner: Ham Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Kroger Energy Shot Sober Month 8 (Day 262) Keto Week 2 (Day 17) I did not sleep very well last night. I was just flopping around all night long. I do remember my alarm going off at 8am. I blinked and then woke up at 10am. Today's weight is a good weigh in as it is the lowest weight of the year so far. Since I slept in and had a hard time getting up and going I didn't have time to drink as much coffee as I normally would have. I had the strip steak and eggs. I didn't get a chance to cook the eggs as thoroughly as I normally would have. The flavor of easy cooked eggs are good, but they're harder to eat in a hurry. And all during the first half of the day at work I was just dead tired. There were some seriously busy moments, but there wa...

Weight: 328.4 lbs ( 148.9 kg) BMI: 42.2 Waist: 53.5 in (135.9 cm) WtHr: 72.3% Breakfast: Strip steak and Eggs Lunch: AI Chili Dinner: KC Strip Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 8 (Day 261) Keto Week 2 (Day 16) The scale was giving me a lot of different numbers again today, but then I noticed that I wasn't standing on the very middle when I corrected the way I stood on it the scale started giving me a constant number. Which was a really good number. The waist is also gone down a bit as well. I had noticed that the gut seemed to be a big “saggier” (a bit amazed that saggier is an actual word) Had some moments when the lower part of my gut had gotten uncomfortable against my belt. But only when I sit down too long. I did the steak and eggs again today as the steaks that I bought the other day was a three pack so I'll finish that off tomorrow...maybe, the steak I had this morning did have a bit of a smell to it so...

Weight: 331.0 lbs ( 150.1 kg) BMI: 42.5 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Strip steak and Eggs Lunch: Baked Chicken Quarter  Dinner: Pork Steak Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sober Month 8 (Day 260) Keto Week 2 (Day 15) Forgot to post yesterday. I just got distracted by Minecraft. I had finished the Grand Staircase down to Bedrock. And got the idea of making a REALLY BIG ROOM. I had “finished” a 20X30 room that was 10 high. Then the mental nagging got to me. That's not square. Why isn't it square. I had to make it square. I spent all of yesterday and a good chunk of today making it a square 30x30 room...but that's not a cube. Why isn't it a cube? So I'm not exaggerating when I say that I spent the last two days just sitting here at the computer making the REALLY BIG ROOM. Right now it's 30X30X20. I hope I don't get too absorbed by this but I will work on it from time to time to make it the 30 cube. But I really don...

Weight: 330.6 lbs ( 149.9 kg) BMI: 42.4 Waist: 54 in (137.2 cm) WtHr: 73% Breakfast: Bacon and Eggs Lunch: Cheeseburger Soup   Dinner: Hormel Pork Loin Mesquite BBQ Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Sober Month 8 (Day 258) Keto Week 1 (Day 13) woke up this morning with a really heavy case of the “don't wanna to” don't want to go to work, don't want to mess with the spreadsheets, don't want to look at the financial program. Don't want to do anything. Just a really low mood all over the place. Not physically sick, just no energy. Feet, ankles, and knees are kind of stiff and sore a lot lately as well. Zombie mode again a lot today. Work was running self checkout for an hour working the desk for a couple of hours and then was the manager for the rest of the day. I just spent the time while I was “manager” just conditioning the isles. That's when you pull the items forward and have the labels up front. I was kind o...

Weight: 327.2 lbs ( 148.4 kg) BMI: 42 Waist: 54.5 in (138.4 cm) WtHr: 73.6% Breakfast: Pork Steak and Eggs Lunch: Cheeseburger Soup Dinner: Cheeseburger patties Drinks: Salted Coffee, Kroger Seltzer, Sugar Free Monster, Sugar Free Red Bull, Gatorade Zero Orange  Sober Month 8 (Day 257) Keto Week 1 (Day 12) Roommate has a stomach bug, woke up several times over the night to hear him retching. When I woke up properly he had called me on the phone to have me bring him some bananas and trash bags, I'll admit when I saw that he was calling me I was kind of worried that he was about to say that he needed to go to the hospital. But no he just has a stomach bug. I wondered what he could have eaten to get sick as I did cook dinner last night. But then I remembered that he had ordered some Taco Bell for his lunch yesterday. Not saying that's the cause of his illness, but I will say that I'm not sick. It's kind of fun when the weight is down exactly one pound. Some of the p...